A Sinful Affair

1st affair

I OPENED my eyes and stared at the ceiling for a while, I felt really disturbed when my alarm clock rang and I didn't even dare to turn it off.

It’s better to hear the sound of the alarm than my parents fight over money in the early morning.

“What a good morning…” I whispered to myself as I got up and stepped down on my PJ's.

 “Ms. Mila, handa na po ang almusal bumaba na daw po kayo utos ni Ma'am Miranda” My yaya Martha told me through the door.

“Pakisabi hindi ako kakain ng almusal,” I replied as I enter the bathroom door.

“Ma'am pag di ka daw kumain kasama nilae wala kang allowance para sa araw na ‘to,” Shiz. My parents really know how caught me off guard.

“Yeah yeah, I'm coming just wait a sec.” sagot ko naman sa kaniya and I took a bath.

So, It seems like I’m pissed off with my life right? Well not really, By the way My name is Mila Ordoñez. My parents claim me to be their heiress but I claim to be their guarantor. My Parents are one of those trying hard business couple who tried to make it big in the industry and now, stocked up and named as the Scamming couple. I mean they just stole 200 Million from innocent people to have all this luxuries that we never need.

It's a pain in the ass.

I went down as soon as I dressed, with my headphones on and full volume metal music to be exact. “Oh good morning, dearie!” my mom said with her fake French accent. I looked at her and smiled, my dad seems pissed off again. He was always pissed off that he always forget that he still have a daughter and my Mom was always busy with her diamonds that she didn't realize her daughter already turned 20 and has a chance of running away with the boy from the neighborhood.

“Hija, sumagot ka naman sa amin.” Mom told me.

“Magandang umaga Mama,” I answered her. Actually my mom hates it when I speak tagalog, she finds it corny and here I am trying speaking the deepest of the language to piss her off.

 “Stop speaking tagalog anak. Its not sossy…” sita ni Mommy sa akin.

Napaikot na lang ako ng aking mga mata. “Nagpapasosyal ka na naman e puro utang na nga kayo,” I told her, pangaasar ika nga.

 “Naku ang batang ito, sinasabi ko na ba Isidro, Mali na tawagin natin ito para sa breakfast!” sigaw ni Mama. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my bag to leave. Mom tried to call me again but I didn't even care to look back.

I don't want to have a bad day anymore.

“Special Merengue galing sa trip ko sa Batangas,” I turned my head and I saw my bestfriend Stephen with the Merengue sweets that he brought from their resthouse.

 “Alam mo ba, ginugulangan mo ang negosyo niyo sa pagkuha ng isang pakete ng meringue para dahil sa akin.” I told him.

“Naks naman, wag kang maalala binili ko to, 80.00 kaya to.” Sagot niya sa akin at saka niya binuksan ang package and told me to have one. I gladly ate one in front of him as he placed his arms on my shoulders.

“Bakit kasi ayaw mong jowain na lang tong bestfriend mo, Chinito na-”

“n***o pa,” sagot ko naman sa kaniya and I laughed.

“Okay, I was trying to play handsome and hot in here.” sagot niya sa akin.

 “Yeah, it's so hot you become roasted like a coal!” sagot ko naman sa kaniya agad naman niya akong binatukan, I pat my head because of it.

“You know what Mila, I love you but don't dare to insult my color, it makes me more in love with you.” Sagot niya sa akin.

“Stop joking around! This  is not a good time to Joke.” sita ko sa kaniya.

“Someone might hear you and make an issue like The Ordoñez Scam couple Daughter was betting on Yui Family to save her ass.” sagot ko sa kaniya.

“Kaya ba gusto mo magbestfriend na lang tayo forever, kahit may MU tayo?” he asked me. I silently nodded at him.

 “MU your face!” I blurted and sighed. “Just wait until I get out of this mess, Stephen.” I whispered at saka na ako tumayo.

“You don’t need to get out of that mess. Nasa loob ka man ng gulong ‘yan o hindi. Nandito pa rin ako para sa’yo…” he seriously responded. That made my cheek blushed a bit.

“Gonna be late for my next class.” I told him at saka ako dumiretso sa aking class. I just sighed when I reached the distance from him. Actually nahihiya ako kay Stephen, hindi ko alam kung saan kukuha ng kapal ng mukha whenever I was with him. Just staying beside me is way to humiliating, just being me is hard.

I bumped into something hard while thinking about Stephen. “Be careful Mila.” He told me and grabbed my shoulders to help get up. I know who it is, It was Seth Von Arcilla, the asshole who did nothing but to play for someone like me. I am not bullied in the sense but the situation that I am into is somewhat humiliating, and we have a similarity in the past that he hates.

Isang bagay na dapat kalimutan na. At isang bagay din na pinagpapasalamat ko na nangyari kung 'di baka paulit- ulit na akong naibenta ng mga magulang ko. “Yeah,” I told him and I got up and grabbed my things, I can feel him staring at me with a smirk written on his face.

My classes for the day went on well, I was doing well and I'm proud because of that. I got A's in our Midterms and everyone in the class just salute me because of that.

 “Ordonez, punta ka daw sa Room 202. May iuutos daw  si Ma'am De Silva sayo.” Sabi ng isa kong kaklase sa akin.

