In Too Deep: An Anti-Hero Mafia Romance

The Morning After...

They’re just going down for breakfast when I get to our room and I’m starving. As soon as we’ve sat down with our breakfast the interrogation begins.

“Well?” Hayley asks.

I grin but don’t say a word - it’s written all over my face.

“You did it!” Kelly says, “Spill it.” She’s practically jumping up and down in her seat.

“It was the most amazing thing ever - he is the most gorgeous, sexy, caring, considerate man. I’m glad that it was him . . . that he was my first.

I fill them in on all the details over breakfast, I love telling them, reliving it all – I could talk about him all day. I can’t wait to see him again.

After breakfast, we head down to the pool. I decide on a cute pink bikini with a bandeau top that shows my cleavage off perfectly and will get me a great tan I hope.

While the girls sort our sunbeds out, I go to the bar. I notice the guy at the side of me looking over while I'm waiting to be served.

“Hi, how’re things?” he asks me, in a Scottish accent.

“Hi,” I smile at him, motioning around the pool “things could be worse.”

We chat while waiting for drinks, he’s nice and seems harmless enough. I'm just in the middle of telling him where I'm from, when out of the corner of my eye I see Xander striding over to me with his face like thunder. He reaches me, stands between me and the guy and leans in to kiss me. He gets me in a full-on embrace, kissing me fiercely.

I look up at him shocked. “Er hi . . . everything ok?”

He nods curtly. “Si . . . who is this man?” Oh my god, is he jealous?

I shrug, “I don’t know . . . I’ve just met him now, I’m waiting for my drinks - we just started chatting.”

He nods towards my drinks, which are now waiting for me on the bar. “It looks like they are here, I will get them and bring them over for you.” He leans forward to get them and then ushers me away. I don’t even get a chance to say goodbye to the guy. How dare he not let me speak to other guys, he doesn’t own me! This is a holiday romance for Christ’s sake.

I march over to my sunbed and throw myself down on it angrily. The girls look up in interest and look at me questioningly when they can see I’m mad and that Xander is walking over with a tray of drinks. He puts them down on the table and just stands over me glaring at me.

“What the hell was that about Xander? What gives you the right? Am I not allowed to talk to another man now? You don’t own me, you’re not my boyfriend.”

He looks at his watch and narrows his eyes as he looks down at me. “Well, mi amor, seeing as I was deep inside you less than three hours ago I think that does give me the right.”

The girls gasp, Hayley clears her throat, “Er . . . I think we will just take a dip in the pool – come on Kel.” Kelly reluctantly gets up and heads off with Hayley.

I turn to glare at Xander. “I can’t believe you said that!”

“Why? Did you not tell them what happened between us?” he asks

“Of course I did.”

He shrugs as if to say 'well then, what’s the problem?' I look at this beautiful man, getting jealous over nothing. He pushes my legs to one side and sits on my sunbed. He leans in to whisper, “I have told you, you are mine now. If you think this is just some holiday romance, you are mistaken - I know you feel this too. You had better get used to my possessiveness because that will not change, and I will be possessive over you - because I am crazy about you.” He leans forward to kiss me fiercely, then says “and I will be inside you again before the day is out and you will be begging for it to happen, so it is easier if you will just accept this.”

Jesus, after that speech I’m practically begging for it now. I nod numbly.

He looks down at my bikini. “You are f*****g gorgeous in that bikini - I would rather that I would be the only one to see you when you look like this, not a poolside full of people.” He growls then stands up to leave. “I will speak to you later . . . I will only be back late, so I will telephone you then, yes?”

“Ok, Xander.”

He leans back down to give me a quick kiss. “I love hearing you say my name, maybe I will get you to scream it later.” He smirks and walks off.

Phew! So . . . He doesn’t think this is a holiday romance? How the hell can it be anything more, he lives in Spain - I live in England. How would that work? He doesn’t strike me as the kind of man that will do the long-distance relationship thing. He is right though, it does feel like more than that. I feel strongly for him already.

It’s great spending time with my girls, I feel like I have been neglecting, even though I have been with them, I’ve been with Xander too. I get to spend all day and night with them tonight. The deal is I spend tomorrow with Xander – if that’s what he wants. I hope so.

I get a text in the afternoon from him.

