My freaky love

Education Time

ACT 1- EDUCATION TIME

I took admission in an institute for the course of fashion designing. My course duration was only one year because I didn’t want to spoil my life in studies so I elected for one year only. I wanted to be a clothe designer. I went out to my institute on first day. Timing of my batch was from 10:30 to 4:30.There was forty five students in my batch. Most of them were girls. I was bored because all girls were talking as they are in market.

There was girl who was sitting beside me. She was looking very beautiful in t-shirt and jeans. I took a look at her for two minutes when she was gazing down. I didn’t dare to talk with her because she was looking like those who have friendship only with the books but she proved me wrong within two minutes.

‘Hello’ she said

‘Hello’ I said and I thought for a five seconds that she would be first friend of mine in that batch.

‘Can I have your pen please? ‘She asked

How would a boy deny for giving his pen to any girl? That’s why I did what every boy does.

‘Here you are’ I said as I handed over my pen to her

I wondered because that was our first day and we had nothing to write.

‘What do you want to write?’I asked when she was about to write something on his notebook first page.

‘Do you have any problem with this? She exasperated

She had spoken so loud that entire batch heard her. I took a small glance to every batch mate and kept silent for a while.

‘Why did you speak so loud?’ after a while, I asked, I expected her to give answer but she didn’t.

‘This was my style ‘she asked

I glared but I had nothing to say her at that time. I grabbed my pen and took a gap between us. I knew that batch would take time to begin because first day, the management department of every institute takes time for some formalities. I put out my phone and headphone for appreciating music because I wanted to ignore that what happened between us before five minutes. But she didn’t want me to take relief. She tugged on my right shoulder to ask something bullshit.

‘Why are you so lean?’ she asked and giggled at me

‘I don’t know’ I said and closed my eyes to ignore her.

She knew the reason why I was ignoring her but still she wanted to have silly talk with me.

‘What is your name? Honey’ she asked again feelingly

Now, I decided to talk with her and tried to ignore previous silly questions. As I opened my mouth to her my name, madam with blue coat and jeans whose name was Christina came in our class room.

‘How are you girls and boys?’ she asked and smiled

Madam was looking hot in her dress coat. She had got a massive attention from the boys.

‘You are looking very hot, Miss Christina’ A boy having good muscular body asked

I anticipated that Miss Christina would be angry at that boy but she didn’t.

‘Thank you’ she said with smile

Miss Christina introduced herself but she forgot to tell us whether she was married or not. I wanted to know the name of that boy who was having this most beautiful lady so I was too desperate to know about her marriage but I had never stood up for asking anything among the class. Still, I controlled my mind and raised my hand during her speech.

‘Stand up ‘she asked

I stood up hesitantly.

‘Do you want to ask me something? ‘She said

‘Yes madam’ I said like a descent boy

‘Okay, what do you want to ask?’ She said

‘Are you married?’I asked

Everyone started to laugh at me but I ignored this laughing moment and focused on her eyes for answering to me.

‘Yes, I’m married’ she said

‘What is your husband name?’ I asked

‘My husband is Peter .Is anything left? ‘She asked

‘No madam’ I said and sat down

I felt like I was wounded. I didn’t think anymore and paid my attention to her speech.

‘Do you know about fashion designing?’ Miss. Christina asked

‘Anybody knows? Just raise your hand’ she asked

That crazy girl who was sitting with me raised her hand to give answer. She did as I expected .she gave a silly answer to Miss Christina.

‘Madam, fashion designing is made of two different words which are fashion and designing’ she replied

She made a joke with Miss Christina because everyone knew that this answer would be very easy but not acceptable. For a while, a girl from the first row stood up and gave an appropriate answer but I was failed to listen that girl just because of that crazy girl. She cooed to tell her my name. But I didn’t want to tell her within the batch. I thought how unlucky I was because I was sitting with a crazy girl. Her behavior was like a ten years old girl. I couldn’t understand her behavior.

I wrote my name on my notebook last page and showed her. She saw and wrote her name also in her notebook and showed. This was the only talk which we did without any problem. Her name was Jennifer.

I didn’t get anything about fashion designing from Miss Christina in my first day. I attended my first class very badly because I had got a headache (Jennifer) in my batch. Class was going to off so I hung my bag on my soldier. I stood up and turned towards the door. As I came out from the room I heard voice of a girl. Unfortunately she was Jennifer.

‘Edward, Wait?’ she screamed

She managed her bag and came to me.

I was very uncomfortable because Jennifer was with me. She asked something but I reacted as I didn’t listen.

