Where I find happiness

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I haven't felt this kind of joy in my life before, life has been really good, me and queen has turned to best of friends she was a sweet girl I knew there was something about this school, I couldn't be this happy. I didn't know That I could ever turned from a loner to a happy person.

Bestie!! queen called happily to me" I have missed" she said giving me the puppy eye

"Come on we were on a video call yesterday" I said smiling

Wait you don't miss me she said jokingly pushing me away

"come on" bringing her close to me I missed me you so much my baby girl

I know queen said smiling

we had to rush to class cause we were almost late. I don't know what's wrong with my heart I have been seeing Emmanuel for like a month now buh every single time I set my eye on him my heart skips, I don't even know what to do.

You have got to just pour out Your feelings to him be the smart one hear tell him how you feel queen said noticing I was staring at Emmanuel again

Wait what do you mean by I should be the smart one it's not as if he has said anything about liking me I said

ok ok let's just forget about it, it's not as if any of you would ever agree to talk to eat other she said going to her seat

wait up what do u mean I asked running towards her

Nothing I didn't say anything queen said

I didn't put much interest in what queen said cause she loves saying crazy stuffs

We had English lecture and we were asked to write an essay on our lives buh we have to be in pairs so each person is going to write for the others. Easy pissy I will just pair up with queen. I thought

I have made up list for Your pair Mrs Flora said

What the f**k when I said everything was going smoothly I meant for me and queen I felt like crying I just knew I wasn't going to be paired with her I just had that feeling

I felt my heart broke in to many pieces as my teacher called out the names

Jake you are paired up with Emily

Paul with Margret

Ruth with faith

queen with destiny

oh boy queen said sadly

I just stared at the teacher hopelessly I was already seeing my essay scores 0% knowing I can't explain my life to anybody apart from my mom, brother or queen oh wait unless I just lied about it yeah that's the bright side, the teacher next words made me went entirely mute like God!!!

"Bella you are paired up with Emmanuel" she said

what the .... oh boy baby girl are you going to be okay queen asked

I didn't answer cause what the !!!!!! I was getting traumatized like God

Baby just hit me I cried cause this was the last thing I ascpected to happen

That would be the End of the class do well to pair up and submit a great work by the end of two weeks Mrs Flora said as she left the class.

Oh boy !! oh boy !! his coming this way queen sqwelled

who!! what I asked completely frozen I could not even look back to check who it was cause I already knew!! it was Emmanuel oh God

Hey Emmanuel called out to me

I didn't turn or replied back cause his voice was heaven!! I can't believe this was the first time every he was speaking directly to me I was lost in thought

He's taking to you Queen said smiling at me equally hitting my legs too to draw my attention back

ouch I cried out

Hey about the essay I just wanted to know the time and days you are free cause I'm the busy type let's schedule it so it won't be a problem Emmanuel said

ok.. ok ... sure I said starmarring

We will see during lunch ok he said

ok I answered

with that he left the class

oh my God queen who was just staring at us the whole time said

I didn't say anything I was just mute.

"Hi"Emmanuel said to me while sitting down with I and queen at our table during lunch.

Why couldn't I say anything I was yet numb

She's fyn queen answered sensing my trouble bella baby you can do well to start speaking she said

Ok I can see you are the shy type Emmanuel teased

No I'm not it's just that... that ... I stammered

Well nvm he said I'm usually free on Thursday's and Saturdays from 5 I think we could talk about the essay during then if it's fyn by you though

Bella stop common say something I forced myself to speak up

Yeah.. Yeah Thursday's and Saturdays are fine by me buh wait were exactly are we going to be meeting I asked

I thought that maybe we could be meeting at my house he said

Your house?? I asked

oh sorry he said noticing I wasn't comfortable with it we could meet up at some restaurants, maybe a library or something ok ?

Yeah that would be fine I said

We'll see later he said as he left the table

I can't believe my dreams are coming through queen said dreamy

What dreams I asked

You and Emmanuel oh boy I have a good feeling about this she said happily

I didn't know what to say buh truth be told I have always fantasize about Emmanuel but he has a girlfriend Franca the no nonsense girl, she's one of a kind her body stature was a killer so I don't even stand a chance with her.

Well I have to remind queen it just for an essay and besides he has a girlfriend remember I said to queen

oh please queen said I know he has his eye on you sister common stop playing

I just didn't say a word.