Rewrite the Stars

EPISODE TEN: I am obsessed with you

I woke up with a ray of sun on my face. There is no Good morning for me. It is not the usual where dad wakes me up and greets me every morning. I know he has the right to be mad at me. I know he is being reasonable. I look at my phone and it is 6 in the morning, this is way too early than the usual time I wake up every time I have 9 am class. I sit up and stare at my window for a couple of seconds. 

“I need to do something.” I murmured to myself and sigh. I stood up and prepared myself for an early jog. Jogging helps me think. I need some time alone. I need to think. I walk to my closet now and fix myself. 

“Dad, I will jog.” I knocked at my dad’s room and no one answered. It is too quiet. I can feel the gap inside our small house and it breaks my heart and bleeds my soul. I am not used to this. We are unbreakable.

“I will go now.” I said and left. I start running without pause. I want to run until my legs feel numb. I want to run until I collapse. I want to think that all the things that are happening are just a dream.

“Hey! Alice!” I stopped and looked where the voice was coming from. I saw Troy. He runs towards me and I feel like my blood is already boiling.

“What are you doing here? I didn’t know that you ran this early.” He said while catching his breath. I remain silent. Troy moved closer and held my shoulder.

“Are you alright?” He asked.

“Don’t f*****g touch me!” I burst out. I am mad. I know I am. 

“Hey, chill out. What is wrong with you?” He asked and I looked at him. I want to see his face while I burn him in hell. If only I have the capability to fire something, I will happily burn him.

“WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! I DIDN’T DO ANYTHING! WHY? WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER?” I shouted. I can see no guilt in his face. I can see him confused in any way. What did I do wrong?

“What are you talking about?” He asked in confusion.

“f**k it!” I shouted and burst into tears. What is wrong with me? I should not cry. They are the ones that should be crying and feeling begging.

“You betrayed me Troy! I trusted you, I thought we were friends.” I said while catching my breath. I feel like my body will soon collapse.

“Yes we are.” Troy said

“I didn’t betray you. I didn’t do anything.” He added and I wiped my tears.

“You know what? All Winx thought that you f****d me. How can you do that? WE DID NOTHING, YET YOU CLAIM AND TOLD MARGARETTE THAT WE DID! ARE YOU THAT OBSESS WITH HER? YOU’RE CLEARLY A DOUCHEBAG! YOU FILTHY COWARD!” I said and I watched him analyze anything. I heard nothing from Troy. Not even an apology or heavy sigh. I picked myself and took my first step. I want to have some air. I can’t breathe here.

“Alice, wait.” Troy said and grabbed my hand.

“Let me go to Troy. I only want a peaceful life, let me walk away with this mess. Please Troy.” I begged. I know I shouldn’t be the one who needs to do this, nut for a peaceful life. I bet I have to. I started to let go but I felt a force pulling me. One moment I know is I can feel Troy’s heartbeat. I am in his arms.

“I don’t know what you are saying Alice. I didn’t say anything… I care about you and I won’t say anything that would destroy you.” Troy said. I can feel his heartbeat and how fast it beat when he told me that. I can feel the sincerity in every word and his hug gives me calm.

“I am not obsessed with Margarette. I am obsessed with you Alice.” Troy added. I can’t explain what I am feeling right now, my eyes suddenly burst into tears. I let go of Troy and moved two steps away.

“This isn’t right.” I said and gave him a weak smile.

“I know, but I can prove this to you.” Troy said and wiped my tears. He patted my head and gave me a kiss on top of my head.

“I have to go now.” Troy said and started running. I was left in a midst of chaos and serenity. What should I do?  Dear God, please help me decide with this. Help me get through this.

I looked at my phone and I decided to go back home. I still have a class and a test to catch up. When I got home I saw my dad having his coffee at the kitchen counter. I can still feel the coldness and the gap between us. He didn’t greet me. He didn’t even look at the door to see who was coming. 

“Dad, I’m home.” I said and my dad remained silent. I didn’t know what I should do. I am trying to approach him. I feel like I will burst out in tears again so I run upstairs. I locked myself and sobbed in my bed.

“Mom, please help me. I need some help mom.” I cried and hugged my pillow with my mom’s favorite shirt. 

“Mom, I need you right now. I need some hug mom. Please.” I said and slowly calmed myself. I picked myself up and prepared for school. I heard my phone ring and I saw Mackie’s name. 

[Hi b***h]

: Hey

[You sound awful. What is wrong?]

:I AM TERRIBLY AWFUL

[I am here in front of your house, let’s go]

I looked outside my window and I saw Mackie waiting for me outside. He is waving his hand and I feel like mom sent Mackie to make me feel better. I ran downstairs and I saw no one. My dad may get to his work.

“Hey, are you alright?” Mackie asked and hugged me

“No. I am not.” I honestly said and hugged him tight.

“b***h, I am not used to this. You have been crying for two days.” Mackie said.

“b***h is not tired, but I am tired.” Mackie added and I laughed. 

*peep peep*

“Alice!” Mackie and I look at the way where the voice is coming. I saw Troy waving and smiling. 