‘How many members are you in your family?’ she asked again

She tried to talk with me again. But at this time I got frustrated and I intimidated her. I didn’t answer. She sulked but I thanked to god because she had gone away from me. After some time she was not appeared to me. Good riddance, I said to myself and breathed again. I went to my home at 6:00 ‘o’ clock in the evening. My father had come from the office. My father was advocate. He prepared a cup of coffee for me. My father was the only one friend who I had in my life. My mother had died eight years ago. Because of this, my father always used to try to keep me happy. I did not want to tell this anybody. I went to my room for sleeping. I did not try to learn about fashion designing from my side. I was about to sleep when my father came.

‘Aren’t you sleeping? Edward’ he asked

I replied no. I knew that my father wanted to talk with me. I offered him a chair to sit down and started some silly talk but this silly talk was better than that of Jennifer.

‘How was your first day?’ he asked after having fun with me

‘Not bad’ I said

‘Not bad means? Day was not good?’ my father asked prodigiously

‘Yes, I had a very bad day because of a silly girl’ I told to my father

‘Why?’ he asked

I didn’t reply and I tried to change the topic. My father was so friendly but still I didn’t want to share what happened with me in that day.

‘Dad, I want to sleep’ I said

‘Okay’ he said and went out from my room

I tried to sleep but I couldn’t because of that girl. I felt that she had got an importance in my life. I tried to ignore these thoughts and feeling for sleeping. I slept finally. I got up late and I was being late to attend my class. I tried as much as I could but I couldn’t attend the class on right time.

‘May I come in? Miss Christina’ I requested

‘No’ she said and continued her speech

I had nothing to say so I kept silent and gaze down.

‘Why are you late?’ Miss Christina asked, after a while

I had no answer in that situation .I didn’t want to tell her that I couldn’t sleep just because of a girl. I kept silent again.

‘Come in and sit’ she ordered me very oddly

I sat down and I took a glance for Jennifer. Despite of her misbehavior, I wanted to sit with her.

‘Hey Edward’ she cooed from my back seat

When I took a glimpse of her, my heartbeat could echo in my ears. I was happy to see her.

‘Hello Jennifer’ I said

I signaled through eyes to Jennifer to sit with me. I made an eye contact with her for 10 seconds. That moment was the most beautiful part of my life. She winked her eyes for ending that moment.

‘Okay’ she said

She came into my seat by creeping wisely and gave me a very tight hug during the class.

‘Leave me’ I said

I wanted that hug but I was afraid of Miss. Christina. She had bullied me because of coming late. She again gave me hug. I had known that Jennifer used to do what I used to deny. Miss Christina caught us when she gave me hug.

‘What are you both doing?’ Miss Christina asked

We had nothing to say so we both kept silent.

‘Get out and you are not supposed to attend this class till next two days’ Miss Christina said in a cruelty way

We both came out from class. After coming out from the class, I had nothing to do.

‘It happened just because of you’ I said by pointing out my finger to her

‘I was just kidding’ she said normally

‘Are you out of your mind? Can’t you wait for right place and right time? ’ I asked emphatically

‘Nope’ she said and ignored me

‘You are a silly girl’ I said and sat down on the stairs.

‘I am better than you’ she said as she sat down beside me on the stairs

‘Why? What do you mean?’ I asked surprisingly

‘You don’t do what you really want. That’s it’ she said

I took a look at her and gazed down. Jennifer was eighty percent right what she told about me. I wanted to change the topic so I tried.

‘If we wouldn’t attend the class, we will be failed in our forthcoming examination’ I warned her

‘I don’t think so. I am a brilliant student and I can study without attending these f*****g lectures’ she said

Again I wondered. What was the type of that girl? I thought. I had never seen girl like her. She didn’t know anything except my name but still her behavior was weird for me.

‘I don’t what should we do now? Do you have any idea?’ I said to Jennifer

‘Yes’ she said

‘What?’ I asked

‘Let’s go for beer’ she said and smiled

‘I don’t take bear and all that’ I said and kept quite

But she didn’t agree with me and tugged my hand for taking beer. I couldn’t dare to deny her. Bar was so fare way from our institute and we had spoiled out three hours to reach there. finally we reached to the bar for beer at 3:00 p.m. I was unaware with these types of places because I had never gone there before. I looked around and everything was so weird there. Most of the boys seemed from very rich family and they were with his girlfriends. Music was so disgusting there. I tried to find out the singer name of that song but I couldn’t. A girl who was dancing on the floor took a glance on me. She was looking very hot, her dressing style was superb. She signaled me to come beside her. I was so scared still I approached her.

‘Are you ready for tonight?’ she cuddled me and asked in my ear.