 “Sige, sige pupunta na ako. Can you wait for me before you go home? Siguro saglit lang yun diba?” I asked her.

“Aysus, nagpapahintay ka pa eh. May Papa Stephen, the roasted asian na susundo sa’yo,” she told me. Her name is Aaliyah ang she is nice towards me, she is one of the five people I consider as friend. Next to Yaya Martha and Stephen. I don’t usually trust people around me, given na masyadong judgemental ang mga tao sa society.

 “Oo na, I'll go home alone with him,” I told her.

 “Naks naman, anong gagawin n’yo alone?” mapang-asar niyang tanong sa akin. I rolled my eyes at her dahilan para mag lie low s’ya ng a bit. “Sige na mauuna na kami ha? Text ka pag tapos na inuutos ni De Silva sa’yo. Text ka rin pag nahalikan mo na si Papa Stephen with tongue,” dagdag pa niya sa akin.

 “He is my bestfriend for F's sake. I don't have the plans on kissing him,” I told her but she just laugh it off and raised her middle finger, with I-know-your-type-wag-kang-pabebe-look. Tumawa na rin ako pabalik sa kaniya and immediately went to room 202.

 It was dark when I got there and I entered the room 'Ma'am, I'm here now,” I said and tried to look for the switch pero hindi ko makapa, I was shocked when the door closed loud and a pair of strong arms, I let out a scream because of it.

 “Shh.. .don't worry we are here to play” He replied at nagpumiglas na ako sa mga hawak niya sa akin.

“I wonder how does a Mila Ordoñez taste? Is it good? Or is it yummy?” He whispered in my ears.

That voice, I know his voice. it’s Seth's voice. “What do you need, you psycho. I have no time for this!” I shouted

“But I definitely have time for this.” He told me as he pushed on the floor, I tried to get up pero pinigilan lang niya ako suddenly he was over me. I know what he wanted to do. He wanted to claim my body at kung di ako lalaban. It will be my death. Alam kong mamatay ako because of it and I did, I tried to fight him off nakailang kalmot at suntok ako sa kaniya but he's too strong for me.

“Ano ba?! Seth this is not a joke! get off or else tatawag ako ng guard and- AAH!” I was stopped when he hit me in my abdomen.

“Ang dami mong satsat eh gusto mo rin naman. Come on Mila. Your parents will pimp you soon so, why don't you do it with me then? It's not like you will have to loose something.. you even slept with my dad to have money before right?” he asked me.

“How does it feel to have an old man’s d**k buried inside your p***y?” he jokingly asked me but it’s not a joke. It was something that relieved a dark memory hidden in my head for almost 5 years.

Naiyak na lang ako when I heard it. Yes, the reason why I was very cold to my parents is that they did sold me before. They sold me to Seth's dad to pay off some of their dues but I decided to forget that part of my life and move on.

It’s the only way I have to live and now, that memory will kill me again.

“Is this the reason why are you doing this?” I asked him.

“What do you think was the reason why? I've been lusting for you and you f****d my Dad. My Dad was a lucky asshole to have you.The hell! I feel so envious about it.” He whispered as he gave me sloppy kisses on my neck. Nandidiri ako pero naging mahina na ako, pumapalag ako pero lagi akong napupunta sa pagiisip na I deserve this.

My parents sold me to his Dad pero kahit na walang nangyari sa amin ng dDad niya it will never change the fact that it destroyed his life.

Naalala ko pa yung itsura ni Seth nung nakita niya ako na lumabas ng hotel kasam ang ama niya, naalala ko pa kung umiyak ang ina niya no’n. Nakunsensya ako kahit na alam kong biktima rin ako. Masyado ng lugmok ang magulang ko sa utang na nagkakahalagang isang milyon kaya binenta nila ang katawan ko.

Pero siguro maswerte ako dahil sa hindi ko naranasan ang kamondohan nung oras na iyon sa halip pagmamahal ng isang ama ang nakita ko. Naawa sa akin si Tito Manuel ang Papa ni Seth, Pero nasira naman no’n ang tingin sa kaniya ni Seth at ang ina nito.

I felt a excruciating pain when he entered his thing on mine.

 “f**k!” mura niya at mas lalo akong naiyak.

“Tama na, Seth!” pakiusap ko sa kaniya pero hindi siya nakinig, na kahit napatunayan niyang hindi totoo na may nangyari sa amin ng ama niya dahil nag back out ito when he saw how young I am.

“Seth, nakikiusap ako tama na. Ang sakit na,” sabi ko sa kaniya at umiyak na ako, he reached his zenith and he stopped to look in my eyes. Sobrang natatakot ako pero hanggang panginginig lang ang kaya kong gawin.  

Nothing will change with my life after this and other thoughts kaya lagi na lang akong napupunta sa iyak until I just let him do what he wants.

He claimed me once again at muli akong sumigaw ng malakas, it was painful. Sobrang sakit no’n, I felt it was my whole life who was torned. Pakiramdam ko rin sobrang dumi ko na. His profanities and assaults are unforgivable but my plea seems not to have the right to be heard. Tiniis ko lahat ng ginawa niya sa akin until he decided to leave me in the room, I just found myself crying hard.

 The same way I cried when my parents sold me to his Dad, the same way that I did when I realized that my life will not be the same after what happened. The same way that I did, when I realized that my existence was meant to be a trash.