Valen How was it that something I’d done a thousand times suddenly seemed so difficult before the ceremony? I stood in the mirror, holding the two ends of the limply. I swallowed, looking up at the ceiling and taking a deep breath. No matter how many deep breaths I took, though, they never eased the tightness in my chest. I shook my head and tried to tie the knot again. Over…around...under…through… I pulled it tight, and it looked like garbage. I swore to myself, ripping it undone. It was four steps, how could it be this difficult? I tried again, the sound of silk rubbing against silk the only noise in the room. It was a delicate sound, and it was the exact opposite of the ringing I felt in my ears. Today was the day I’d spent so much time and eff