‘No, No, No, what are you doing? Just leave me’ I said and turned back

‘You aren’t ready now but you will definitely come here and sleep with me in future’ she said very loudly

I heard clearly what she said. I was very much clear with that I would never go to that bar again. I didn’t try to know her name. But I got an image of her face which had been stored in my mind at that moment. I stood up near the table and waiting for Jennifer. After a while, Jennifer came with a girl whose name was Alicia. Jennifer had told her about me already.

‘Hello Edward, my name is Alicia’ she said

‘Hello Alicia’ I said. She was drunk that’s why she was toddling. I helped her to be seated. Jennifer had two beers in her hands. She put beers on the table and offered me in a glass. Alicia swamped in licker and Alicia didn’t take beer and slept.

‘I’ll take only this glass’ I said to Jennifer

She didn’t care of my commitment and finished her glass in one long sip but I couldn’t. I finished my glass in many small sips. Half bottle was remained and I requested her to take herself.

‘We’ve spent four to five hours in bar so it’s time to leave’ I asserted

She didn’t answer me and kept silent. I smacked on my forehead because my father was waiting me. I stood up for going outside from this bar. She tugged my hand and stood up. After controlling herself, she came to me and put her lips near to my lips and looked at me in a romantic way. I thought we had a moment to kiss each other.

‘I wanted to kiss you but your nose doesn’t allow me’ she said and took a gap.

‘What? What do you mean?’ I asked surprisingly

‘Because you’ve got a very long nose’ she said and went ahead

‘One day, I will kiss you definitely instead of this lengthy nose’ I followed her and said

We stood up on the bus stand to catch our buses to go home.

‘Bye, sweetheart’ she said as she caught the bus.

My father was waiting me at home. When I reached home my father was lying in the bad. He had a pain in stomach. I give him some medicine prepared food.

‘Why were you late today?’ My father asked

I didn’t want to tell him truth that’s why I went to kitchen to bring out water bottle for him and tried to think for idea.

‘There were some important formalities in my institute which was needed for a fashion designer ‘out of guilt, I said

‘Did you drink something?’ my father asked after coming to me

He smelled the beer. I got afraid and gazed down. My face expressions had been told everything but I still tried to keep it secret, I couldn’t.

‘I’m asking something’ my father said with high volume

I nodded.

‘What did you take?’ he asked but this time his voice was showing some mildness.

‘I took beer with a friend’ I mumbled

‘Say loudly?’ he said

‘I took beer with my friend’ I said

‘Promise me, you won’t do this in future?’ he asked and kept looking at me

‘Sorry dad, I won’t do this again’ I vowed and scolded myself

‘Good, go and sleep’ he said

I went into my room for sleeping. I had forgotten for last six hours that I am studying to be a fashion designer. I forgot to buy some books of fashion designing.

‘This type of fun is not for me’ I said to myself and kept scolding myself

‘But this day wasn’t bad for me because a girl had tried to kiss me’ I talked to myself

After some time, I remembered my insult by Miss Christina and promised to myself not to get up late before I slept.

I got up early and it was lovely morning for me. My father had prepared breakfast for me. But I was unable to look at my father without guilty.

After taking bath, I wore my dress and sat on the chair for taking breakfast. When my father tried to look at me while taking tea I changed my glances because of my last night tangle.

‘Son, forget that what happened’ he said by keeping his right hand on my right soldier.

‘I’m sorry dad. I hurt you’ I sighed

‘Never mind son, okay go now’ he said with smugness

I was happy because my father had forgiven me. I went to the institute on right time and attended my lectures. Jennifer was absent on that day that’s why I attended my class without any problem. Jennifer had gone in my subconscious mind in this day. I bought my books from the market and tried to have interest in my studies.

I studied and gained knowledge about fashion designing as much as possible and I didn’t try to know about Jennifer from anyone till first two days after Sunday. Jennifer was absent from the last one week. Monthly examination date had been announced and I was worried about Jennifer. I tried to know her address and contact number from my batch mates but they didn’t have. I went to office of our director sir and told him everything about Jennifer.

‘Sir, I want address of Jennifer. Please help me’ I requested

I was missing her misbehavior in her absence and I was unaware what was happening with me. Maybe I was in love. Director Sir gave me permission for taking address and contact number of Jennifer. I didn’t take food properly from the last two days because of her.

When I knocked at the door, a lady, 35 above, opened the door. I felt that there is something wrong in that house because lady was having some glum expressions on her face.

‘This is Jennifer’s house?’ I asked

‘Yes, but she doesn’t want to meet anyone, go now’ she said in a rudely way

‘Aunty, I am Edward, we study in same batch’ I said calmly

As I told this, I heard the voice of someone from the room near the stairs who was Jennifer elder sister.

