Fate, My Elementals & I (Breaking Borders)

Dear Diary I

***** Evony’s Pov*****

Dear Diary,

After we left the show, where I had this life-altering experience, one that I knew changed me, in so many ways seen and unseen, I thought to myself, what next? No one told me what the consequences of a queen without her elementals were.

I had just assumed I could move on, but no. Half way across the globe, six hours ahead of them and I still felt connected to them. Sigh. I then remember that Many said absolutely nothing to me for the past three days, which was highly disturbing. One would think I would be grateful for the silence, but it felt as though I had disappointed my mother, which was probably worse than knowing I had lied to Fero. I prefer to be yelled at. I’m crazy. The entire plane ride over, to an entirely new continent, I kept trying to summon my conscience, but it was as though a wall was placed to support the veil that separated us in the first place.

Fero was so worried about me. Blaming himself, and I refused to tell him about encountering my four most significant beings I was now and forevermore attached to. How will I ever explain this to him later on? Will he ever forgive me?

As for the changes, I am sure he will notice soon enough. He trains me himself, allowing elders to weigh in, but not take over. I loved how brilliant, patient and organized he was. I admire my guardian and I am now afraid he will lose hope in me, once it comes to light that I have not been entirely truthful with him.

I now feel faster and stronger. More in control of my powers. I may still tire, however, endurance can be built. I know it was due to meeting them, but there was something I couldn’t quite understand, this feeling. They told me that my elemental or elementals would be an extension of me. A force to push my potential forward. There was only one other queen recorded that had all four elementals at her disposal, and she was the first. What could this mean? Is it Fate assisting us in our endeavours or is it that she knows we are going to need a miracle to get our realm back? Did the First feel as though her elementals were meant to be more as well?

I listen to them speak of the olden days, the queen before the sealing of the borders, only had two elementals. Fero’s father who was air and another who was fire. They stated that she never found her fated. They believed that her brother, may have used this to turn the warriors against her. Stating she was cursed and unfit. That her curiosity and fascination with the mortals corrupted her and caused Fate to be displeased with her. For she was the longest reigning queen, but still no seed was brought into the world by her. I asked Fero how come he was not an elemental like his father. He informed it doesn’t work that way. Fate holds the cards. It is about someone’s core and aura. He was best to be an empath, which would have worked well in the courts alongside his father and the, then queen. Should Fero, had become a part of her court, he would have been able to warn her against the darkening core of her brother and his feelings towards her. Fero anoyingly refuses to give me his name as well. All other refugee Fatums' who lived in the mortal realm at that time, were also instructed not to impart any knowledge of the triator to me as well.

Sometimes I feel like I need to race back to them. Hold on tightly, but then my reality rears its ugly head in another stage performance and listening to Fero give his speech to the newly added Fatum into our ranks.

Many, taught me my song. Not the one I sing for the orchestra, no, the one that call on the Fatum. She told me the frequency to use, a timeframe in a way that only the loyal Fatum could hear. She never explained how or why, never informed me that my elementals would be completely immune to it, nor did she, nor Fero, explain to me why some Fatum wouldn’t be able to hear it or why we needed that level of protection. Why were we afraid of some?

These questions all resurfaced to me simply because of them. My boys, could they be in danger? There is nothing connecting us except these bracelets and Fate. No, I must believe they will live their lives in peace and excited about the day we can all meet again.

Seal…………………………………………

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Dear Diary,

I am fifteen now, and a true force to be reckoned with, as I have defeated one of every Fatum type, which are numerous, all on top of their training and matured. Skills unrivaled by others in their category and the best, they were instructed to attack as a team. They did not even understand what happened to them until it was too late. I made sure not to use any deadly force, but I believe some of them will be disoriented for a while. Fero actually told me a good job instead, again. I preferred power training over hand to hand combat, but Fero insisted that I would lose too much energy if I were to constantly expel it like that, so hand to hand was a necessity. I am sure I will pass that as well. The first year of my psychology studies has passed. Covering enough modules and accumulating enough credits to cover at least two years of my four-year college degree, in order to keep up with my mortal facade, felt like a breeze. All I have done, including raising a protective shield around our compound of training centers and residences, kept me busy. The shield was synced with my core. So any illwisher could not enter. Though, not busy enough.

