Chapter thirty-nine
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_ I'm sorry to have to tell you this, Luna, but the results are clear. You are infertile.
The gynecologist's announcement put an end to Ndeye and Moha's doubts, which had become much more persistent since their meeting with the council of elders three days ago. Moha had tried hard to restore Ndeye's confidence, but she finally believed him. This left her devastated. One of the most horrible things that could happen to a woman was to be deprived of the ability to procreate, and she was now tasting the pain it was causing.
Why her?
Why deprive her of the happiness of holding her baby?
Why did it have to happen to her, the supreme Luna?
Couldn't she have been an ordinary human or anything else?
Without warning, she calmly, far too calmly, got up to leave the office of the world's greatest gynecologist, followed immediately by Mohamed.
_ I want to go to another doctor, another gynecologist, she told him as soon as he reached her.
_ But..., Moha tried.
_ Please.
_ It's okay.
Two weeks later...
_ I'm sorry, Luna, but the results are clear. You are infertile.
When the first gynecologist she and Moha saw told her she was infertile, Ndeye didn't believe it and forced Moha to go to the best gynecologists in the world.
Today, the tenth best gynecologist in the world, after his colleagues with higher rankings, had confirmed their diagnosis: Ndeye was indeed sterile. But she still didn't want to believe it. Beyond the need to ensure the continuity of the supreme lineage, being able to give birth to even one child had always been one of Ndeye's greatest dreams, as she had had no brothers or sisters and had lost her parents, her only family, at a very early age. Never being able to see this dream fulfilled was a wound that was inflicted on her to the very depths of her soul, a wound, a broken dream that she did not want to accept as true. After ten minutes of silence and absence, she immediately jumped on the doctor and began to hit him like the possessed woman she was at the time.
_ You lie! You are a liar! I am not sterile! I am not sterile! she shouted at him.
Moha, who had intervened, even had to call on the strength of Aras to separate Ndeye from the doctor, whom she had seriously damaged. However, Ndeye quickly got out of his grip, not to go back to attacking the doctor, but to leave his office running and crying. After apologizing to the doctor and calling his colleagues to treat her, Moha went after her.
Ndeye meanwhile was running very fast without knowing where she was going let alone caring about her condition. She just wanted to get far away from everything, to disappear. She ran until her shoes gave out on her without stopping.
Her clothes were torn by countless branches of the forest in which she had ended up, her bare feet bleeding, Ndeye had been progressing for nearly two hours. Lys even tried to take control of her many times to relieve her, but Ndeye categorically refused. Moha for his part had finally given up control to Aras by dint of following her tracks without finding her, transforming himself to go faster after Lys had let them know the state in which Ndeye was. Ndeye eventually came to the edge of a cliff and then, without thinking, jumped into the sea.
Aras, who had fortunately just arrived on the scene, handed over control to Moha, who in turn jumped as soon as he had finished putting on the wetsuit that Amadou had brought him, contacted by Aras. He was able to spot Ndeye easily and pull her out of the water as she was carried away by the current without trying to struggle. As soon as they were on solid ground and she had finished breathing normally, Ndeye immediately began to kick him.
_ Why? Why did you save me? Why did you save me? You shouldn't have? You should have let me die! You should have let me die! You should have let me join my parents in the afterlife! she shouted at him.
_ Listen to me! Moha tried.
_ No! You shouldn't have! You shouldn't have..... I'm sick of it! I'm sick of living! I'm sick of this life of misery, of...
_ Listen to me!
_ You should have... You should have let me.... go..... finally, stop suffering! You should have!
_ Listen to me! (Taking a slice of her face). I refuse to let you die! I refuse to let you leave me! I refuse to let you break my heart! You don't have that right!
_ Understand me! The weight of my past is already too heavy to bear! I can't bear to deprive you of the happiness of holding your child close to you! Let alone deprive all the wolves of their next supreme Alpha! It's really beyond my strength! I'm not strong enough! I can't!
_ No! It is not beyond your strength! I know you can. You've already overcome the death of your parents right before your eyes! Ten years of s*****y! Ten years of t*****e! Ten years of a***e! r**e! You even we're almost dead but managed to return to life! And you did not go through all these obstacles to come and bow to the one of not being able to give birth. So be strong as you have always been and give me your hand so that we can overcome this difficult ordeal together!
_ And how are we going to do this? You know what happened the only time something like this happened! I'm scared! I'm so scared!
_ It's normal to be scared, but as it is said, for every problem there is a solution. We will find the one that fits ours. You can trust me. I will never let you down.
_ Never? Do you promise not to let me down?
_ Yes. I promise you that. You and me, it's together till the end.
_ All the way?
_ All the way and even after if possible.
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