Tinakpan ko ang aking mukha sa pamamagitan ng aking kamay dahil sa sikat na araw, I just smiled widely like how I used to wear.
I'm sitting in the back part of the gymnasium, this is the first day of school and I'm just here alone, I really hate it when I'm alone but I should bear it now because Lyn and Kate was in different schools to pursue their own dreams, and I don't want to be selfish, I'll support them despite I'm not used that they are not in my side.
"Hi!" a girl greet me, she's wearing a revealing dress and I don't know if it's appropriate to wear it in the school, but I just smiled widely to her.
"I'm Samantha but you can call me Sam, first year ka din? Ano course mo?"tanong niya pa sa akin, I just chuckled, I like how jolly she is.
"Oh sorry madaldal ako, napapanis na talaga laway ko dito dahil kahit isa wala akong kilala eh" sabi pa niya sabay kamot ng ulo, I chuckled loudly to her but she's blushing because of embarrassment.
"it's okay, I'm Ashtheria but you can call me Ash for short" I said with, she smiled at me.
"Alam mo ba na maganda ka?" sabi pa niya sa akin,
"Mas maganda ka" I giggled while whispering it to her, she chuckled
"Bolera ka din eh, Kung lalaki ka lang playboy ka eh" sabi pa niya, I laughed hard.
The speaker saying something about some policy at school, courses and they welcome us because we are freshman. The seminar ends,
" So ano course mo?" tanong ni Sam
"I take BS Accountancy" I said to her, she look amazed like I'm kinda smart person in the earth, that's why I chuckled on her reaction
"Feel ko brightening ka" sabi pa niya, I chuckled what she's saying to me
"Well, I'm in fashion designer kahit di mo tinatanong course ko sasabihin ko na" she said while pouting, I hide my smile
"My bad, but I hope we will see each other in the campus Sam because you are really good" I said to her
"We will, let's hang out to know each other tapos malay mo maging BFF tayo diba" she said I nodded and smiled to her
" So we should go to our own class now, so bye see you in the campus" I said to her, she waved her hand a goodbye and I waved back too.
When I saw her running, I smiled she's really a good and a positive girl, I wish I have those kind of genuine smile that she have, I smiled sadly and felt alone.
I enter the classroom and we just have smooth introduction in class, and I just hope that this year I'll not encounter people who would trigger me.
It's lunch time and cafeteria is crowded that's why I decided not to go there and I just go near convenience store and eat there and buy some drinks.
I open the convenience store and the cold of the aircon hug me, I find some chocolate drinks and biscuits for my snack later.
"Hi ma'am, ito lang po ma'am?" the boy cashier asked me, I just nodded and little bit smile to him
"It's okay if I just sit there and eat my lunch?" I asked to her, he scratch his forehead
" No, English ma'am" he chuckled nervously
"Ano ba to mapapasabak ako ng english nito, bobo pa naman ako" I heard him with his little voice
"Ahm ma'-
" Sabi ko Kung pwede ba akong makaupo at mag lunch don" I said, his eyes widened, he chuckled loudly
"Ma'am pinakaba mo naman ako, akala ko po foreigner ka. Opo ma'am okay masyado ma'am" he said, he chuckled
"Thank you" I said
I'm sitting and eating alone, and I saw people laughing together and some are like struggling like me. When something divert my attention, I saw a black cat, he's alone and I saw someone say it's a badluck and kicked him. I clean my table despite I haven't done eating.
"Do you have cat foods here?" I asked, he's playing some games and he looks startled.
"Ohh ma'am cat foods ma'am? Ahh nandon ma'am may mga cans na cat foods don ma'am" he said, I buy it and look for the cat outside. He's so thin and people disgust him because of her color, I sadly look at him.
"Eat" I said and open the can, I sat and the cat is eating slowly. He glanced at me like he's thankful for me, I smiled.
"Eat your food, you deserve it and don't think what people think about you, you are not a bad luck okay? You are still a cat that should treat fairly" I said in my little voice.
"Bye now, take care of yourself" I said and go to my class, when I was walking to the campus I saw someone struggling with his books, I help him to pick the book in the floor.
He glanced at me, I give him the books I picked
"Maybe I should help you?" I asked to him and I smiled widely, he just stared me emotionless.
"Don't smile" he said to me coldly
"What? Why?" I asked
"Because it's all lies" he said, my heart broke what he said
"No, it's genuine mister" I said and laughed to him
"Your eyes say opposite to me miss" he said to me, I chuckled to hide my true emotions.
He turn around and said
" Don't help others if you can't even help yourself" he said coldly and walk away.
My heart hurt because the words he said was hit direct in my heart, I didn't even know I'm crying, I wiped my tears
"Don't cry, don't make people see your sadness Ash" I said to myself and punch my heart.
I'm walking to my classroom,
"I should avoid him" I murmured to myself. I should avoid people who see what really my emotions, because I don't want someone see my grief because they will gonna use it to hurt me more, and I don't want to experience it again.