Chapter 14
1935 Words
Dameon POV
- present time -
“Xavier, don’t ever leave me.” Lexie’s broken voice echoed in my head. She spoke with the unconscious in the hospital. Still, she calls out for him. It broke my heart.
It doesn't help that since she woke up from the hospital a week ago, she has been avoiding me.
I didn’t know if it was because she was still processing finding out I was a werewolf, or was it more?
This was driving me insane.
I knew she was trying to find out answers about werewolves. I’ve seen her with Justin. Justin has been kind enough to explain things to her.
Even though I knew Justin wouldn’t try anything, my possessiveness for Lexie has returned. It was driving me insane to see her and Justin always together.
Ever since we kissed, I’ve wanted nothing else but her. Her smell intoxicated me. Her taste, Makes me want more of her.
Thankfully the only other wolf she talks to is his mom.
I know she was gathering data for her research in her geeky little way. So it hurt even more that she didn’t seek me out for answers.
Mom told me to ease up and stop hovering over her. She still has a lot to process.
Reminding me that the only two people she trusted have lived a double life. Practically lying to her.
Fuck me!
I hate that I was in the same sentence as Xavier. She might have trusted him before but not anymore. Right?
Was she leaving him officially?
Does this mean I finally have a chance?
If so, why was it that she called out Xavier’s name? Twice now. Even the very second she woke up in the hospital, it was still Xavier she called for.
a week ago -
When I found her in the woods, unconscious, I brush her hair off her face. Her skin was pale, and her breathing staggered. As I lifted her and carried her, I noticed the cut on her forearm and her foot dangling obscurely.
I pressed my lips on top of her head. I gently cradle her in my arms as I walk back to the house.
I held her tightly, allowing the heat from my bare chest to warm her.
What would I give to heal?
What would I give for her not to get hurt?
This is why I left. I didn’t want her in our world, this was her first encounter with werewolves, and she was already unconscious with a broken leg.
God dammit, Lexie! I grumble under my breath.
My skin burned to have her this close. If only the sparks were enough to wake her, even heal her. Her head rests on my chest. As I breathe in her scent, I also catch Xavier’s scent.
Growling, jealousy consuming.
I control my jealousy, not wanting to ruin this brief moment of having her so close to me. If only she would allow the pull we have for each other to take control.
present time -
Why does she resist it?
I know that she feels it too. I see it in her eyes when I get too close; I hear it as her heartbeat jumps; I smell it off her if only she would allow it.
Why does she fight it?
Is it, still, because of Xavier? It must be; it always is.
I knew she saw him in wolf form that night, yet she didn’t scream. I would have heard her if she did.
She wasn’t afraid of him. Does that mean she is not scared of me?
And if she isn’t scared, what was her reason to be avoiding me?
I know she feels the same way about me. I could feel it when I kissed her, her body pressed against mine, and her breath hitched as I leaned towards her.
I could taste it from her lips, her want, need, and desire to burn for more.
Has it changed because she knows am a werewolf?
If not, then why Lexie?
I know you are hurting; why are you stopping yourself from letting me in?
If only I could mind linking with her. Yet until I mark her, I will never know if it’s even possible to. I know it wasn’t a sure thing, her being a human, but I was still willing if only I could tell her we were mates and destined to be together.
My kind, the werewolf kind, believes inmates. Humans call it soul mate. The one destined for you. The pull between mates is strong, electrifying, magnetic, like you two halves of a soul. It is scarce for my kind to mate so a human. And unheard of for an Alpha.
That’s because an Alpha’s mate becomes a Luna to a pack. She needs to be one of us, strong, caring and can take on an Alpha and protect her pack.
When Lexie married Xavier, I gave up on the chance of us. Letting go of my mate was the hardest thing for me to do. Being human had far less effect on her than on me. She would never feel the effects of not being with her mate more than I.
If I were so foolish to let her go, I would no longer be ridiculous now? Not after everything, after our kiss. I’ve decided I had to win her over. I needed to fight for my mate, finally. I was no longer letting her go again.
Lost for answers, I shove the desk hard. It flies across the room, hitting the opposite wall. I brush my hair with my fingers before burying my head in them.
“Xavier, don’t ever leave me!” Her raspy voice rings in my head again.
Fucking Xavier. She calls out for him still!
“f**k!” I yell.