‘Who is there, mom?’ she asked to that lady

‘I don’t know. But he wants to meet Jennifer.’ As the lady said, a girl came out from that room and looked at me.

‘Are you Edward?’ She asked

‘Yes’ I said

‘Jennifer told me about you. And she said you will come’ Jennifer’s sister said

I wondered that how did she know that I will come.

‘How’s she? She is not attending classes’ I asked

‘She is not good. She is facing some health problems nowadays’ she said

‘Can I meet her?’ I requested

‘She doesn’t want to meet anyone but still I will try to manipulate her. Come inside and sit’ she said

I entered into her house and took a couch. Her mom brought water for me. I took water and put the glass on the table. I saw some photos of Jennifer with her mother and elder sister. I spent time by looking at these photos and ceiling fan. After ten minutes, Jennifer’s sister came to me.

‘Sorry but she is sleeping. When she will wake I will tell you’ she said and took a chair for sitting

‘Jennifer always applause you and says that you are a nice guy’ she said for hiding her pain with smile

Her smile was mock. I felt that there was something very painful in this house. We had talked for ten minutes and that was all about me and Jennifer.

After ten minutes, Jennifer’s mom came to us from the room of Jennifer.

‘Jennifer has woken up. You can talk with her’ Jennifer’s mother told me and turned back to kitchen

When I went to her room, she was lying in the bed and having tears in her eyes. I sat down on the bed and crossed my legs.

‘How are you Jennifer?’ I captured her noise and said for making a fun with her

‘I am good’ she said and turned her face to left side for hiding her tears from me

There was some pain in her voice. I felt I am going to cry but I controlled myself.

‘You know what? Monthly examination date has been declared.’ I said

‘Oh, really?’ she said surprisingly

‘Two days are left. You are supposed to go for study’ I said

I didn’t ask about her problems related to health. It was too tough for me to show my glum expressions. But after a while, she wailed and I started crying after looking at her tearing eyes. I took my hanky for wiping her tears. I wiped her face and tried to soothe her.

‘Don’t worry Jennifer, I am with you and I will help you in studies’ I said by putting my hand on her hand

She lifted and cuddled me. She kissed me after glancing on me for a while. This moment gave me an energy which was enormous for me. She closed her eyes and sighed .I took out books from my bag by ignoring that lovely moment of my life. She was looking quite comfortable now after taking medicine. I seemed that Jennifer was burying something from me. Her behavior was something different.

‘Shut the door, Edward’ she said

‘Why? We are just studying here. Is it ? I said

‘Nope, but I always do studies in a closed room’ She said

I closed the door. I opened the first page of the book where an introduction about that book was mentioned. I kept opening that page and remembered that kiss which we did.

‘It is to read the introduction about this book?’ she said and giggled

‘No No’ I said and smiled

I opened the next page where book had a definition of fashion designing.

‘Do you know the appropriate definition of fashion designing?’ I said

‘I don’t know’ she said

‘You should write that definition in answer sheet which you told on first day of our batch to Miss Christina. You will get five out of five marks’ I said for making a fun

‘Yeah definitely, I will write this in answer sheet’ she said and laughed

She was looking beautiful while laughing despite of having dark circles around her eyes. I squatted on the bed to make myself comfortable. She put her head on my left thigh and tried to read the book without keeping in her hand. I told her the definition of fashion designing. We had studied from the last four hours.

‘This is enough for today. I don’t want to do study more. Now you can go’ she said in roughly way

She made me wonder because I didn’t expect her to behave like this. But this was truth. I had nothing to say after this misbehavior. I went out from her room to depart from her house. This was wailing for me. Jennifer sister and her mom were sitting outside but they didn’t notice me when I left her house.

‘Why did I come to her house?’ I scolded myself because may be this was my wrong decision.

‘Why am I worried about her problems? I shouldn’t care of her. I don’t have any relation with her. I won’t go tomorrow’ I vowed

I reached to my home at night because her house was too far away from mine. I was unable to study that night because of that insult.

‘She doesn’t have emotions or feelings for me. Why does she behave like this after the completion of her work? , Nobody cannot understand her.’ I exclaimed to myself

I couldn’t sleep properly at that night and study for myself. I got up at 5:00 am in the morning.

‘Why is she doing like a clumsy girl?’ I kept looking at the fan and mumbled

I wanted to ignore that painful event that’s why I took bath and after that, I prepared breakfast for my father and myself. I adorned the table by a kettle of tea, a cup and some sandwiches. My father took bath and went to the kitchen for preparing breakfast.

