Weak Luna
743 Words
(Aria POV)
It had been eight months since Mari had stolen me away from EastEnd. Besides a few private moments similar to my first night here, Mari had not pushed for intimacy. What was worse, at least for me, was that both of our wolves would intercede every-time our making out would get heated. I was finally feeling ready for more, but our wolves weren't ready for some unknown, frustrating reason.
I had finally convinced myself I might belong, but last night I had been getting ready to show Mari all of my scars and Rue had stopped me. She had told me it wasn’t time to mark each other.
If I had known you’d react like this, I’d have found a better way to tell you. You can show her, but it’s not time to mark each other just yet.
Why?! Why not? I’m not enough?! We aren’t her mate, are we? This was some kind of mistake. I cried internally. Mari was in a video conference with the other Alphas. Mari had been assigned as the head Alpha of the strike team, so she was constantly on video conferences now to organize everything. If she wasn’t doing that, she was training.
The more I watched her, the more I learned about her, the more I was convinced she couldn’t be mine. She was an impressive fighter in human form. In wolf form, she and Kya were even more formidable. And despite all of this, she took time with me. To hold me, to get to know me. I felt like despite how much she wanted me there, I was holding her back. I couldn’t be a typical mate because we were both women and on top of that I struggled with some of the intimacy things. My body would lock up and tremble randomly. Mari would take her time and we both listened to our wolves, but it did little to calm my soul.
I felt like I was intruding, so I pulled away and focused on what I did best. I ran the household. Despite me trying to push everyone away, I did become fond of the staff members. Hannah was a dear and more than willing to try anything I suggested. The rest of the pack had been just as happy to see me. It was clear they were happy to see Mari happy.
We make each other happy! Isn’t that enough? Rue interrupted my line of thinking.
No, it’s not enough. What about in the future? You saw how she looked at those pups the other day. I can’t give her pups. And even if she didn’t want any, how will the Alpha Bond be passed on? I will not be the death of her pack. Maybe that’s why the Goddess chose me. So that I could let her go and she could find a chosen mate that could offer her pups. I lamented to my wolf. Rue rolled her eyes at me.
You’re being a whiny pup. She sighed. I didn’t disagree. I was grateful when my wolf dropped the subject. I shifted the basket of clothes in my arms to my hip so I could open the door. I froze before I did because I heard low voices.
“I love the Luna, too, love. But Simon, Mari needs to have pups. Besides, the new Luna; she’s so small. Mari is such a strong warrior. What if protecting the Luna compromises the Alpha’s safety?”’ I recognized the soft voice of the Beta’s wife.
“She is our Luna, end of story. The Goddess herself picked her out. I didn’t think you would be one to question the Goddess’ plan, mate?” Simon growled low.
“Like you know anything of Her plan, Simon.” She sassed back.
“I agree with your wife, Beta. I worry that Luna makes our Alpha weak too.”
I couldn’t take it anymore. I would break if I continued to listen. My own pack didn't want me here. I set the basket down and ran to my room. I would leave before Mari's meeting was over. It’d be at least an hour before she found me missing. I just had to make it through the woods.
Aria, stop, please! Rue begged me. We need her. We need our mate. I shoved my wolf to the back of my thoughts and plowed on. We were leaving and we were leaving right now.
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