Her Deepest Secrets

Controlled Storm

Excuse me please I need to get a lot off my chest

'Cause I can't keep on living like this

So much too gain, while there's so much to lose

make that make sense

Guess that's what happens

when you're fighting a war within yourself

Yeah, somewhere a long the way

I lost the only thing keeping me from

going over the edge-lost my sense of direction

In the end everyone thinks I turned out alright

but the truth is...

I'm relearning everything I once knew

Trying to break free from the darkness that

held me down for so long

Holding onto the hope that

it's not too late for me to become

the opposite of what I'm used to being.

Can I rewrite my ending?

I'm decoding-

all the things that keep me awake at night

Trying to be patient

with what only time can tell,

but I'm tired of

gluing back the same broken pieces

"Everything had a story, a lesson"

is what I tell myself...

but damn-

what the hell was this one for?

I'm decodinging..

all the lessons that turned my spirit blue

Can you really hate someone for rearranging the things

she's been trying to burn?

I'm done feeling like no matter

how hard I try-

Change after change- it was

never enough for people who gave nothing back

Maybe that was my problem

Let me decode the hate before

it takes shape again-

and bring back the peace

I once felt safe in.

Forgiving..

but never forgetting the ticking time

bomb we all knew too well.

So go ahead

say hello to the

Controlled Storm.