“What is happening?” Mackie asked and gave me a fierce yet suspicious look.

“I don’t know.” I answered and we watched Troy get off of his truck and walk towards us.

“What are you doing here? And how did you know that I live here?” I asked frantically if he flashes his smile.

“Can I offer you a ride?” Troy said. Mackie and I looked at each other and Mackie as usual, as a nice b***h gat best friend.

“Since when do you want to offer ‘us’ a ride?” Mackie said and I looked at Troy. He seems capable of knowing what Mackie is capable of.

“I just confessed my love for Alice.” Troy answered and I Mackie criticized him very well. 

“Since when?” Mackie bitchy said and looked at Troy from head to foot.

“Early this morning.” Troy confidently said and Mackie looked back at me. He moved closer and whispered to my ears.

“You have a lot of stories to tell bitch.” Mackie said and smiling looked at Troy. Troy led us to his Truck and opened the door for me.

“Stop, who told you that Alice will sit beside you? Nah ah, that can’t be. I will sit beside you. I am not done scrutinizing you.” Mackie said and I laughed. Troy confusingly looked at Mackie while Mackie made himself comfortable at his seat. Troy opened the door at the backseat and I smiled at him as a symbol of thank you.

I felt my phone vibrate and when I looked at it, it was Mackie. He just texted me. 

From: Mackie

I thought you were awful? You are just crying for two days and now you have a new love? Wtf?

I looked at Mackie and I saw him looking at me in the mirror. I pursed my lips and smiled. I compose a reply and watch Mackie’s reaction.

To: Mackie

I DIDN’T KNOW! I JUST GO FOR A JOG AND THEN EVERYTHING HAPPENS! I EVEN CALLED IT QUIT WHEN I SAW HIM!

I saw Mackie arched his eyebrow and frantically composed a reply.

“Are you two texting behind my back?” Troy asked.

“NO.” Mackie and I answered in chorus.

“Really?” Troy said and Mackie and I laughed.

“Sometimes, I don’t get Best friend’s thing.” Troy added and Mackie looked at him.

“Just drive, weirdo.” Mackie said I looked at Troy. I can see that these two will somehow get along. 

“Alice? Do you want something before school?” Troy asked. I saw him looking at the mirror and waiting for some response. 

“Do you want some coffee?” Troy asked again and I decided to smile as a response.

“I am taking that as a yes, I guess.” Troy drove to the nearest Starbucks and ordered some coffee. I am not sure what is happening with Troy right now, but at least he is kind. Troy drove to the Campus and parked his car. He opened the door for Mackie and I saw everyone looking at Mackie as he got out of the car. I gulped and I heard the door was unlocked. As soon as it opened, I heard them murmuring. I got out of the car and I saw Mackie looking at me. He walked towards me and whispered. 

“At least you didn’t sit beside him.” Mackie said and I smiled at him. Indeed, Mackie is always there to protect me. 

“Troy, what on earth?” I saw Margarette standing in front of her car while her arms were crossing.

“Margarette, stop.” Troy said and looked at me.

“Please, stop spreading rumors about Alice.” Troy added and everyone murmured.

“What? Isn't that true? That you f****d her inside my office? MY OWN PLACE.” Margarette said and Troy let out a heavy sigh.

“We know that isn’t true. It was only you who believed that we made out in your office Margarette. You are delusional.” Troy said and the murmured became louder. I can’t believe that I am hearing all of this. I felt Mackie’s touch as he held my hands. I looked at him and he was telling me to let Troy end the issue.

“How dare you say that to my face?” Margarette said and furiously looked at me. I saw Troy looking at me too and I didn’t know what to react. I was caught off guard.

 “Don’t drag Alice in your own mess. You are messy, your life is messy. We get it. But you don’t have to drag anyone you want.” Troy said and everyone is looking at us. I don’t know what will happen next but I saw Margarette furiously looking at Troy. She is uttering nothing, but I can feel the tension and the heavy breathing.

“Anyway, you can believe in your own lies.” Troy added and grabbed my hand. I can feel that everyone is looking at us. I look at Troy who keeps walking and never lets me go. I look at our hands and as soon as there is no one around, I immediately let go. Troy stopped and looked at me.

“I am sorry for causing a scene.” I said and he smiled.

“No one can hurt you from now on.” Troy said and walked closer to me. He patted my head and smiled. 

“I will protect you at all costs.” Troy added and I looked at him. I smiled at him and suddenly the bell rang. The hallway becomes crowded with people from different classes. I looked at Troy walking away. He slowly fades. I felt a soft touch in my shoulder.

“That was awesome.” It was Mackie. I can see his eyes shining. 

“That is like a movie though! I love the thought!” Mackie excitedly said and I laughed.

“That is not awesome. That is crazy.” I said and Mackie followed me in my locker. 

“What is your plan now?” I looked at Mackie and shrugged. I really don’t know what will happen next, but I am hoping for the best. I know this will open new chapters in my life but this has to be good. I don't want to ruin nor cause something again.