The Diary Of Jeca

The black diary of Jeca

I want to live in luxurious life, that's for sure. Hi, I'm Jeca, and I am the only love. Gabby, it's been a long time since we have been together, and yet he can't give me everything that I want. I want to be fabulous among the other girl, yet I can't do it because Gabby can't afford the things I want, or I need to wait for a long time for him to fulfill what I want, and I hate waiting.

That's why when he says he wants to marry me. I didn't accept it. I am beautiful, and there are a lot of guys who will like me. So who is to think to marry me? I need him because I am trying to reduce the damage that I created in my life. Since my mother left us, our lives have become the front page of issues in our small village, so this is the best solution that I could think of lure Gabby to be back in my hands and let them believe that I am just a victim.

It seems like it goes according to my plan. Gabby agrees to be with me. But I need to do something. His money is not enough for me to buy the things for my baby and myself. Am I going to work? Are you silly? I'm too pretty to work.

After three years, he asked me the scariest question in my life.

He wanted another baby and to get married. Is he insane? He is so ugly I'm afraid if we have a second baby, the baby might get his look, and I don't like that. I don't want to marry him, and the time will come when I get out of this situation and leave him.

When dad knew I would have a baby, he was heartbroken when I got the baby, and he got so angry that I was lying all along and tried to hide it from him for six months. Will he never be suspected? As time passed, my baby was out, and I needed to think past to find a solution because I thought he wouldn't support the baby. I don't have a job, so what will people expect? So I did think about Gabby because he quickly got fooled out of me.

I always dream of having a better life with a handsome guy. I want to live in a big mansion, and Gabby doesn't have those. Am I a gold digger? Oh no, no, darling! It's what we call the business. We are in crisis right now. A lot of people have lost their job because of the pandemic. I need to be intelligent about this situation. Hate me as you like. But I don't care about the people think about me. It's just me who finds ways to survive, nothing else. And my dad can't even afford the things I want, so I will not stick to my dad.

Then one day, my jackpot came. Joe came to me again. I almost forgot to tell all of you Joe was my boyfriend, and we stopped communicating when I got a baby, and now he can't resist my charm. He is so rich! And guess what? He is so handsome. He is my dream boy. So we chat a lot, and even though it is around, I don't care about it because I know the character of Gabby. He loves me. I did this multiple times, yet he always forgave me. He is a good person but being a good person is not enough for me.

Since I chatted with Joe, Gabby and I always argue about it. He wants me to stop talking with him. My gosh! I don't want to. It is a jackpot, so why would I stop? If I had a chance to choose Gabby and Joe, I would pick Joe. Joe is such an angel. He will fulfill my dream of being a millionaire in no time. Ha! Ha! ha!

The time came when Gabby bought a house that was not as big as I expected, but it was okay. He also sold his motorcycle for that, and I am not happy because I want him to have a lot of property. Because you know his property will be mine too, but he is just a rat! He can't afford fancy things—what a shame.

I always get jealous of the other girls that they have everything, and I have a few of what they have. If only Gabby is a rich person, maybe my life is not like this. The time is getting near that we need to move into the house he just bought, and I don't want to go to that house because I have a different plan. After all, Joe has expressed his love for me. I did something so that I could do what I wanted.

Gabby and I have a big argument because of Joe. He wants me to stop communicating with Joe, but I don't want to, and who is he? I am just using him to get the things I want, but since he can give them to me, then. He is useless to me, so I need to throw him away.

I made a scene so I could go away and see Joe, so I told Gabby that I wanted to go home to my father's house. We have a big argument because of that, but I don't care about it. I care about myself. That is my nature. Soon I will see Joe, and we will marry.

So I packed up my bag and left together with my daughter. Before I left, I told him I just wanted to have some space because we were arguing a lot. But at the back of my mind, I want to see Joe. My handsome boy, Joe. Whenever I think about Joe, I feel excited and fall in love with him even more.

When I arrive home, I can see my dad reading a bible. I don't want to accept this, but yes, I am a pastor's kid, but I never wanted to be a pastor's kid because everyone is looking at my action. They want me to leave like a holy person, but I am evil, and no one can change that. Will, they said, I can be changed by the power of God. That's insane.

My dad is a good person. My mother left us many years ago because of a guy, she also planned to kill my dad, yet my dad chose to forgive her.

I remember when Gabby's Sister asked me, "Why is it you don't want to get married to my brother? You have been together for years, and you are already a daughter with him," I answer her," I don't want to become like my mother."

Will, my mother is married and chose the other man for her pleasure. To make changes, I don't want to get married. I will not get married to Gabby, so I am still free to marry and be with the other guy.

Then I woke up to my imagination. While I was standing at the door, my dad greeted me with a smile on his face, and he said, "It's been a long time since you haven't visited us. Oh, Sofie, come to your grandpa" Sofie ran fast to her grandpa and kissed him on the chick. I stayed at my dad's house for months.

Then, Gabby always messages me and calls me, and I get annoyed when he calls. We are in the middle of a conversation with Joe. So I would turn it off repeatedly, but he wouldn't stop, so I answered the call and yelled at him. People see what I do, and they are shocked about it. And I don't care about it.

Since my dad is a pastor, many people are in our house most of the time, so they can see what I am doing. Some of those people are not a member of our church, so sadly, they make a story about me. They said that I was always yelling at Gabby and I was a new guy. And yes, it's true, but I need to clean my name, so I insist that there's no new guy in my life.

Sadly, they saw Joe visiting me and asking me for a date. So, I think I can't hide from that. But I am trying not to let Gabby know about it, so whenever he calls, I will say, "Do not visit me here because you make me stressed. Please give me some space, but I think no matter what I do, he will know the truth sooner or later.