Burning Coldness

|BEING WITH HIM|

Despite being approximately the same height and weight as Andrew, he managed carrying him. He didn’t look it, but he was quite strong from all the exercise. “Stop distracting me or we’ll both stumble down the stairs.” He huffed at Andrew who was licking at his neck. “As you say.” Andrew giggled again, and he stopped teasing him.

Nathaniel managed to carry him all the way to his room, but by the end, he stumbled on something and they both landed luckily on Andrew’s comfortable king sized bed.

“Are you okay?” Nathaniel asked Andrew scared that he squished him.

“I’m fine.” He snickered and just like that the both cracked up. Nathaniel felt the vibration from Andrew’s laughter.

How cute of him, he thought as he looked at Andrew who was getting teary eyed and red from laughing. Nathaniel’s heart swelled with love as he realized he is seeing through his cracks finally. He gradually stopped laughing and just looked at Andrew who was still laying under him. Andrew stopped laughing too, regaining his composure. They gazed at each other’s eyes for a moment before Nathaniel leaned for a kiss, intending to make love to his ice king until he’s icy no more.

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I am so sore, Andrew groaned as he woke up. He wanted to stretch on his big cozy bed, but something obstructing him. “What is this?” He mumbled sleepily as he tried to freed himself. He fluttered his eyes open, his sleepy gaze falling on the naked form half entangled with him.

Goodness, Nathaniel! Andrew widened his eyes, as he remembered everything. His room was dim due to the maroon curtains. Andrew peered at the clock, it read 10:50 in the morning. He returned his attention at the person him. When did we even fall asleep?

Andrew wondered, a bit surprised because he didn’t really invited for Nathaniel to stay over. Nathaniel was obviously still sleeping, his head buried in the crook of Andrew’s neck. His leg was entangled between Andrew’s leg, and his left arm was slouched over Andrew’s hip. He was covered partially, his smooth back exposed up till the curve of his firm bottom.

Andrew observe him for a couple of minutes absentmindedly, driving the sleep away. Not even realizing was he’s doing, he started his fingertips along Nathaniel’s spine. His skin is so silky and warm, the brunet thought as the touch evoked warm tingles on his fingertips. Andrew thought about last night. His new-found s****l appetite was insatiable.

But the particular thing is that he felt it only for Nathaniel. He wanted to have s*x only with him. Andrew didn’t like thinking of these things. He discarded thing quickly, looking them in dark chambers of his mind the only evidence they left was the fading flutter in his chest.

My plan is processing well. He accepted my proposal, but I didn’t expect him to say he didn’t hate me, Andrew couldn’t fight off the excitement as he remembered Nathaniel’s words last night.

I like playing a game with him. But to cuddle with each other, sleeping in each other’s embrace, this is not supposed to happen. This definitely wasn’t part of my plan. I don’t think that cuddling goes under the clause of “hate-s*x thing”. Even though it feels so right, I can’t allow myself to let my guard down around him.

His ponderings were interrupted as Nathaniel mumbled and sleepily nuzzled his head on Andrew’s head. He fluttered his eyes open, tickling Andrew’s neck with his long eyelashes. Andrew’s heart raced at the touch.

Nathaniel moved his head, looking sleepily at Andrew who’s smiling at him. The brunet brushed Nathaniel’s hair from his warm chocolate eyes. This is getting out of my hand. Why is my heart doing these weird things and making me flustered just at the sight of him? Andrew swallowed hard.

Nathaniel smiled at him drowsily.

“Good morning.” He said his voice hoarse from sleep. Andrew wanted to kiss him so bad, but he wouldn’t. His racing heart and the weird fluttering freaked him out. He didn’t to think of it anymore since Nathaniel decided for him. He leaned in, pressing his pink lips on Andrew. So soft, Andrew thought as he instinctively responded to the kiss. It was stronger than him, this magnetic pull he had towards the blonde.

They started making out, situation getting heat again when suddenly Nathaniel broke the kiss. “What time is it?” He asked while trying to adjust his eyes from the illuminated lights coming from outside.

Andrew glanced at the clock beside his study table. “Already 11:00 in the morning.”

“Holy crap, I have to be at Hamper’s at 1:00 in the afternoon.” Nathaniel shot straight on the bed, sheets falling off him, revealing his bare chest. Andrew licked his lip looking at his firm chest, decorated with a couple of hickeys. Andrew bit his lip at the sight, it made him strangely proud to have marked Nathaniel’s chest.

Remembering Nathaniel’s words, he returned his attention back at Nathaniel’s face. “What Hamper’s?” He asked him with a wondering frown on his face.

“It’s a coffee place that my parents owned. I’ve been working there.” Nathaniel said afterwards.