‘Breakfast is ready dad’ I said and smiled by pointing out towards the table

My father beamed to me and took a look at the table. I was happy because there were some lovely smiles on my father’s face. My father sat on the chair and wiped his hands by hanky. I served a cup of tea and two sandwiches to my father.

‘Have you taken breakfast?’ My father asked as he twiddled the handle of cup

I nodded. ‘Should I go to her Jennifer’s house? if I’ll not help her ,he would not be passed’ I thought while gazing down .

‘What is wrong with you? Edward’ My father asked

‘Nothing dad, take one more sandwich’ I said and ignored as I touched the sandwich

‘Are you sure?’ My father asked

‘Yes dad, I am happy’ I said

My father stood up and put his hand on my soldier as he departed from home for office. I kept thinking about Jennifer as I went into my room for studying. I was alone in my home that day and I had nothing to do apart from studies.

‘Let her go to hell, Edward. Just concentrate on your studies. It’s your life’ I said to myself

I had studied for the last five hours. After a while, I appreciated the favorite songs and enjoyed my time by dancing and singing in loud volume in my closed room. For a while, I had forgotten Jennifer and done which was giving me good feelings. But it wasn’t that much easy to forget Jennifer as I was thinking. I didn’t know the actual meaning of love but there was something fishy in my life which wasn’t in my hand. I had taken all the details including contact number of Jennifer from the institute. I was itching to call her at once. I called her at 5:00 pm in the evening before my father came.

‘Hello’ Jennifer said

‘Hello Jennifer, I am Edward’ I said as I expected her that she would identify me by my voice

‘Who is Edward? I don’t know you’ she said roughly

‘Edward your batch mate’ I said as I slid my books aside from my hand

‘When did you find my contact number from?’ she screamed

‘I got your all information from our institute because you were absent from the last eight days. I was worried about you that’s why I did’ I convinced her

‘Okay, can you come to me? I need your company’ she said

‘I don’t want to come there to get insulted. Your behavior irritates me always. You are so rude. You don’t have manners and you don’t know that how to talk’ I said as much as I could

She kept quiet for five minutes. I didn’t say anything after that.

‘Do you want me to change my behavior?’ she said

‘Yes, of course’ I said

‘I always consider you as my best friend. I seem that you’ve got some misunderstandings’ she said calmly

I wondered because we had kissed in just friendship. I kept silent for a while.

‘Say something, Edward. Do you want some changes in my behavior?’ she said

‘Yes’ I said again

‘I’ll try. Bye’ she said as she ended the call

I had discussed everything which was in my mind. I didn’t scold myself after talking to her in my style.

One day was left for taking exams. I was prepared for my exams because I had completed my whole syllabus which was about to come in exam. I imagined that I would get the first position in my batch. I was happy because I had something which was useful for my carrier. I worked hard as much as I could.

On my exam day, I got up early and prayed Jesus as every student does during examinations.

‘Good luck son’ my father said and smiled

‘Thanks dad’ I said as I went outside from my home

I reached to institute very early. I looked around to find Jennifer but she had not come till then. I found my roll number and that of Jennifer in white board where sitting arrangement was mentioned. We were in different rooms. I went my room and sat on my allotted seat. Everyone was waiting for exam. At the right time of exam, a madam entered into the exam room. She was looking very strict. Anybody wouldn’t dare to cheat because of her strict personality. I thought

She kept silent for first fifteen minutes. She wandered in the whole room. I kept writing and had attempted my seventy percent paper in just first thirty minutes. She stood up near to my seat. She was looking at my answer sheet suspiciously.

‘Are you cheating?’ madam asked in high volume

‘No madam’ I said as I was afraid

‘Your writing is much cleaned’ she applauded me

‘Thank you madam’ I said in very low volume as I was near to her lips

I didn’t know why did she do like this. But by the grace of god, she went away from me. I guessed that this was the warning to others through me. I had known that females are not easy to understand are out of minds.

After taking exam, I went outside from the room very quickly to meet Jennifer but she had gone without talking to me. I went back to my home with the some glum expressions.

‘How was your first exam, son?’ my father asked as I entered into home

‘Exam was good, dad’ I said

‘But your face expressions are not like that’ my father said

‘No dad, everything is great. I will show you in my result’ I said reluctantly

I got tired that’s why I went to my room for rest after taking a glass of water from the kitchen.

I had taken all exams but I didn’t meet her during these exams. She always went back to house from the institute before I met. Result date had been announced that’s why I was worried about her result whether she would be passed or not. I was too confident for myself that I will be passed with the good marks. Result had been declared, I got good marks as I expected for myself but Jennifer got average marks. Every batch mate congratulated me for my good result. Every teacher applauded me. I earned the identification among the batch and institute.

