Chapter 8 First Sight

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Time didn't move for a second. Mia felt it stretch and snag, the whole room holding its breath — Mrs. Okoye frozen mid-motion with the damp cloth still in her hand, Kian's glassy, fever-bright eyes fixed somewhere over his mother's shoulder, and Damian standing in the doorway like a man who'd just walked into a wall he hadn't seen coming. "Mommy." Kian said it again, more insistent this time, small arms reaching, and the sound of his voice snapped Mia back into motion. She crossed the room in three quick strides and gathered him against her chest, feeling the fever-heat of him through his pajamas, the too-fast flutter of his heartbeat against her own. "I'm here, baby. I'm here." She pressed her lips to his damp forehead, murmuring low, automatic reassurances she'd said a hundred times before in nights just like this one. "Mommy's got you." Kian burrowed into her neck, but his eyes stayed open, tracking past her shoulder toward the stranger still standing frozen in the doorway. Five-year-olds noticed things adults tried to hide. Kian noticed everything. "Who's that?" he asked, voice thick with congestion and sleep, pointing one small, unsteady finger. Mia's whole body went rigid. She hadn't thought this far ahead. She hadn't thought past get to my son, hadn't planned a single word for the moment when Kian would inevitably ask exactly the question she'd spent five years dreading. Behind her, she heard Damian take one careful step further into the room, slow, like he was approaching something he was terrified of startling. "That's—" Mia's voice caught. She looked to Mrs. Okoye for help, found none, only the older woman's knowing, sympathetic eyes flicking between her and the man in the doorway who was clearly, unmistakably not just some coworker from the gala. "I'm a friend of your mom's," Damian said, before Mia had to find the lie herself. His voice had gone soft in a way she'd never heard it before tonight — none of the boardroom command left in it, just something careful and unsteady, a man doing his absolute best not to frighten a sick child he'd just found out was his. "My name is Damian." Kian considered this with the gravity only a five-year-old with a fever could summon, studying him from the safety of his mother's arms. "You have my eyes," he said, matter-of-fact, the way children point out obvious things adults spend their whole lives avoiding. The silence that followed was so complete Mia could hear the old radiator ticking in the corner. "Do I?" Damian's voice cracked, just slightly, on the two words. "Mommy says I have Grandma's eyes." Kian yawned hugely, fever making him drowsy despite the interruption, already losing interest in the mystery of the stranger's face now that the immediate crisis of wanting his mother had been resolved. "But you have the same as mine. That's funny." "It is," Damian agreed, and Mia heard something raw underneath the word, something he was working very hard to keep contained in front of a sick child he'd known for exactly ninety seconds. Mrs. Okoye cleared her throat gently, breaking the moment before it could stretch any further. "The medicine should be kicking in soon. His temperature's already come down two degrees since I called you." She looked between Mia and Damian with an expression that suggested she had several questions she was far too polite to ask directly. "Do you want me to put the kettle on, or—" "No, thank you, Auntie." Mia's voice was steadier now, falling back into the practiced rhythm of nights like this. "I've got him from here. Thank you for calling so quickly." "Of course, love. You know I would." Mrs. Okoye gathered her things with practiced efficiency, casting one last curious glance at Damian on her way to the door. "I'll let myself out. Call me if his temperature climbs again." The door clicked shut behind her, and the small apartment fell into a different kind of silence — just Mia, Kian heavy and warm against her shoulder, and Damian standing a careful few feet away, looking at the two of them like he was trying to memorize something he was terrified might disappear if he blinked. "He should be in bed," Mia said finally, mostly to have something to say, something ordinary to hold onto in a night that had stopped being ordinary hours ago. "Can I—" Damian hesitated, an actual hesitation, the first she'd seen from him all night. "Can I carry him? If that's all right." Every instinct in Mia's body said no. Said this was too fast, too much, a stranger — however biologically undeniable — was not carrying her son to bed on the very first night they'd ever met. But Kian was already heavy with sleep, and her arms ached from the tension of the whole night, and something in Damian's voice when he asked — careful, almost pleading, none of the CEO's certainty left in it at all — made the refusal die in her throat. "Gently," she said instead. "He's still got a fever. Support his head." She transferred Kian into Damian's arms with the kind of careful precision she used for every handoff, watching closely, ready to intervene at the first sign of clumsiness. There was none. Damian settled the boy against his shoulder with an instinctive gentleness that surprised her — one hand cradling the back of Kian's head exactly right, like some buried part of him had known how to do this all along, even without ever having practiced. Kian, already half-asleep, murmured something unintelligible and pressed his hot face into the fabric of Damian's suit jacket without protest. Mia led the way down the short hallway to Kian's bedroom, throat tight, watching over her shoulder as the most powerful man in the city carried her feverish son through a cramped apartment he'd never set foot in before tonight, careful of every doorframe, every creaking floorboard, like the whole world had narrowed down to the small, warm weight in his arms. She pulled back the covers on the narrow bed, and Damian laid Kian down with the same careful precision, tucking the blanket up around his shoulders without needing to be told. For a long moment he simply stood there, looking down at his sleeping son in the dim glow of the dinosaur nightlight plugged into the wall socket, and Mia watched something in his face come completely, irrevocably undone. "I have a son," he said quietly, like he was still trying to believe it. "I have a son, and I missed five years of his life." Mia didn't have a comforting answer for that. She stood in the doorway of her son's bedroom, arms crossed, watching a stranger she used to love grieve a version of fatherhood he'd never gotten to have — and felt, for the first time all night, a c***k of something that wasn't quite anger opening up in her chest. Damian turned to look at her then, eyes glassy in the low light, and asked the question she realized, too late, she should have seen coming from the very first moment he'd walked into this apartment. "How do I make up for that?"
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