I can’t stop thinking about you mi amor, I wish I could taste you right now, I hope I can see you when I get back to the hotel. I want you if you are not too sore. x

I text him back grinning,

Sounds good baby, I’ll try and make it happen. Miss you x

I don’t know if I should have put the miss you, but I’ve sent it now.

When evening comes we decide to go on a bar crawl and see where the night takes us. I wear a short dress with high neck and long sleeves, it’s a skin-tight body con dress, black with bright patterns on it paired with my heels. I leave my shoulder-length curls loose.

We get our cocktails then go out on the terrace of the bar, the sun going down is beautiful and it's still quite warm. Ibiza has the best sunsets in the world.

“So . . . what’s the deal with Xander?” Kelly asks “Is it just a holiday thing? He seems an intense kinda guy to do the holiday romance thing.”

“I agree.” Hayley nods “The way he got jealous this afternoon and the way he acts around you, I don’t think he’ll want this to be over at the end of our holiday. The question is, do you?”

Kelly pipes up “Are you kidding, I’ve never seen Elsa like this over a man EVER, she just casually brushes them off, but with this one . . . “ she turns to me “I’ve seen your face, you’re really into him, and now he’s your first, well, am I right in thinking you might have feelings for him?”

I sigh. I do have feelings for him. “Who knows? I don’t want to say I think it’s more, then look like an i***t at the end of the holiday. Do I have feelings for him? Yes, no man has ever made me feel remotely close to how he’s making me feel. I have to fight the urge to contact him all the time. And the s*x . . . oh my god, it’s just amazing, I know I have nothing to compare it too but I'm pretty sure it’s not like that all the time.

Hayley laughs “No it's not, when you have it good, you know about it.”

Kelly snorts “I’ve kissed a few frogs in my time . . . “ Hayley and I raise our eyebrows at her. “. . . well ok, a lot of frogs, and there’s not many that blow your mind, trust me. I hope it works out for you honey, but you hardly know him, just be careful.”

Around midnight we take a break from dancing, already regretting the heels. I check my phone, I have five missed calls all from Xander. I tell the girls I’m going outside to call him. It connects straight away.

“Beautiful! Where are you? Are you having a good night?” That voice . . . that accent does funny things to my tummy.

“Hi, baby . . . yes, we’re having a good time, just in some bar called Palms. Have you finished your meetings?” I can feel him smiling down the phone.

“Yes – I’m all yours if you will have me mi amor.” He says huskily.

“I can’t leave my friends Xander, but we can do something tomorrow?”

“Well, that is a shame, I have been thinking about all the different ways I can get you to scream my name. I want to see you.”

God, I want to see him too. “I can't Xander, you know the deal, as tempting as it is, I can't leave them.”

“OK, but I get all day with you tomorrow?” he asks sullenly.

“Yes . . . what will you find to do with me?” I ask smiling.

I hear him growl. “I will think of something, beautiful. When you get back to the hotel, will you call me? I want to make sure you are safe.”

“Of course I will. For what it’s worth I wish I could see you tonight. I miss you.” The drink making me honest.

“I miss you too mi amor, very much – call me later.”

We say our goodbyes, then I get back to the girls. I can’t wipe the smile off my face. I still feel a little sore from my session this morning with Xander, every time I feel it, it reminds me how amazing it was . . . how he made me feel. My mind keeps going back to what he said about this not just being a holiday romance and I feel a little bit of hope.

We get back to the hotel room around three.

Kelly looks at me. “Are you going to Xander’s?”

I shake my head, I want to but I don’t want them to feel like I’m leaving them again.

Kelly comes over to me and rests her head on my shoulder, “Honey, just go to him . . . we’re going to bed now, I know you feel guilty, but we can tell how you feel about this guy - it's written all over your face – it seems like he feels the same way – so just go for it. We love you . . . we just want you to be happy.”

I look at Hayley and she nods. “Go on Elsa, we’re fine. I know you’re spending the day with him tomorrow, but I’m sure we’ll see you at some point.”

I kiss the top of Kelly’s head and go over to hug Hayley. “Thank you so much you guys, I do want to see him - I love you guys.”

I can’t get up to his room fast enough. I haven’t called and as I’m stood outside his door I suddenly wonder if he’s asleep. I dial his phone, he picks up immediately.

“Hey,” I say softly.

“Hola beautiful . . . you are back at the hotel safe?”

I knock at the door while I answer. “Yes baby, let me in.”

