I Want You

Was I Wrong?

I pulled in Lucas's driveway taking a minute before getting out of the car, and walk up to his door. I let out a deep breath as I rang the door bell his mother opened the door "Sam, what a nice surprise Luc is upstairs" she said with a warm smile "Thanks" I said walking passed her going up the stairs returning the smile. I walked into Lucas's bedroom he was sitting on his bed on his laptop "Hey" he said looking up at me "Hi" I said sitting at the foot of the bed looking around the room I didn't know where to start "So, how was your weekend?" he asked which instantly made me open my mouth I shook my head not looking at him "How you acted was unreasonable, Zack's brother was in a terrible accident, and all you could think about is yourself" I put my head down closing my eyes, I was so angry, angry at the fact he was selfish, angry at myself for thinking he was different, angry that he was going to act like nothing happened. He just sat there, didn't say anything. "Well, this was pointless" I said getting off the bed "What do you want me to say Sam, you just left with Zack, didn't say anything of course I was going to be pissed off not to mention we had plans that you completely ditched and again no explanation" he said throwing the laptop closed on the bed.I turned around to face him "Oh I'm sorry that my life has other people in it besides for you, I'm sorry I didn't tell you but being there for Zack was more important" his reaction was not what I was expecting, he looked like I just stabbed him in the back, he looked pained, and shocked "All you could have done was tell me Sam, that's all I wanted the fact you ignored me all weekend made me realize if something happens that involves your friends I'm left in the dark". He made a point, but didn't make me feel any less angry "Look, I'm always going to be there for Zack no matter what if you can't accept it then why are we even friends?" I blurted out getting flush but not in a good way, I could feel my blood pressure rising "You and him have this weird connection I will never be able to fit in I'm sorry Sam but you know it's true when it comes to him, you care more about how he feels and that's great but other people want you to be around too" he replied you could hear how defeated he was in his voice. I just looked down at the floor, his words hurt but I was not letting him get to me "I have nothing more to say, seeing how you feel negative about Zack makes me realize I don't want to be around you anymore. Say what you want about me, but leave him out of this, he didn't ask for this to happen and he didn't force me to go with him or ignore you, that was me" before he could say anything more I walked out of his bedroom, down the stairs and out of his house. I got in my car grabbed my phone and sent a text to Zack

Can I stop by for a bit?

Yeah sure, everything okay?

I'm fine, I'm just leaving Lucas's I'll be there in a few minutes

I pulled into Zack's driveway, he was waiting for me outside sitting on the step, he stood up as I walked over to him giving me a hug. I sat down on the step after he let me go he sat next to me "We'll I'm pretty sure Lucas and I are no longer friends" I said looking straight ahead, I knew Zack didn't care about Lucas, but I knew seeing me feel down he cared about "It's okay Sam, I wasn't a fan of the guy but it's his loss" he said smiling at me. I could tell he was feeling relieved. I let out a sigh "He tried to make me feel bad for not telling him about leaving with you, and bringing you into it, I was so angry Zack, it was my choice, it had nothing to do with you. I mean thinking about it, was this my fault?" I said looking at him "Don't beat yourself up over it, it will blow over. Maybe it's for the best" he replied rubbing the top of my back making me feel better.

He sat with me for awhile, we sat in silence then decided I should probably go home, stood up "Thanks Zack" I said giving him a hug "Sam, you know I'll always be here for you" he said hugging me back "I'll see you tomorrow" I said letting him go, but moving my hand down his right arm making him smile I got in my car, he was still standing outside I wove as I left and he went back inside.

I got home, mom was bringing her glass to the kitchen to put in the sink "Hey dear, you okay?" she asked looking worried "Yeah, I'm fine. Thank god for Zack is all I can say" I said grabbing a bottled water from the fridge I told her what happened before I left the house earlier, as she was wondering where I was going "Things didn't go well with Lucas I take it?" she asked. "Not really, I guess right now we aren't friends" I said playing with the cap on my bottle to avoid looking at her "Aw baby things have a way of working out, I'm sure it will be fine" she said placing her hand on the back of my neck I gave her a smile, and went downstairs I threw myself on my bed and just laid there all I could think of was if I was the one in the wrong, but what if I did text him, would he still have been angry? is he jealous of Zack? so many things, and no answers.