How to Say Goodbye

The one where he Sees at me

Clothes. Clothes. Clothes.

I eyed them just as he stood up . Would it be too much if I asked him to be oblivious of the visible blue pajamas ?

Of course it would .

When he stood up from the ground instead of setting his sight on the direction he had came from he started to look around . And while he did that his eyes seemed to come rest on the perfect piece of clothing I hoped he'd not notice .

He almost ran to pick them up .

"Who's there? " he yelled as he picked up my clothes .

Maybe he'd just scream and go away?, I thought . But that thought met an end as he picked up the sparkling jewelry . Why did I always wear that bracelet and why did I take it off during swims? I thought mentally cursing myself .

He examined it and I knew in a bit it'd dawn upon him that those were mine .

He sits right next to me . There's no way he hadn't noticed them during school .

I didn't know what came to his mind back then . But he left them on the ground just the way they were and looked at the river.

By then I wasn't even trying to hide . I was visible up from my neck . And his eyes found mine .

I expected him to do something . Throw some pebbles at me. Hurt me physically . But he did neither .

All I saw were a his eyes, looking as broken as possible .

He looked drained , like he didn't want to fight me . Like there wasn't an ounce of strength left in his body . So he looked at the ground and up at me again .

And he did something I had never seen him do before . He smiled and his head tilted slightly to the back .

He smiled as another tear slipped his eyes .

He smiled and nodded at me and took slow steps away . And with one step and another he walked away from me.

And it became a turning point of our little relationship .

Something that blossomed into the brightest of flowers.

I was soaking wet when I got up . I tried to dry my hair as much as possible . It was much easier back in high school when I had pixie hair but now the long strands seemed to be rebelling against my choices .

I put on my clothes and hurried to the hotel . I didn't want anyone to know that I was up and out, except for the night staff maybe.

When I walked in the guard outside was drowsing in his chair , in the same position I had seen him when I left .

I ran up the stairs and was glad that it was just 6 . It meant I still had time for a two to three hour sleep . And I planned on spending those hours very fruitfully .