The line goes dead and the door opens. He’s dressed in black boxers and nothing else. He doesn’t look like he’s been to sleep yet. We don’t say anything . . . I walk in, reach up to put my hands on each side of his face and start to kiss him. He moans grabbing hold of my waist . . . he lifts me, I wrap my legs around him and he carries me through to the bedroom.

He places me down on the bed. “You look so sexy in that dress, I am not happy that you look like this in everything. I f*****g hate that other men will be looking at you, when you are not with me they will not know that you are taken.”

Taken? I like that. I reach for the hem of my dress and drag it off over my head - I just have a small black thong on with a black lace bra.

His breathing gets shallow as his eyes rake up and down my body. I know I’m breathing fast too. I want him near me now, touching me.

“Come here,” I demand huskily as I lie back on the bed. He lowers himself on top of me in between my legs and we start to kiss. My bra is quickly discarded as he moves down my body, kissing my breasts, biting and sucking my n*****s - he kisses a line down my stomach, swirling his tongue in my navel and when he reaches the top of my knickers, he lowers them down, working his way down with his mouth, until he licks inside me, flicking my c**t with his tongue, then I feel his tongue slide inside me. It feels like pure ecstasy and the feeling I’ve been craving all day.

He says something in Spanish and then says “You are so wet for me Elsa.”

I squirm underneath him. “Oh . . . Xander . . . that feels . . . that feels so good.” I grab hold of his head and hold it in place. The feeling of this man’s tongue on me is like nothing I’ve ever felt before. He inserts two fingers in me . . . instantly I buck onto his fingers. “I'm going to come . . . stop. Come up here,” I say breathlessly, “I want you inside me.”

He looks up at me. “You are not too sore?” I shake my head, I’m a little sore, but I’ll take a little pain with my pleasure if it means that I can have this man inside me again. His head comes up to my level, his erection pressing into me, but he still has his boxers on. I sit up slightly and wriggle out from under him, discarding my underwear as he gets rid of his. I lightly push him so that he will turn around to lie on his back. I look down at his c**k – it makes my mouth water. I shift position to straddle him, lowering myself on to him slowly. It doesn’t hurt, it just feels amazing and I start move. I can't believe I’ve never done this before, it feels so natural.

“Am I doing this right?” I ask

He lifts his head and opens his eyes, which are now bright blue, they meet mine. “You are joking right?” he pants, “you are perfect.”

He grabs hold of my hips to guide me. I put my hands on his chest to steady me while sliding off him and then back onto his length. He grabs my breasts and starts to knead them. “You are so beautiful, your breasts, I’ve never seen anything so perfect,” he says, his voice raspy.

I feel so full of him, I ride him, moving on him, going quicker and quicker, his hands on me getting rough as his eyes bore into me. We move for a while in unison as he starts to lift his hips to surge into me.

I can feel the familiar sensation and know I’m going to come again. “I’m coming . . . Xander! Xander . . . Oh god!” I throw my head back and ride with the amazing feeling inside me. I hear him groan and shout out, feeling the warmth of his c*m fill me.

I slowly move on top of him until we both come down, then collapse on top of him my muscles feeling heavy and relaxed, with a big smile on my face. We don’t say anything, I slide him out of me and just lie on him, we just drift off like that, I feel him kiss the top of my head and stroke my hair.

We make love again before the sun rises. As much as we are both exhausted we can’t seem to keep our hands off each other. It’s magical. I know that s*x is not always like this. I’ve heard enough stories to know that. When I wake up, I stretch and reach out for Xander, but the bed is empty.

I hear voices coming from the living room in Spanish, I wrap a sheet around myself and walk out to the living room. I see Xander and Stefan talking, they’re looking at some paperwork, talking business. They stop when they see me stood in the doorway. I smile shyly at Stefan who grins back. I look at Xander, his eyes meet mine, making my stomach flip. He doesn’t look happy.

He rushes towards me pushing me back inside the bedroom. “Elsa, you cannot come out like that with just a sheet draped on you . . . you are not decent. Stefan will be picturing you naked under that sheet.”

I shake my head. “Jesus Xander, every man I come into contact with does not want me like you seem to do. Stop being so crazy.”

He shakes his head. “You really believe that, don’t you? Get dressed, please. I am dealing with some business with Stefan, and then you and I are going out for the rest of the day.”

“Where to?” I ask him.

He smiles at me reaching up to tuck a strand of my very messed up hair behind my ear. “I will surprise you.”

