FRAGMENTS

He said / She said

HE SAID

I know you didn’t see this coming but I believed we were going somewhere. I cared so much I protected you when they said all the bad things about you. You know, they say, “The bad always outweighs the good”. Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck in the wrong generation. And sometimes I feel like my mind is going on a trip.

I should have known that a woman’s mind is not the same as mine. You took me for a fool by telling me all the wrong things, expressing to me all the fake feelings and emotions that you never had. You knew very well that you love him, even though he’s using you, you still love him. Nobody marvels at the sight of a coward who takes for granted the woman he loves.

I’m not Rihanna, but I feel stupid for ever believing all the lies and letting you waste my time. OMFG was I blind not to see all these things? Am I that dumb? I could have known by the way you mistook his name for mine. The way you lose my attention when he’s around. The way he makes you smile without even saying a word, something I could never do. The way you think his ‘not-so-funny’ jokes are hilarious.

But again, who am I to change fate? Maybe I got the wrong idea about love and maybe I still have more to learn. If I was ever wrong about loving you so much that I couldn’t stand to see you getting hurt, then I’m sorry. I hope that someday you’ll put all the pieces together and realize that I did what I did just for you.

SHE SAID

We danced on the earth and forgot that mother nature set up thorns against us. The very first time I met you, I fell in love with you. Cute and adorable; unique, every woman’s dream. At that very moment, I had butterflies and praised God I had found the one. I’m sorry that you think I hurt you, but life is never fair for any one of us. When a woman is hurt she loses all touch, she becomes emotionless and forgets what it feels like to fall in love.

You…you were the problem. If you really loved me, why did you let me fall into that trap? You gave him access to me, remember? If it was never for you, would I have known his existence? LOOK, I find him charming, and for some reason, his magic works on me. I have a weakness and I agree, you’re addicted to alcohol and I’m addicted to him. I heard you smoked weed with him the other day and his addiction could easily become mine.

Tonight I say it all, I let it out, the whole truth. I love you but I’m confused. I love him too. I know you said he has another woman in his life, but that’s okay with me, all I want from him is the truth from the horse’s mouth. The truth will set me free, but my love for him will remain intact.

I guess I am lucky to meet you. A few good men like you exist out there, but women fall HARD, so much that when they fall it’s hard to let go. I hope you find a girl that’s as amazing as you are, but it’s quite clear I’m not the one. It would be so unfair for me to love a man with a pure heart when my linen is as dirty as a game of politics. I hope we continue as friends and don’t worry about him. I know how to take care of myself. I’m a big girl and he’s not the first of that kind I’ve met.