‘Congratulation Edward’ Jennifer came to me and said

‘Thanks Jennifer’ I smiled

‘I will never hurt you’ she said

‘Really ?’ I said surprisingly

‘Yes’ she said

‘Would you like to take a cup of coffee with me?’ Jennifer said

‘Yes, Why not’ I said

I had forgotten the past bad events which I spent with the Jennifer. I took Jennifer to the coffee shop for cup of coffee. I selected the corner table and chair group for sitting. We sat on the chair and ordered for two cup of coffee. I was happy because Jennifer had changed for me but I had a doubt in my mind about our relationship. I want Jennifer as my girlfriend. Waiter put down two cup of coffee on the table. I took a gulp of coffee and put the cup o table but Jennifer was looking upset.

‘Do you have any problem?’ I said

‘No, No at all’ she said

‘I think, you are upset because of your marks’ I said and looked at her eyes

She nodded.

‘Don’t worry .these marks doesn’t have so much importance in final exams’ I said by putting my hands on her hands

‘Now finish your coffee, we will go to your favorite bar and take beer’ I said to make her happy

‘Yes, let’s have fun’ she said in high volume as everybody took glances on us

I stood up on the chair and screamed. She was looking happy now. She caught my hand and took me from the coffee shop. We went inside the bar and took two beers. I didn’t know about dance but still Jennifer and I went on floor for dancing. Jennifer was good dancer then me so she was looking so beautiful while dancing. I tried to correct my dance steps but I couldn’t .I didn’t care about that because something which was going on in my mind was not less than the enjoyment of dance. I wanted to take Jennifer to church that’s why I stopped to dance.

‘Come Jennifer. We have spent more time in bar so it’s time to go’ I said in high volume in her left ear

‘Please stay for one hour more’ she said loudly as I heard

‘No, there is a surprise for you’ I said and beamed

‘Okay’ she said and stopped to dance

We came outside from the bar.

‘Surprise?’ she asked

‘I want to take you in church’ I said

‘Why?’ she asked

‘I will tell you in the church’ I said

‘Okay’ she said

Jennifer and I reached to the church. Jennifer was surprised with my decision. We stood up in front of Jesus and closed our eyes for pray.

‘Jesus, you are the almighty of ours and you know very well which is going on between me and Jennifer but I don’t know if Jennifer loves me. Please help me what should I do’ I said after closing my eyes

‘Edward you will have to ask her because love is easy to say but hard to obey’ Jesus said

We opened eyes and beamed to each other.

‘I want to say you something Jennifer’ I said as my legs was wobbling

‘Yes, say’ Jennifer said calmly

I was trying to say her three words but my tongue didn’t allow me. Jennifer was looking at me as she was expecting those three words from me but ‘I love you’ had been changed into ‘I like your friendship’ in my mind. I didn’t say anything and ran towards the main gate of church. Jennifer was aware with my feelings and emotions.

We started to attend our classes again after monthly exams. We used to study together and take lunch together. We were happy with this friendship. We had completed our course and we had got time to go for the job. Jennifer gained good marks in final exams.

Everything was good between us but I didn’t purpose her till now. I was worried about this because I wanted Jennifer as my life partner. This was the last day when we met each other in the institute. We both were having glum expressions on our face because of last day. Jennifer came to me to say something.

‘How are you Edward?’ she asked

‘I am fine and what about you’ I said

‘Edward, we would never meet again’ Jennifer said as her eyes was full of tears

‘But Why?’ I asked

‘I don’t know’ she cried

‘Jennifer, I love you’ I said with rigors because this was the last day when I could talk with her

‘I know you love me because of this I wanted to go away from you’ Jennifer said

‘I am patient of cancer and I don’t want to spoil your whole life’ she spoke in high volume

I felt as I died.

‘Cancer can be cured’ I said

‘Yes but I am not sure if I will be well’ she said and turned back

She went away from me but I kept standing up. I went to my home after taking my documents from the institute. I had nothing to think and nothing to say at that time. I went to my room and kept crying after lying down in the bed. My first love had gone away from me. i tried to call her but she didn’t receive my call.

