The Diary Of Jeca

Home sweet home turns into ashes

As days passed, I let my parents and sister know that we already had Sofie in the family by phone. As I expected, my parents were not thrilled about it. They ask me," are you sure she is your daughter?" They are driving me crazy." When I saw my baby, I was sure she was my daughter. Why are you so mean?". Then I didn't reply to their messages because I knew that I would be so mad because of their actions and I might speak badly to them, so I held myself up not to say something wrong. I know they are just concerned, but I was hoping they could accept the situation now. If Jeca says that that is my baby, I will trust her and take that responsibility. I think that is what love is.

If they don't want my daughter, it's okay," I thought.

Thinking about what my parents and sister told me made me so upset, and I decided never to visit them so that I could have some little space and rest from the pressure and anxiety I was facing. And yet every day, they will try to message me, and they will try to convince me that maybe that baby was not mine. But I never listen to them. It is crucial for me that Jeca says it is my daughter. Yes, I have second thoughts, but people change. We will never know if she might change herself. So I tried my best to convince myself everything will be fine.

Three years later, Sofie gets bigger. And she becomes even more beautiful and so sweet. Every week I will come and visit them. I can't take them with me to the apartment where I live because it is too tiny a place is not enough for us to live together, but I tried to look for a more prominent area, but it is so expensive. After all, I want Jeca and Sofie will stay with me. So I work so hard so that I can afford a bigger apartment.

Luckily I became a supervisor at work, so I was so glad that my salary became higher than it used to be. I told Jeca we would have a bigger apartment to live in, and I asked her if she wanted to marry me. But she refuses my proposal. So, I thought maybe she was just not ready yet that is why she refused.

I never gave up even though she refused my marriage proposal, then I asked her to come with me, and we moved into the apartment I had just rented. It's not as big as Jeca's house, but this would be our sweet home. She agrees with it because she doesn't like being at their house. She thinks her dad always commands her what to do and doesn't like it. She can't do the things that she wants. So, she was very excited about it and packed her belongings and told her father that we already had a home and would transfer as soon as possible. I saw her smiling and very happy about it while holding her phone. I was wondering why she was always holding her phone, and it had a password that even I didn't know what the password was.

We stayed in their house for about two days before we moved out and then said goodbye to her dad and siblings. I can see in her eyes that she's excited, and Sofie keeps singing while we go home. When we arrived home, I saw that she was not happy about the place, and I told her, "don't worry, dear. When I save up a lot of money, I will buy a house, and there is no need for us to rent an apartment," and she just smiled at me. I worked a lot at night and just had little time for them. When I finished my job, I felt so tired I fell asleep during the day. She was so unhappy and always mocked me because I was not doing chores.

I was so distressed because I thought she would understand I was so busy and tired that I said, " Dear, I am working at night, and please do understand that I am tired." That is not an excuse for you to help me clean and cook here" So, I got up from bed and cooked. I feel dizzy because I just slept 2 hours, but I don't want her to be upset. So I do whatever she wants. And I told her, "I think it would be nice if you looked for a job too and help me out so that we can get a helper and you can buy the things that you like too. Sofie is getting older too later, she needs to go to school just like other kids, and I'm afraid my salary will not be enough, especially since you got a lot of things to buy and what to have."

Jeca likes fancy things. Taking herself to a beauty parlor as much as she can, and yes, I am giving allowance for her beauty and the stuff she wants to buy. I want her to be happy. During my day off, we will visit a restaurant so that I can. Make up the missing time together. She's happy whenever we go outside. I will buy her expensive things, which is a big struggle because I can't save some money for the house, but I never complain; I will always do my best for my family.

Even so, I am trying my best to buy what she like Jeca was always upset because she said I was too slow to buy her a house and the things she likes the most. I can't reach her expectation and wants because it is too high to reach.

To calm her down, I decided to sell the motorcycle and use the money for the downpayment for the house. But she's not happy about it because I sold the bike.

I told her, " Dear, I have good news and a piece of bad news. The bad news is I sold my bike, so we need to ride on the bus if we want to return to your hometown, but the good news is we can move to a bigger house this coming month. Please don't get upset," yet she's not interested in it. "Hey, are you okay? What's the matter?" "Nothing," she answered.

I notice that she's always busy with her phone these past few days. So I just thought she liked the phone very much, which is why she kept herself alive. Then I saw that she was not exploring her cell phone. She was chatting with someone, and I asked her," who are you talking with?" She answered, " No one." I could feel she hid some things from me, but I ignored them because I loved her.

She's changing day by day her love is fading. I can't see her smiling at me. She doesn't talk to me that much. Then I told her, " I noticed that you've changed and are always busy chatting on your phone. Please stop what you're doing." "Leave me alone I want myself to be relaxed. I am so stressed this day because of you!" She said, " Hey, I am doing my best to give you and Sofie a good future. I work hard for us to have a house, then you'll say that? Can't you see what I am doing everything" I said.

I felt so sad and disappointed seeing and hearing these words from Jeca. I felt my heart was about to tear down, and I was about to blow out and scream at her, but I tried my best not to say anything wrong to her.

While trying to calm myself, I heard her screaming, "I don't care. You are not keeping your promises. You said we would have a bigger house, and until now, you haven't done it yet!" I was speechless, but when I pulled myself together, I said What? Do you think that I am just sitting in here and doing nothing? I work at night, and I never complain about everything. I don't know what's gotten into you these days! You were not like that before. Who are you chatting with, Jeca? Is that another guy? Why you can't take down your phone to do something productive are you cheating?" I ask with an angry face. . "I want to go home. I want to think. I will take Sofie with me." She said. Then I just let her do what she wanted.

She packed her bag and then left without any word. Then I sat down and cried, thinking, what did I do wrong? Why is it she's doing this to me?