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Of course I realized that I shouldn’t call. It is, after all, decidedly futile. After such calls, things only get worse. Regardless of the outcome. For example, you break down and call. Before you do, you come up with some reason, suck some excuse out of your thumb and dial the magic number… and no one answers. You weren’t feeling so great in the first place, before the call, but now… it’s simply unbearable! Why didn’t she pick up? Didn’t she hear it ringing? What if the number came up on the caller ID, my number, and she didn’t want to answer? Why? Is she tired of me? Or is she busy? Or she is not alone? Why doesn’t she pick up? Maybe I should call from another number, one that she wouldn’t recognize.
Or she picks up, but curtly says, “Sorry, can’t talk right now, I’ll call you back,”
