The fact that he reminded me of my son motivated me to visit him each day and today instead of the happy mood this reminder brought me, it caused the sudden appearance of this lump in my throat that stubbornly refused to go down no matter how many times I swallowed. In the end, I had to force myself out of the door, claiming I had a lot of work to do whereas in reality, I was battling with painful spicks in my heart.
I made it straight to the restroom, already knowing what I was about to face. The anxiety came in full force knocking the breath out of me as I struggled to breathe in, clutching my chest and at the same time struggling to keep my breath at bay. I don’t want to draw any attention to myself.
It took me some time to finally overcome everything. I washed my face and wore my st
