It’s unbelievable how one person could have so much control over your life. They have the power to rip your heart out and stamp on it. It doesn’t matter how strong you are in the beginning because in the end they will wear you down. Even after we realize the power that they have over us we hold onto the hope that they won’t use it wrongly. With Ferdi I’d held onto the hope that maybe deep down he had still wanted me, that he still cared that I didn’t get hurt, there were moments I truly believed; the kiss in my kitchen, defending me when it wasn’t needed and comforting me when it was needed. It was time for me to get over him, I had told myself I would wait till he was ready to accept me, I never should have done that.
So Monday my first day back I excused myself from Mark and his friends
