The Diary Of Jeca

The Last Day of Commitment

I tried to understand everything. Jeca's behavior makes me unmotivated by my work. And I tried my best to forget about Jeca and Joe, but no matter what I did, I can still remember all of the things that Jeca had done to me.

Then one day, I decided to talk with Joe since I had known him for a long time. I was a musician in a church, and Joe and I met him at a revival held in our church too. He is a son of a pastor too. So I was hoping he would be open-minded and understand the situation, and maybe he would stop communicating with Jeca. I grew up in a broken family, so I don't want to have a broken family. I am so worried about Sofie too.

I tried to message him, " I know you and Jeca are in a relationship. Please leave my family alone. I don't want a broken family because of you and Jeca's insanity. My daughter will be affected by this, and you're brilliant. You are studying law, and your parents are pastors, and they are holding a church, so I hope you are smart enough to understand what I am trying to tell you, and he didn't respond.

To my surprise, Jeca messaged me. She said, " You are insane. We are not in a relationship with Joe, and You are an i***t. You are trying to break our family, not Joe! I regret that I come with you. I want to end this toxic relationship with you. Please don't call me anymore, or even text me, and oh, that f*******: of mine. I already deleted it because I want to delete all our memories. Suppose I know you will tell others how cruel I am to you. Mark my words, I will kill myself if you will do something stupid, and guess what? It is because of you. Stop fixing this stupid relationship of ours, s**t!"

When I read it, I felt very hurt and didn't realize my tears had fallen. But I am optimistic, so I tried my best to talk to Jeca. I called her and texted her many times, but she ignored it. If she gets annoyed, she will answer my calls, yells at me, and curses me. All I want is a happy family. Why is this happening to me? I did everything that I needed to do to preserve this family.

Jeca always does this, and every time she does this, I try my best to make her feel better, and she becomes better, but this time she's getting worse. I was so depressed that I didn't want to eat or even go outside, but I needed to accept these dark days and grow from my problem, and I needed to win this fight. I even told Jeca that I was depressed, but she will shout at me and say die already!!

While working, I received a message from my sister saying," I dream about you. Do you have some problem?". I get nervous whenever she tells me about her dream. It always happens. And I answered her," I'm alright" " No, you're not okay." She insisted, " I talked to my friend about my dream, and I knew what was happening because she told me what's the problem between you and Jeca." She added. " Yeah, we got a huge fight, and I don't know what to do. We just broke up yesterday," I replied. " Maybe there's a third party in here again? but I hope she didn't do the same thing as she did before." She said.

My sister tried to comfort me and said if you can still fix your relationship with Jeca, please do, but if not, make yourself even better so that she will regret leaving you. If you have time, you can visit me in my apartment, and maybe I can help you solve your problem. She added. Then I ask her, " can you tell me about the dream you have about us?" Three men are hurting you. They are punching you, kicking you, and you are just in the corner while you are crying and never fight back, and Jeca is just watching you, and in that dream, I feel so angry, so? I took a broomstick, then hit the other guy, and he said, "It was not me. He was the one. " Then I looked at him and hit him. You know what? I am so surprised that that man is the same person in the picture my friend showed me; my friend told me that that is Joe's, and I realize that it is a confirmation that there is something stupid that Jeca is doing.

When I could move into the house, I remembered my dream of that house was already vanishing. My family was no more because of a guy. I was so angry that I sold the house. The place that I just bought for us. Then I bought a motorcycle for me to relax. Riding a bike makes me relax whenever I got some problem, and I realize this problem makes me crazy if the house is still there, I will remember everything about her. She broke my heart, and I was doing the best things for her, yet she never appreciated it and hurt my feelings repeatedly.

I called Jeca again, even though I was so hurt. While she's yelling at me, I speak in a gentle voice. Please understand that I need some answers to move on." But this makes Jeca silent. I want to see you. If you think we can still fix this, please come with me, but if not, please say so then I will not bother you again. She couldn't give me a direct answer, and I begged her to meet me again. Then she agrees with the things that I ask.

After a week, I went to her house. She didn't want me to get into their home, so what I did was I waited for her on the roadside near their home, then I talked to her. Let's have a ride. Then while we were savoring the fresh air, I tried to talk to her." I need you, and I don't want to have a broken family. Think about Sofie, dear. We get into this relationship because we must be responsible enough to handle the pressure. I know I am not a perfect guy but at least give me a chance to fix our family. Do you still love me?" Then she never said a word. I thought there was a little chance then I kept talking about our memorable dates. Then I decided to go to the seaside to relax and maybe it could make her think clearly.

I took my phone and asked her, "can we have a picture for me to remember?" At first, she refused, but I made her do it. We even exchange jackets. Then, told her, " this is the last day that we will be together, and this is the last day I will talk to you. Please don't refuse my simple request." While I was saying that, I was holding off my tears, and I asked her I will bring you back to your house.

I bring her to her house without saying anything. When we arrived, I knew this was the last day I could see her. She didn't want me to go near their house and I respect it, so I dropped her at the roadside near their house, then I went back home with sadness in my heart.

Goodbye my love. This is the last day that I will meet you. Thank you for everything. Please take care Sofie. Ilove you both!