Once I'm ready I decide to meet the girls for breakfast while Xander is busy with Stefan. I’m starving and want to see the girls. It seems this guy hardly eats or sleeps.

I decide to wear a sleeveless cream sundress with tiny flowers all over it - classy yet comfortable. I wear flip-flops and pile my hair up on top of my head with clips and put a little lip gloss and eyeliner on. I’m happy enough with the result so head down for breakfast.

We sit down and order our coffees.

“So . . . ? Did you and Xander have a good time last night after you left us?” Kelly asked smirking.

I beamed at them. “Hell yeah, he’s amazing, I get what all the fuss is about now. I'm sore as hell, but it was worth it.”

“See, now you get why I like it so much. So he performs does he?” Kelly asks

“I’ll say, everything about last night was perfect. He’s too good to be true, there must be some big dark secret because no one is this perfect. He makes sure that I have a good time too, if you know what I mean.”

“You can tell he’d be good in bed, especially the way he is with you, so attentive, guess it carries through to the bedroom huh?” Hayley asks

“Yes it does, and he has a big d**k and he’s not afraid to use it.”

“Right that’s enough now, I'm getting horny! Think I might have to get me some more Stefan action soon.” Kelly laughs

“Did I hear my name?” Stefan asks, him and Xander coming up behind us.

Kelly whirls around in her seat to look at Stefan and he winks and grins at her.

I look up at Xander and smile, he gives me a secret smile, just for me, then walks over and kisses me.

“Do you mind if we join you?” he looks at Hayley and Kelly who indicate they don’t mind, so he and Stefan sit down with us. Xander orders more coffee in Spanish, I catch the girls eye and I can tell what they’re thinking, it's hot when they talk Spanish.

“What have you got planned for our girl today then Xander?” Hayley asks him

He looks over to me and then back at her, “I am going to show her some of Ibiza that she would never have seen, I have a car outside.” He turns to me, “When you are ready . . . do not rush.”

I'm so into him that it's scaring me, I’ve never been into anyone like this before.

When we’ve eaten, Xander and I say our goodbyes, he leads me outside to a sporty looking Mercedes, which he must have hired. He opens the door for me to get in and then goes around his side to climb in the driver's seat. No one has ever done that before - I didn’t know men still did that. I get turned on watching him drive, he has such big hands. He’s such a masterful driver - there is just something so powerful about him. There must be something about him that I won't like, but I'm yet to find it. I bet he has a dangerous side, I hardly know him after all, maybe something dark that hasn’t come out yet.

He must sense me staring at him like an i***t, turning his head to me smiling. “I am taking you to a village on the other side of the island, a small fishing village with good places to eat. It has some shops also.”

“Sounds perfect,” I say putting my hand on his knee. I relax back in the seat and look out of the window at the breath-taking views. I leave my hand on his knee for as long as possible until he has to change gear, returning it to my lap. He looks at me and frowns, reaching for my hand and placing it back on his leg. I keep getting flashbacks to us in bed last night, him inside me and squirm in my seat trying not to get turned on.

Xander is right, it’s a lovely village and he’s the perfect companion, we eat at a gorgeous little restaurant overlooking the harbour. We wander around the shops, all the time holding hands. The shops are lovely little boutiques - I could look around them all day. Xander comes in some with me while I have a look around. I spot some gorgeous handmade jewellery and pick out a beautiful bracelet . . . only ten euros.

“Let me buy this for you.” he starts to get his wallet.

I shake my head. “It’s fine Xander.”

He shakes his head. “No, I insist - so that every time you look at it you will think of me.” he says grinning. He pays the assistant and then turns to me to fasten it onto my wrist.

When it starts getting late we head back to the hotel. While he’s driving he asks, “I was thinking we could just stay in my room tonight, mi amor? If that is ok? You will stay the whole night, yes?”

“I’d like that.” I beam at him. He reaches up to softly touch my face, watching me. “Please look at the road, I want to make it back in one piece.”

“But it is hard when you are so beautiful. Your tan is making your green eyes even greener - if that is even possible. I could get lost in them.”

When he says stuff like this it makes me want to melt. I don’t like the thought of not seeing him again when this holiday is over. I feel sad.

He must sense my change “What is wrong Elsa?”

I shrug, “I just wish you didn’t live in a different country to me.”

He looks straight ahead at the road his expression unfathomable. “Me too, mi amor, me too.”