I felt quite sad recently. I know it was due to my connection with my elementals. I just was not sure which of them or if all of them needed me. It was overwhelming sometimes. Never really knowing, but feeling it all. I kept completely firm in my decision to allow them their lives, even after Many came back to me almost 6 months after the entire situation, which made my caretaker even more suspicious of me, with a true vengeance. My conscience immediately made herself known by wracking me with a torturous headache for hours, resulting in the power to hear thoughts. Mastering that power was tedious, to say the least. Listening to others complain, lusting over each other and the one's I wish I had never heard of me. I was certainly relieved the minute I learned to syphoon important knowledge and separate each of their thoughts. Soon enough, I was able to block them out entirely. When I thought I could not be even more of an anomaly, Many told me the day Fate deems me worthy, I would receive the third eye. I cracked a joke asking where it would fit and that it was good to have her back. All I received in return was, You will regret your stubbornness, young queen. At first, I was confused, only to realise she meant not taking them with us. I, in turn, informed her that I had done the right thing, all the way. They deserved their lives for a little while longer. What did she do? She repeated the same line to me of course. So infuriating was added. This made me feel worried, as though it was already written in stone. I know there will be consequences of my choice, but I was prepared to face it, for them. The thing is, I just could not expect them to sacrifice their entire childhood for me.

I also found out more about fated bonds, as some have recently reached their maturity, claiming their fated at first glance. Some Fatum, are shifters, so imagine an eagle swooping down at a tiger, only for both to return to their humanoid forms and kiss. When the feelings are described, I remembered my situation, which has me somewhat questioning what I truly felt for them when I was just eleven years old. I wasn’t sure, as it was four years ago, but was it a power rush or a fated recognition. I can’t imagine having four options, was I to choose between them? Was I only overwhelmed and misinterpreted all of it. I know for a fact they were my elementals, but why was my mind, body and core so sure about them being more?

I inquired from an elder if queens usually have fated and she insisted that yes. Fated had to be accepted as we were not meant to live forever. Once we accept our fated we have the option to open our essence, this provides us with the ability to reporduce. Once a seed is birthed, this can be done as many times as you wish, while still capable, we age during this time, slowly hand in hand with our beloved, until our seed has reached maturity, leaving the earthly plain together and returning what was given to us. When I asked what that was, she said silly child our core of course. It belongs to the world, in turn so do we. It is why we are who we are. The reason we are so connected, our powers. Why we would never harm the land, unlike the mortals who take their realm for granted. I sat there taking in all that knowledge. Confused as to how this helps me answer my questions. Many is no help. When I ask all she replies is I am a guide. I know what I asked next was insensitive but I had to know.

Have you met your fated?

I thought she was not going to answer me, as some time had passed, but she breathed in deeply nodding her head. Further informing that they had even had a seedling. When the closing was occuring she was with them at home. When they saw guards scattering, rounding up others, hearing screaming from neighbors, not far away, even the smells of burning wood and green, what their houses as well as themselves mostly consisted of. One, trusted by her partner advised them to cross hurriedly into the mortal realm if their alligance was to the queeen. They quickly agreed and ran to the nearest gate, together. Their firend was caught first with his partner and was slaughtered. Attempting to shield their seed from the horrendous, senseless m******e of their kin, they pushed forward. Trying to figure out how to work the gate without the assistance of a keeper, guards swooped on her boy, causing her partner to attempt to retrieve their seed. He pushed her though the gate to safety, before launching himself at the solider carrying their reason for existing. Being tumbled compass-less through the gate, she said she only felt a shocking amount of pain and blacked out upon entry. Then, waking up, she met with another Fatum but not inclusive of her partner nor their seed. They were abandoned in the eightieth century, and as much as she has tried to slow her aging, you can never truly close your essence once opened and joined to your Fated. Her biggest fear is that once we do return, whether her condition will speed up her partner's aging or will it right hers, as their seed will not mature for another two and a half centuries in mortal time.

Listening to her story, I was incited, ready for battle there and then. My blood boiled at the thought of my people's blood splattering on grassy plains. As I felt my heart race out of pure hatred for those who assisted in it, I screamed in my mind, Screw waiting, go in guns blazing. My favorite action packed movie chain flashed in my mind, in highlighted neon lights, live free or die hard. I even smirked, imagining myself grinning down at him maniacally. Instead of a gun, I would point my finger at his face and go POW!, releasing all my energy and making him pay for the atrocities he committed.

The elder made sure to adhere to Fero's rules, not giving names, but her experience caused me to see beyond my own selfish wishes. These people deserve a truly devoted queen. For the first time since I could remember, I didn't just want to help my people find a way home, but I felt fired up to get vengeance on their behalf.

Many, soon surfaced, assisting to guide my anger into something more constructive, as she dubbed it, which was meditation. Informing me that we were all born with the capacity for light and dark. Which one we feed, with our choices, determines who we are and what side of the coin we are on. She informed me there is a possibility I could darken my core, should I choose the wrong way to get justice for the Fatum.

This does not at all change the fact that I miss them more. It is like what the mortals call a phantom itch. I turn sometimes when I wish to address one of them only to realise they were not there with me. Is this so frustrating because a queen’s elemental is supposed to be by her side, or is it because they are my fated?

Seal…………………..