I don't believe in distractions. Not in people, not in places, not in moments that offer nothing beyond the temporary. Everything in my life has weight. Purpose. If it doesn't, it doesn't belong.
Which is why, two nights later, I still can't put her face down. Annoying. I'm standing at the window when I finally admit it — the city spread wide beneath me, lights and movement and all that indifferent distance I've always found useful. It usually works. Tonight it doesn't.
I reach for the whiskey on the table. Don't drink it. Just hold it, watch the amber shift in the low light, and tell myself I'm not thinking about her. I am, obviously.
"You're thinking too much."
I don't turn. I know the voice, "Then leave." Alessio laughs. Quiet, predictable, "Still charming. Good to know."
I turn.
He's in the doorway — leaning against the frame like he lives here, hands in his pockets, that particular ease about him that I stopped finding amusing years ago. He knows exactly how far he can push. The problem is he also knows I know it, and pushes anyway.
I take a slow sip and wait, "What do you want?"
"I came to check on you. After the other night." "There's nothing to check."
"Really." Not a question. He pushes off the frame and moves into the room. "Because from where I was standing, everything went wrong."
It did. I'm not going to argue that. But it was dealt with, and dwelling on it serves no purpose.
"It was handled."
"That's not what I asked."
I say nothing. Alessio has a habit of sitting in silence until you fill it. I learned a long time ago not to. When he speaks again, his tone has shifted. Quieter. More careful.
"You're sure it wasn't a leak?"
My grip on the glass tightens. Barely. Not enough for most people to catch, Alessio catches it.
"No," I say.
"You considered it?"
"Yes."
"And?"
I turn back to the window. The city is still there. Still indifferent. Good. "There's no one close enough to me.
I hear how it comes out. Too certain. Too fast, I don't take it back.
"That's the problem with thinking you're always in control," he says. "You stop seeing what you don't expect."
My jaw tightens. I don't respond because he's not wrong, and we both know it, and saying so out loud accomplishes nothing.
I set the glass down.
"Say what you came to say.''
A beat. He drags a hand through his hair — something he only does when he's choosing his words carefully. That alone puts me on edge.
"Your father's not convinced."
I go still.
"About what?''
"About the situation. About how it happened." A pause. "About you."
The room feels smaller.
I don't raise my voice. Don't move. But something settles in me — cold and absolute.
"My father doesn't question me."
"He does when something doesn't add up."
Silence.
I run through it again — the same way I've run through it a dozen times already. Contacts. Timing. Access. Every variable. I was thorough. I'm always thorough.
Nothing points anywhere it shouldn't.Nothing — except— No.
I shut it down.
"You're overthinking it.
He studies me for a long moment. Then shakes his head.
"Maybe," he says. "Or maybe you're not thinking enough."
I don't answer.
The alternative doesn't exist. I've already decided that.
I don't mean to go back.
That's the part that bothers me — not the going, but the not meaning to. I just end up there, my mind too restless for the apartment, my feet moving before I've made any real decision. I only notice where I'm headed when the music hits me at the door.
Louder tonight. Or I'm paying more attention than I should be.
The crowd is the same as it always is in places like this — people using the noise as permission to stop thinking. I move through them without slowing, scanning out of habit. Nothing here concerns me.
I tell myself that.
And then my gaze stops.
She's at the bar. One elbow on the counter, head tilted, listening to her friend with a faint smile that looks entirely genuine. No performance in it. No awareness of the room
No awareness of me.
I watch her longer than necessary. I know I'm doing it. I file it away as a problem and move toward her anyway.
She senses me before she sees me — I catch the slight shift in her posture, the moment her attention pulls. When she turns, there's no surprise in her expression. Just recognition.
And then something dry moves into her eyes.
"Again?" A beat. "Do you follow people often, or should I feel special?"
"If I were following you," I say, "you would have noticed sooner.
She raises an eyebrow. Unimpressed.
Good. Impressed people are predictable.
"Confident."
"Accurate."
A short breath — almost a laugh. She shakes her head and turns slightly back to the bar, like she's deciding how much of her attention I've earned.
Not much, apparently.
I find I don't mind.
"I don't even know your name."
"Luca."
She glances at me.
"Just Luca?"
"For now."
It's not an attempt at mystery. It's just true. Last names are a different conversation — one she hasn't earned and I'm not offering.
She considers me for a moment. Really considers, the way people do when they're actually thinking rather than just reacting.
"Fine. I'm Elena."
"I know."Her expression shifts.
"What?"
"I asked," I say. Simple. Factual.
She stares at me — and then, despite herself, laughs.
"That's not weird at all."
"It worked."
"Barely."
The smile stays, though. Small and reluctant and real.
I notice that. I notice everything about her — the way she doesn't adjust herself to the room, doesn't recalibrate for my presence, doesn't give me anything I haven't made her want to give.
Different.
I don't like what that means.
"Do you always talk to strangers like this?" she asks.
"No."
"Then why me?"
I don't answer right away. Not because I'm being evasive — because I genuinely don't have one, and I'm not in the habit of saying things I haven't thought through.
The honest answer is I don't know. And not knowing bothers me more than I'm going to let on.
"You don't seem like the type to be impressed," I say instead.
She smiles. Slow. Certain.
"I'm not."
Something shifts in me. Small. Unwelcome.
"Good."
She tilts her head.
"Good?"I don't like things that are easy."
Elena holds my gaze — really holds it, the way most people don't bother — and something thoughtful moves through her expression.
"Then maybe you should stop talking to me," she says. "I'm very low effort.
I look at her.
The way she holds herself. The way she speaks without needing anything from me. The way she's already half-turning away — not as a tactic, just because that's who she is.
"No," I say. Quieter. "You're not."
And there it is.
I feel it the moment it happens — the precise, quiet loosening of something I keep carefully locked. Not dramatic. Not visible.
Just enough to matter.
I don't reach for it. Don't pull it back.
For once, I let it be.