Me and Him

these things happen all the time

The reaction on his face was priceless, I felt him go, “what the hell!” and I smiled. Don’t get me

wrong, I wanted to kiss him but this was not the place for such things, plus I didn’t want him to

think that I was easy, trust me, no girl wants to be considered easy, no matter how hard they have

a crush on you, its still not easy. So, I watched his ego go down the drains and his charming

sexiness with it, he concentrated his eyes at me, and I felt that awkward moment sink in, then, in

a bid to stop it, I held him by his shoulders and threw my arms around him,

“you see this… can happen at many other places, but here”

I saw his face lit up, and I immediately knew what he wanted to say, but I waited for him to say it

anyway.

“my place? tonight?”

“mmh I’ll think about it, then text you”

Then I let him go, pulled myself up so that I was standing on my toes and kissed him on the cheek.

Then I smiled and when for the door, I turned when opening the door and saw him look at me with

those dreamy eyes and I knew I had started a sparkle inside him, something that just won’t go

away easily, and I felt happy. I don’t know why, but I did feel happy.

When I reached the house, Yvonne was there, waiting for me. She had this event that she wanted

me to go to and I didn’t want to. Ok, I had two good reasons. One, I had a date, tonight and I

wanted to look for sexy things to wear, this would take a long time and going to another event

might just ruin that for me. And two, I didn’t want to be set up on a fake date, because this is what

she has been doing ever since I became single. So, I protested her ideas and said that I didn’t want

to go out. The reason why I wasn’t going to win this argument was that I couldn’t tell her that I

had a date with the lecturer. I mean, she would freak out at me and never even talk to me, so it's

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better to keep this to myself. Also, she was convinced that I was still angry at her and I really

wanted her to see that I wasn’t angry. So, it happened that I found myself on the road walking to

a chill out party at her boyfriend’s. Can you guess where? Exactly, Kahawa Wendani, almost

10,000 miles from where I am supposed to be at around 9 pm. Ok, we didn’t talk time with crushy,

so I assumed that tonight meant 9 pm. When we got there, I had my plan figured out, I would stay

there up to 8 pm then excuse myself then leave, provided I knew where to alight, I was ok.

I remember vaguely what happened after we entered that house, I remember smoke, and the smell

of bhang, then I have portions of memories from Yvonne’s friends persuading me to take a small

puff, then I remember taking some, then I remember me going into a room with this guy, then I

remember tearing off his shirt, then I remember portion of us being naked, then nothing, the rest

was blurred. I woke up in the morning next to this guy I didn’t know and the first thing in my mind

was, what the hell just happened, I got up and tried to dress up, then I remembered I was supposed

to be on a date. My whole body gave up and I went back to bed, maybe to console myself. I didn’t

know. Looking at my phone, I found close to 7 missed calls, all from the same person, I think by

now, there is no need to tell you who it was. I felt bad, I covered myself with the blanket, just then,

the guy woke up, he greeted me and started giving reviews on how good and amazing I was last

night. Inside my head I was thinking, if only someone else was the one saying these things to me,

I could have been very happy, but because it’s you, I don’t give a damn if I was good or not, coz

it doesn’t count.

I took off an hour later and went to my house, where I found Yvonne, we had a quarrel, this time,

a real one. Then I took my bag and went, not home, just around, visiting people, and friends, I

stayed at this friend of mine, well actually we are now friends because he wanted to sleep with me

sometimes in the past and I refused. So, the awkward moments turned into amazing moments then

when he started dating, we became good friends, complicated right? When I went home that

evening, Yvonne had already slept, so I slept too, I slept the other day too and I didn’t go to class

that Wednesday, I felt worse for what I did and couldn’t make peace with myself. I felt better on

Thursday, so I texted crushy and he didn’t reply, so I left him alone. Of course, it was just one

word, “Sorry”.

On Friday, I went to class, but this time, I was earlier than him. Ok, I wasn’t becoming a good

person who goes to class early, technically, I was late, its just that he was very late and when he

came, he gave same vague assignment then told the class rep to see him after class, that canceled

all my potential chances to go to his office, I thought. I waited for the class rep to get outside his

office, which took close to 20 minutes, then I entered. He didn’t seem happy to see me, neither did

he look classy today, he was just dull, yet, through his frown and unhappiness, I still saw the inner

part of him still look attractive like the way I left it.

“what do you want?” he asked while still busy on his laptop

“I wanna talk”

He looked up, met my eyes and tried to hide the fact that he was happy to see me, then I saw it,

deep in his eyes, I saw anger, what I didn’t understand.

“You crashed me,” he said

Confused, I looked for a word to tell him but found none, I knew I didn’t come to his date but

didn’t know how this could actually crash him that much, I mean, its just a missed date, a lot of

things like these happen.

“I know, am sorry, let me make it up to you, tonight, at your place, this time I will come, I promise”

“no, I don’t need you to come anywhere, am good”

So I saw the anger that I had sparkled in him, and I tried to understand it, but I couldn’t, I mean

which kind of a man gets crushed by a bad date, these things happen all the time, I wanted to tell

him that, I wanted to tell him to stop behaving like a baby, I wanted to tell him to man up and take

me to his house, but I couldn’t, because of fear, I was afraid I could crash him more, I was afraid,

I could extend the harm. So, I stood, looked at him in total silence, until he realized my gaze and

looked up.

“am coming to your house tonight, if you want me there, you will open the door for me. Otherwise,

I will sleep outside your house the whole night.”

Then I walked out, determined, ready for war, ready to prove my love for him. By this time, if I

didn’t tell you, I was feeling like he was the love of my life, I loved him, I had started to love him

and that was continuing to take effect very fast. In the house, I didn’t find Yvonne so I took a

shower, put on some clean clothes and got out.