I offered him coffee at malugod niya iyong tinanggap.
He immediately took a sip and said, "hmm, sarap, parang ikaw." That made me giggle.
"Silly. So, hanggang anong oras ang duty mo ngayon?"
Umupo ako sa tabi niya.
"Last patient ko na si Luna, actually. Pauwi na rin ako after nito."
"Malapit ka lang ba rito? Weird that I didn't know you. Dominguez' are well known because your father was once my sister's heart surgeon."
"I have my own clinic way back at Maragondon, nag-solo ako kaya hindi ako masyadong kilala rito as a doctor. Pero nang mamatay ang parents ko, nag-transfer na ako Dominguez Hospital for good. Naambunan ng kaunting grasya galing sa bayaw kong hilaw." Pagak siyang natawa, parang hindi siya komportable nang mabanggit ang bayaw niya. "Then the rest was history."
"Ang ganda nitong hospital niyo. The facilities are good, at itong room." Ginala ko ang paningin sa loob ng silid. "This is very comfortable lalo na sa mga bata. Takot kasi iyan sa ospital dahil napakasakitin noon."
"I'm glad you liked it." He genuinely smiled at me. "Anything for Luna. Anyway, nabanggit mo sa akin na nawala iyong memories mo, right? Does that include her father?" Junnie glanced at my sleeping daughter then back at me.
"Yeah. I don't even know him. I was seventeen back..."
"What the f**k! Seventeen?!" Biglang bulalas niya. Ang mukha niyang kaninang masuyo ay balot nang pagkagulat.
"Hey, ang oa, ah," sabi ko, rolling my eyes. "Are you judging me?"
"No, I mean that was too young. You were a minor. Naalala ko lang na noong mga edad ko na iyon ay nag-aaral pa lang akong magbate."
"Huh? Magbate? Are we talking about beating egg?"
"Oo, ng itlog ko nga lang, rayku!"
Pilit ko talagang hinuli iyong tagiliran niya para makurot. Tawa nang tawa si gago.
"Well, I think s**t happens that's why. Bakit mo pala natanong?"
"Wala lang. Sad that Luna didn't had a chance to know him."
Biglang umasim iyong mukha ko. Thinking about Luna's father was making me upset kasi bakit ba hindi niya ako hinanap? Is it only a one-time thing? I don't know. Nakakainis na may contribution din talaga ako sa katangahan ko.
"As much as I wanted to bury him in the back of my memories, I actually need him. It was one of my mom's conditions bago niya ibigay sa akin ang negosyo. I need to get married first. You know, I don't believe in marriage dahil nakita ko na 'yan sa mga magulang ko. Takot na takot si Mommy na hindi ako makapag-asawa dahil sa ka-bitter-an ko."
"Grabe ka naman, hindi naman lahat ganoon. Iyong parents ko nga fifty na sila nagse-s*x pa sila..."
"Junnie!" Inis kong sambit sa pangalan niya. He raised his hand as a sign of resignation. "As I am saying, my parent's marriage was sham. My mom was a martir and my dad was a womanizer. Those were the reasons why I and my siblings were f****d up."
I know that that sounded bitter but that was the truth.
"I understand." He nodded. "Well, kung ganoon pala. Dapat mo nga talagang hanapin si baby-daddy dahil doon pala nakasalalay ang future ni Luna. But why not other guy na lang? Nandito naman ako." Mayabang siyang sumandal sa couch at dumekwatro sabay pinasingkit ang mga mata at hinawi ang buhok. "Pogi na masarap pa." Napahalakhak na lang ako sa kalokohan niya.
"No hurt feelings, Junnie, pero babae ang anak ko. I want her to be safe. Not that you're not trusted enough to be my daughter's father. I'm just talking reality here."
He shrugged his shoulders. "It's fine. Kidding aside, dapat naman talaga na sariling father niya talaga ang mag-alaga sa kanya. Wala namang ibang gagawa noon kundi siya lang. I just hope that he isn't married yet." He agreed.
"Naisip ko rin naman na 'yan. I'll just cross the bridge when I get there. Pero kung ako ang tatanungin, ayoko na nga siyang makita."
"Give him a chance, Tala, for Luna."
"That's what I'm doing," I said as a matter of fact. "Anyway, 'di ba ang mga Dominguez ay tubong tiga-Naic talaga?"
"Kahit ba tiga rito talaga ako eh, paano naman kita matutulungan kung wala ka ngang maalala?"
"You know what? I have fragments of memories about a certain guy. He keeps on bugging in my dreams lately. Though I'm not sure if it is him dahil nakita ko naman na rin si Kuya Drei sa ala-ala ko noon, he's my sister's husband. Kaya hindi ko sure kung anong role ng lalaking iyon sa buhay ko na umuusig sa ala-ala ko ngayon."
"That's a good start. Ano ba ang naalala mo?"
"He was wearing a jersey, holding a ball. May nakalagay sa likod na 'red eagle." Para siyang some kind of a basketball tournament."
Biglang nagseryoso si Junnie na kinakaba ko. He was looking intently at me. Para siyang hulog sa malalim na pag-iisip.
"Isa lang ang Red Eagle rito sa Naic, Tala. It was a fraternity. Are your memories was always disturbed by him? Baka pinipilit mo lang alalahanin."
Junnie is a doctor kaya alam kong alam niya kung gaano kadelikado na alalahanin ang mga ala-ala nang pilit.
Inalala ko kung kailan ko huling nasilip sa ala-ala ko ang lalaki.
"It wasn't my intention to think of him, na-trigger lang siguro mula noong na-pressure ako dahil sa kondisyon ni Mommy. Kaya I have a feeling that he was somehow connected with Luna's father. He was messing up in my head for two weeks now."
"Okay." Malalim siyang bumuntong-hininga. "Red eagle is real, Tala, because it is one of the known fraternities hear in Naic, Cavite and my brother were one of them."
My mood lightened up with what he said.
"R-really? Can you help me?" I asked him.
"Sure." Mabilis niyang sagot. Lumapit siya bigla sa akin na hindi tinatanggal ang tingin. I know that stare, it was luscious and needy. As if he want to eat me in flesh, f**k me raw and hard. "I'll help you but in return, I want you in my bed again, Tala. Let's hook up until you found your baby-daddy," he said breathlessly before his mouth met mine.