Angel On Fire

Chapter Six

Song for this chapter: Haunting - Halsey

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"I can't believe you did that." It was in that moment that I realised that there was something profoundly wrong with me. It was in that moment that I left the bar, that I realized that I had something severely wrong with me and it was in that moment that I stopped feeling everything I had felt when I stood within in the proximity of Luke.

What the f**k was wrong with me?

"What's wrong?" Eloise asked as I ignored her statement.

"I think you were right." I said.

"About?" I was growing frustrated with myself as a whole once again. I couldn't understand how one person that I had never met in my entire life, charged up my dead batteries that I thought would remain dead for the rest of eternity.

"The soul connection thing." I said and she looked at me. I had no other explanation of what it could have possibly been. At this current moment, I felt nothing towards the situation and accepted that it could just be what it was, but I knew that if I were to start feeling things again, it would confuse and perhaps even drive me insane.

Did I even want to feel if that were to be the case?

"Do you feel nothing again?" She asked me and I nodded my head. I sighed and accepted defeat for the moment in time. I ran my hand through my brown hair and tied it back with the scrunchie that was on my wrist.

"This is so f*****g weird." She said, sitting back in her seat staring out of the windshield. She could have said that again.

"I've come across many people in my life, but I've never come across anything like this before." It was true. Eloise did a lot of spiritual work for people. One thing she was really good at was energy healing. She even tried with me, but as soon as she tried, she felt blocked. It was strange, but we never thought too much about it. I had suspected that there was just nothing wrong with my energy. Weirdly enough, Eloise said she had never picked bad energy from me. In fact, she picked up purity which hadn't made sense to me, but it was what it was and we just accepted it.

"I really need to figure this out, Ellie. I feel like I'm a useless asset to society. I'm not even a human being. Well, I don't feel like one." I said and she shook her head.

"Listen to me, Molly. You're not - you're far from a useless asset to society. You're important here, and yes you're different from us. Very different, but you're still a human being and you have every right to want the answers you want. You'll figure it out, Molly. All in due time. I think that you need to focus on whatever the hell this is with Luke and see where it leads you. It could be vital to you." I somehow knew that this would be vital. It felt like it could make or break me at this point. Nothing else made sense to me.

"Do you think he's just like me?" I asked her and she shrugged.

"I can't answer that, but you'll figure it out in due time. You're not insane, Molly. You're just different." She had said that to me many times, and every time I tried to believe it. The more she said it though, the more I hoped it was true. I didn't want to be insane. I didn't want to be inhumane. I didn't want to feel nothing anymore. I just wanted to be a person. Why was that so much to ask?

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I wasn't wasting anytime with Luke. This was highly important to me. I dialed the number he had given me and waited for his answer as it rang.

"Hello?" He answered. I felt nothing at the moment, but I had assumed we had to be in close proximity to one another for me to feel something.

"Uh, hey. This is Molly. From the bar." I said.

"Oh. Hi, Molly. It's nice to hear from you." He said and I smiled. He really did have a very nice voice. This was weird for me. It wasn't like me to talk to guys. None of them held my interest, but this was very different.

"I - in no means - mean to be sounding desperate;" he laughed at that, "but I was wondering if you'd like to do something tomorrow?" I asked, chewing on my lip. I wished I could've felt nervousness at least. Perhaps in some cases, me not feeling anything was good. I wasn't nervous, which meant this was easy for me.

"That doesn't sound very desperate to me at all. I would like that very much. What would you like to do?" He asked and I walked over to my bed and sat down. I was thrilled that he was so complacent. He didn't seem weirded out by this at all. I didn't like using people, but this deemed fit.

"Do you remember my friend that was with me last night?" I asked.

"I do." He replied.

"Well, she has a park right outside her house. It's beautiful there and perhaps you'd like to go for a walk? It's a big park." I said and he chuckled.

"Sounds perfect. Could you send me the co-ordinates?"

"Sure thing. I'll text them to you." I wondered what he was thinking at this point. If he thought I was weird and he just didn't want to be rude? Or if there was a possibility that he was maybe just like me. In more ways than one, I hoped that he was. It would make this world suck less.

"Cool, see you tomorrow." He said and I smiled.

"See you tomorrow." And I surely hoped that I would.