‘What’s wrong with you son?’ my father asked

‘Dad, I am fired now’ I sighed

‘What happened?’ my father asked

‘Jennifer have got cancer’ I said

‘Jennifer?’ my father asked

‘I love her, dad’ I said as I cuddled with my father

‘Oh it’s very painful’ my father said

‘She love me but she doesn’t want to be with me’ I said as I wiped tears with my hands

‘I think she is right, Edward. Why would she like to spoil your life?’ my father said

‘But, dad’ I said

‘Son, forget her. If she is in your destiny then she will definitely come to you’ my father said calmly

At that time, I didn’t understand what my father told to me. I didn’t go outside to find any job because of her. I had spent fifteen days at home without searching any job. I felt as I got mad. I wanted to forget her but I had no way to forget her. One day I decided to meet girl who wanted to spend one night with me. I went to bar at 7:00 pm in night. She was dancing on the floor and staring at me. I had never looked at her with the wrong intention but I insisted me on staring at her like that. I took a look at her from her foot to head as I took a gulp of licker. I went to her and caught her hands.

‘I want to spend one night with you’ I said

‘I told you that you will definitely come to me’ she said and blew a kiss

‘What is your charge for one night?’ I asked

‘There is no charge for you honey’ she said and smiled

‘Why?’ I asked as I wondered

‘You are not here only for s*x, you want to forget someone, Am I right?’ she said

I nodded.

‘You are a nice guy and you are not lecherous’ she said

‘I have seen you two times here but you never took licker or anything’ she said

I nodded.

She caught my hand and took me at the room upstairs. There was a tiny bulb which was blinking. There was a bed like a couch. She sat on the bed and signaled me by her finger. She started taking off her clothes step by step. When she was taking time to put out her slippers as if she wanted to show each part of her body. She cut her lower lips.

‘Come to me honey’ she said and smiled as she touched on her body

I kept standing up and kept looking at her body. She became .I felt s****l attraction at that time as though a current went through me. She made s****l environment around us and i wanted to get obsessed in this environment but i was scared because i had never done s*x with any girl so i was new to this s****l environment. I took three steps to approach her from the door but these steps was not enough? I kept silent kept looking at her naked body. I did not want any distraction from anyone even so there was something strange which was going on in my mind. I couldn’t understand what that was.

‘What are you thinking Edward? It’s time for enjoyment. Come to me and shake my body’ she said to interrupt me.

I became interrupted and i removed my eyes from her body. After a while I realized that I was physically there but mentally i was not there. When i started to approach her image of Jennifer came in front of me and i stopped.

I burst into tears and i kept looking down and crying. I felt as though i was not in my soul and my soul had gone to somewhere.

She came up to me and put her hand on my shoulder. I was in silent mode.

‘What happened Edward? ’ she asked as she tried to make eye contact with me.

I kept silent.

‘If you don’t want to tell me then i am going. You have spoilt this night Edward. Good bye’ she said

I caught her hand as she started to go.

‘I can’t forget Jennifer’ I said even though I was not able to say something.

‘I can understand Edward. Nobody can’t forget first love .’ she said as she had known about me very well even in this first and half meeting.

“But we have to forget Edward because life is very short if we will think about our past then i can’t enjoy our life. We can’t get something. Everyone has a pain in their hearts but we all have to go out from those worst moments. I hope you can understand me what i am saying.” She said and tried to make me understandable.

I tried to control my feeling and tried to make myself hard as much as i can. I took a long breath and made eye contact with her.

I kept looking at her but after a while she came to me very closed and kissed. I closed eyes and felt that I had forgotten Jennifer for 15 minutes. We both went up to the bed as we were kissing. I lay down on her made s****l relation. We got immersed in that moment.

We had spent five hours. At 8 ‘o’ clock A.M i got up and opened my eyes but still I was on bed. She was laid closed to me. Her left hand was on my chest and left leg was stuck in my legs. I removed her hand as well as her legs from my body.

I stood up and went to go to bathroom. I washed my face and wipe in bathroom till then she had got up.

‘How was your night?’ she asked and smiled

I smiled and I didn’t say anything.

She came up to me for saying something. After night it was very difficult to make eye contact with her. So i kept looking at the table and doing some unusual activities.

‘Edward take a new start in your life and forget that girl’ she said

I shook head.

We would never meet again in life. If i come in front of you it would be a coincidence’ she said as she left the room.

I was alone in that room and I had some thoughts in my mind. Some were in my fever and some were against of me. ‘How can I forget Jennifer?’ I thought.

‘Oh my god’ I screamed by looking at the wall

As I saw on the wall there was a photo of Jesus hanging on that wall. It was something strange or not. I could not guess but it seemed that Jesus wanted me to come to church for this problem.

I left the room and chose the way to church.