“Easy now, Alpha! That table never stood a chance!” Justin walks into the room, making lite of the situation. He walks over to the table and returns it to its original place.
I could only manage a growl.
Justin knew everything about Lexie and how I felt for her all these years. He is not only my beta, but he has been my friend since I arrived here.
He stood with me when I went to the Council to ask for their approval for me to take Xavier’s Luna, arguing that Xavier had broken our laws. Lexie didn’t know what we were, let alone that she was the Luna of a pack. She never accepted the role; no ceremony was ever held. We were not even sure if Xavier marked her.
I knew for a fact she was not his mate. She was mine. The Council refused all my pleads, reminding me of our peace treaty. I ignored their authority the day I found out Xavier beat her.
Not that I cared. It was all these stupid laws that prevented me from being with Lexie.
Justin cleared his throat, breaking my thought.
“So, are you Team Jacob or Team Edward?” Justin sits across the desk and looks at me sheepishly.
“What?” Confused, I look at him.
“She’s seen the movies and read the books, and since you look more like the Twilight werewolves than the Underworld movie versions. She’s curious if you can leap up windows, stay warm all year round, do we imprint? And what else....oh, do we hate vampires, and should she be on the lookout for one?” Justin starts laughing.
“The vampire bit a bit too much, but since she only has known about werewolves a week ago. I thought best if she only knew about one mystical character at a time.” He rubs the back of his neck.
“You can’t be serious” I raise my eyebrow and snicker, shaking my head at the thought of Lexie being all serious while she asked these questions.
“Oh am dead serious,” he shakes his head, “but first, I couldn’t help overhearing your thoughts.”
“Am sorry, I didn’t mean to” I must have been so preoccupied that I am inadvertently mind-linked with Justin.
Werewolves can only talk through mind link in wolf form. If you are a ranked wolf, you can mind link with another ranked wolf in human form. Being Alpha, I could mind-link with anyone from my pack in both states.
The exception, of course, is if your mates. Mates can talk to each other in human and wolf forms. Of course, you both had to be wolves.
“Well, since I heard you, she isn’t afraid of us answering your first ques.” He looks at me sheepishly “ she isn’t afraid of you!” Justin emphasizes the word You,
“Especially since she sees you like a hot wolf boy!” Justin breaks out laughing as he slaps his leg.
I couldn’t help by smile at the thought.
“I was hoping she would go with the Underworld version” I couldn’t control it as I started laughing.
“In all seriousness, thank you for putting up with her questions. I just wished she would come to me.” my laughter dies down.
“You know, I think she’s coming around. She’s been asking about you more and more.” Justin clears his throat as his laughter dies down as well.
“She just..” he looks at me carefully, “she is almost there, I promise you.” He winks at me.
“You know something!” I eye him,
“Nope, my lips are sealed.” He shakes his head.
Traitor - I mind linking him.
I was getting hopeful; mom said the same thing the other day. Especially after Lexie sat with her during dinner. Mom explained how I had a hard time controlling my wolf at first, and that’s why I left.
Justin noticed the change in my facial expression. He smiles at me. “All the waiting game is worth it, man. She’s something, isn’t she?”
“Mine,” I growl at him.
Easy man, - Justin's mind links me,
“You need a level head once she confronts you?” He speaks.
But trust me, you don’t have to wait long - he continued thru the mind link as he gave me a smirk.
Noting the smirk, I knew he has hiding something; I command you like your alpha to tell me - I retort.
No can do Alpha, Luna’s orders - he smiles back at me.
I was taken by surprise, my Luna, Lexie as my Luna. I love the sound of that. I was smiling ear to ear as I daydreamed.
Maybe not mention the mate's thing yet - Justin confined.
So lost in a daydream, I didn’t realize I opened my mind to Justin, and he heard everything I was rambling about between our conversations.
“And, maybe the Luna thing,” he continued. He notices my change in posture. “I mean, she only found out about werewolves. And with her still not talking and getting hurt again. Maybe too much in one week.”
Justin’s capability for empathy makes him a wonderful Beta; he counters my hardness.
“You're right, next week then,” I said, trying to make things lit. But he was right; I needed to help Lexie recover first. All this might be overwhelming for her and push her further into her muteness.
“God dammit, I miss her, thou! ” I close my eyes as I imagine Lexie in my arms.
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