Attacked

Chapter 5

Tent was busy with Sam so Logan came over next and sat next to me. He didnt say a word just sat there. I don't know if it was because he didn't know what to say or if he was waiting for me to talk, but I liked just having him there. It was comforting just having him next to me especially because he didnt say anything. I was tapped out for a little bit and needed to recharge for a few minutes. I know Tyler doesn't think its my fault but I still feel like I shouldn't have invited him over. I'm just waiting for one of the other guys to blame me. I dont really want to hear that this is all my fault though. Samantha suddenly burst free from Trent and ran towards me. I started to brace myself because she always does a flying leap onto my lap. Normally I catch her and swing her around or lift her up in the air before settling her on my lap. Normally it doesnt matter. I'm the fun aunt every other day, but today is going to hurt. I closed my eyes and waited, but she never landed I just heard giggles, "Hey no fair!" I opened my eyes to see Logan with a struggling little Sam in his arms, "Aunt Fia cant play too rough hunny she doesn't feel good. Want to play with me instead?" He stood up tossing her in the air and thus began the, "Again! Again!" game. He walked to the other side of of waiting room with her and Trent walked over taking Logan's seat. His big hand enveloped mine, "Fia you know if you ever need anything you just have to ask right?" I nodded. "What'd the doctor say?" I stared at my hands in my lap, "Um nothing major just a couple fractured ribs." He didnt say anything but his hand tightened on mine a little so I knew he was mad. In my head I was trying to make him feel better, but as I talked I knew I was trying to make myself less scared too, "Its okay though apparently he doesnt actually live in my building. He just said he did so I dont think I'll see him again." Immediately he let go of my hand and stood up pacing back and forth. I was silent while I watched him pace for a few minutes. After a little bit je stopped and glared at me, "So this happened in your building? It didn't happen outside? It happened in your apartment?" I nodded and waited. I knew he wasn't finished. "So this wasn't random at all? He knows where you live!" I stared at my hands in my lap and whispered, "I let him in to cook him dinner. I just wanted a chance okay?" He knelt in front of me and sighed, "A chance for what?" I was getting irritated so I snipped, "I'm not your bratty little sister anymore. I'm twenty six and do you realize I've never even been on a date?" He just stared at me. I was close to tears. He opened his mouth to respond but I held my hand up, "No its fine you dont have to worry anymore I'm not going to talk to guys anymore. I'm done!" I curled into a ball in the chair and faced the window trying not to cry. Before he could say anything else Tegan ran in the doors, "Did I miss it did the baby come?" Trent stood up and met him halfway across the room.Teagan and I made eye contact but before he could demand answers Trent steered him away. I knew he was telling him and I'm glad I didnt have to go through another round with Teagan. I'm tapped out.

Apparently so was Samantha. She was asleep on Logan's shoulder. He carried her back over and I moved over and sat on the bench holding my hands out for her. He laid her down with her little head in my lap. I wanted this. I guess I'll just have to be one hell of an aunt since I'm never going to be a mom. Or maybe I could be a single mom. Then I wouldnt even need a guy. I continued to stroke her hair thinking of options for kids without having to ever have s*x again until suddenly Tj ran out yelling, "Its a boy!" Tegan ran over hugging him, "What?! No way man! I thought they said it was another girl?" He nodded, "They did but I guess with how he was positioned before they missed it. He was just hiding!" Trent patted him on the back and chuckled, "So does this mean we need to repaint while you're here?" Tj's eyes got really big, "Oh s**t we don't have any boy stuff! We even have a pink nursery! What are we going to do?" Trent shook his head, "Dont worry about it. We'll take care of it. You just relax with your wife and..." Tj blushed, "He doesn't have a name yet. We haven't really confirmed a boy name we only had the girl name locked down. I'll let you guys know soon!" Samantha woke up and when she saw her daddy she scrambled off the bench her little legs carrying her as fast as possible, "Daddy!" He picked her up swinging her around, "Theres my princess! Guess what you have a little brother! Want to go meet him?" She nodded and giggled. He was so excited for a boy. He was excited for a girl too. Don't misunderstand he loves his little princess, but we know he would've kept trying for a boy just like our mom kept trying for me. He turned back to us, "I cant bring too many people in just yet. They said I could come get Samantha and then I'll come back down once we get settled in the new room."

By the time we all got to go up and see our new nephew it was after midnight. Trent was taking Samantha home with him. She was asleep in her booster next to me in the car and secretly I wished I could stay with Trent like she was. He drove straight to his house because he wanted to get her in bed as soon as possible. Logan's truck was at Trent's house and he agreed to take me home. Trent bundled up Samantha and gave me a quick goodbye saying we would talk soon. Watching them go inside was hard. It's finally hitting me that I have to go home alone and how much I really miss my mom. She was my best friend and I really miss her. I know how hard it was for her and how tired of fighting she was, but honestly I wish she would've gotten to meet her grandson. She loved Samantha and if I have kids one day they'll never get to know their grandparents. Logan touched my shoulder shaking me from my thoughts, "Sorry spaced out for a minute." I'm terrified of my apartment now but I guess I can't stall anymore.