When I reached at the main gate of church i felt as i was in heaven. I was feeling incredible. As I entered into the room, a prayer was going on so everyone in the church was immersed in that. Everyone was silent. I started praying even though I reached late from pray time. After finishing the prayer, everybody started to leave the church and i went inside the church. Priest was standing in front of the sculpture of Jesus. I took some steps to the Jesus as priest started to leave the church.

I knelled down in front of the Jesus and looked at the Jesus to forget Jennifer.

‘Jesus i want to forget Jennifer. Is this possible?’ i asked after closing my eyes to Jesus

I had very hard time because I was unable to forget Jennifer but it was necessary to forget Jennifer for living better life.

‘God never wants you to forget that girl, son’ these words came out from the behind.

I turned back to see that person. That person was priest.

‘Why? I want to forget Jennifer.’ I asked to priest

‘Because god never wants you to leave that girl’ priest said and smiled

I seemed like these words were coming from the Jesus even so I did not believe.

‘How is this possible father?’ I asked suspiciously

‘Just keep it in your mind’ priest said

‘Father, she has got cancer. How is this possible?’ I asked again but priest kept silent and still smiling.

‘We will meet again in this church.’ Priest said and went out from the church

I was amazed and i thought that the priest had gone mad.

I ignored those talks and tried to have some faith for the Jesus. I went back to the Jesus and closed my eyes to have some faith for the Jesus.

‘I want to forget Jennifer, but if you don’t want me to forget Jennifer. It is up to you Jesus. I am just leaving Jennifer’s matter here.’ I shared everything with the Jesus.

I went out from the church and caught the way to my house where my father had been waiting for me since last night.

I was scared when i reached at home. My father was sitting on the couch and he was immersed in some thoughts. It was cleared that my father was worried about me since last night.

My father took a glance on me and burst into tears. My father didn’t say anything. He went to kitchen and brought a cup of coffee for me.

I was feeling guilty because I had been out for last twenty four hours. I put up the cup and took a sip but i was unable to take this sip inside because of my father’s mood.

‘Where were you?’ my father asked from the behind as he folded his hands closed to his body.

‘I turned back to see my father’s facial expressions. After looking at him, I changed the glance to down.

I could not say anything because i did not tell my father about that.

‘I can forgive you if you tell me the reasons for being out’ my father said calmly

Still I was silent.

‘You can’t tell me?’ my father asked as he came to me

‘I am your dad as well as your friend. I know youth don’t like to have friends like me. But father is always the best friend of his son. I know you are having some problem. I always try to make you happy Edward. Tell me’ my father asked as he was full of tears.

‘Dad actually, I was with a girl. We spent a night in a room. And you know the rest’ I faltered as I tried to say

‘Ok but you could have told me. Be alerts for next time. I don’t want to let you go away from my eye sight, ok? ’ my dad said to me as he put his hand on my soldier to make me comfortable.

I felt good because everything had been good between both of us. i cuddled with my father as i started to move up to my room. Everything was well furnished in my room because my father had cleaned my room properly. I said in my mind i love you dad. It was last time when I hurt you. It would never be done in future.

I sat on the bed and took the pillow from my backside and kept it in my squat. As I pressed the pillow I thought about that lovely night. Before that night, I thought that I would never forget Jennifer but it became possible after spending one night with that club dancer girl. I had known that we can forget everything and if we don’t try to forget anything then it will affect on our present as well as future. After a very long time i could sleep properly.

Next day, it was awesome feeling for me because I was going to start my fresh life. I went to kitchen and prepared coffee for me and my father. My father was reading a newspaper in balcony.

‘Good morning dad’ I came up to him with a coffee tray and a smile on my face

‘Good morning son’ my father said and smiled

I put coffee tray on the table and grab the newspaper from my father’s hands.

‘What are you doing son? Please let me read some business news’ my father said

‘please have coffee first’ I ordered to him but there was love in that order

‘Okay’ my father said and put up the cup of coffee

I also put up my cup.

‘Son I have seen an advertisement for a fashion designer’s job. I think you should go there. They have very few vacancies in company. You have no time’ my father told me

‘I think you are right dad. I should apply for the job will go to company for interview today. Show me advertisement’ I said to make my father comfortable

‘Here is this. But son you need some preparations because you are not in touch with the books from last two months. How would you be able to crack the interview?’ My father said shockingly

‘Dad do you believe in me or not?’ i asked very slowly

‘Oh my god’ my father said as he put the cup on the table

‘Dad tell me’ I asked again

‘Yes but there is a very tiny difference between confidence and overconfidence’ my father said

‘i know dad, but this is not my over confidence.’ I said

‘Okay, do as you wish.’ My father said as he left the chair

I read all the information for job in company. I was eligible for that job but the challenge was to crack the interview somehow.