“You’re working in there?” Andrew furrowed his eyebrows, as if surprised some people had to work, unlike him who was born with a silver spoon on his mouth. He gets what he wants, he doesn’t need to work for it.

“I had to work to pay for my fees.” The blonde responded taken aback by Andrew’s weird reaction. “Why do you have that reaction on your face as if something abominable?” Nathaniel asked him, not lifting his raised eyebrow.

“You are conceited.” Nathaniel said with a frown, getting up from the bed annoyed with the brunet.

“Can’t really wait? It is still early. You have to take a shower.” Andrew added a bit taken aback seeing that Nathaniel was getting pissed at him now.

“Does my smell pisses you?” Nathaniel crossed his arms obviously insulted.

“That’s not what I meant. Stop twisting my words.” Andrew glared at him, getting annoyed himself.

“Andrew, you should know that stupid glare doesn’t scare me anymore.” Nathaniel scoffed at him, averting his eyes away from pissed brunet, looking for his clothes he had tossed last night.

“What if I won’t let you out of that door yet?” Andrew swiftly jumped off the bed, pinning Nathaniel to the wall, pressing his naked body against him.

“Move Andrew, you are pissing me off.” Nathaniel tried to wriggle from his grasp.

Since the blonde was obviously stronger, Andrew decided to play dirty tricks. He hiked his knee between his legs, pressing on his sensitive area.

“Andrew! Let me go. I have to leave” Nathaniel sounded pissed.

Andrew had to admit that angry Nathaniel turned him on. He nipped on his neck, probably leaving another hickey, as blonde defenses were weakening. He started moaning in his ear. Andrew didn’t know why he couldn’t just let him go. Who cares if he’s angry with me? It’s just natural, we hate each other or at least one of us, he thought as he remembered Nathaniel’s words last night.

Despite his lucid mind screaming at him to move from Nathaniel and let him leave, he couldn’t, his body had a mind of its own.

In the end, he surrendered to his appetency, and kiss down to Nathaniel’s neck to his collarbone. He moved his hand on Nathaniel’s throbbing area, eliciting another helpless moan from the blonde.

“What about that shower now? Will you be less angry if we’ll take it together?” Andrew purred in his ear.

Nathaniel legs buckled under his desire, and only managed to his hiss under his breath, “You are seriously impossible.” With his eyes closing in haze. Andrew just smirked knowing that he won and pull him hastily towards the Jacuzzi.

Nathaniel kept his eyes open as subway’s humming lulled him to sleep. Fatigue was completely taking over. He worked until night, counting hours till he can slump down on his bed. He would rather go over at Andrew’s but he didn’t want to seem pushy or needy, so he suppressed his cravenness to see him and went straight home.

He turned on some movie, but his thoughts wandered off towards Andrew. He pissed his off this morning, but then the s*x was mind blowing. Nathaniel realized he has to be patience with Andrew, but he will persevere with Andrew because he loved him. His chest fluttered at the thought. “I love him. I really do.” Nathaniel whispered to himself and then giggled at the irony of the situation they were into.

Nathaniel decided he would talk to Allyssa tomorrow and split up with her. It was the right thing to do, isn’t it? He didn’t know how will he explain that to Andrew, he couldn’t tell him he did it so he could be with him, but now, could he?

“Hello, Nathaniel. Are you free?” Allyssa greeted him, smiling sadly, as if she knew.

“Hello.” He kissed her cheek, his chest aching for going to hurt this girl.

“Let’s take a short brisk.” Allyssa said to him. Even though it was pretty chilly outside but he wanted to be able to talk to Allyssa without eavesdropping.

“Ally, look I-I have to be honest with you.” Nathaniel started the speech he prepared in his head previously.

“Nathaniel, no harm done. I figured it. You want to break up with me.” She interrupted him, raising his head towards rustling trees, his blue eyes were shining with mixed emotions.

Nathaniel had a huge lump in his throat, feeling like a crazed hobo. “I-I am sorry.” He whispered, his eyes glistening with tears.

“Is it all because of him, isn’t it?” Allyssa returned his gaze at crying Nathaniel, burning him with the intensity of her eyes.

“What did you just say?” Andrew stuttered, taken aback with the question she asked.

Allyssa laughed mordantly, even though she looked all but happy. “Andrew, it’s him?” She asked again.

“How did you know all along?” The blonde managed to say, his eyes were a complete mixture of sadness and disbelief.

“Nathaniel, you know last night I dreamt about you.” She stopped in her tracks, running her cold fingers over his cheek.

“You were the boy of my dreams. You know that one crush that you can never get out of my head. You were my first and last love.” Allyssa said with an unambiguous pain in his voice.

“Ally, I didn’t meant to hurt you. It was never my intension to fell in love with him.” Nathaniel whispered between his sobs, tears strolling down his cheeks now.