Falling for the forbidden wolf

Chapter Two

Tessa’s pov

Of course, it seemed perfect, but perfection is only a façade for the truth. Mark acted too perfect that it made me start to realize that something was just not right. Even when there were times when there is meant to be an argument or i obviously do something that is meant to get him pissed but he wouldn’t budge. “There was definitely something but I wasn’t sure too or was I just overthinking everything?I asked myself.

It’s our senior year and we moved in together. Moving in together felt like a really huge step but at the same time felt like starting up our lives together, I had never been in an actual relationship, mostly just situationships that never ended well. We would mostly stop talking or end up hating ourselves. So moving in together was a big deal for me.

I know it might sound crazy, moving in with someone I started having second thoughts about but I still love him very much and I wasn’t ready to let him go . I wasn’t ready to start over.

Mark felt like my soulmate,he was my first, he made me believe in forever until forever came to an end

One night, we were both home and his phone kept buzzing like someone was trying to get his attention on something,I wasn’t usually the type to go through anyone’s phone but the persistent notifications made me extremely curious so I checked and they were notifications from his ex who doesn’t seem to want to let him go

“Meet me at the cafe by 9”

“Did you tell her yet???”

“Maybe I will”

“I miss you and I’m waiting”

Just then, he walked into the room.

“What’s wrong?”, he asked

“What’s all this about, what didn’t you tell me”?, I asked

He stared at the messages

“Nothing I don’t know what she’s talking about”, he replied

“You don’t know what she’s talking about?”, I asked.

He just kept saying the same thing “I don’t know” and just when he was about to storm off

“Do you trust me?” , he asked

“Of course I do?”, I replied

“Then what’s the problem”, that was the last thing he said while storming off

I knew something was going on, it was way too obvious but he wouldn’t tell me what. What didn’t he tell me. At this point , I started pacing and thinking about what he could have not told me. I cannot help but think about where he is and what they might be doing at the cafe. It’s 10 p.m and he isn’t responding to any of my calls or texts , I start to get really worried so I decided to go to the cafe and see for myself.

My walk there felt uneasy, I had this feeling in my tummy , nothing could stop me from finding out.

The moment I walk into the cafe, they both turn to look at me and I start to get this feeling. You know the feeling where you just know you’re being talked about , yes that feeling. My stomach starts to tighten, not just because of the stares but because of the messages I had seen. They kept replaying in my head like a voice note she sent . It wasn’t about them anymore , it was about me . The doubt started to eat into every version of love I believed I shared with Mark, every date, every picnic,every moment we spent together all felt like a facade now. I wanted to hold unto that version, I wanted to believe he loved me and I was just overthinking, I wanted to hold into that feeling whenever he told me he loved me but deep down I could already feel the cracks in that moment , right there in the cafe.

That’s when she leaned forward, our eyes locked instantly causing me to shiver in some kind of way.

“Did he tell you?” , she asked while still maintaining eye contact.

“No, what do you mean”, I asked.

Mark and I never kept secrets from each other, it was a rule we made after sophomore year I found out he was still in contact with his ex and by “his ex” I mean the one staring at me right now.

“You were just a dare love”, she replied

Those words shattered me and in that exact moment, everything I had believed, everything I had imagined, the fairytale I thought I had. Everything came crushing down in seconds by that one statement . Mark looked at me

“She’s lying Tessa”, he said.

“Look at me one last time and tell me she’s lying”, I said.

He stood there and couldn’t utter a word. Tears had already assembled in my eyes,waiting for the right time to drop. At time it started raining but I couldn’t let the rain stop me from leaving.

My heart sank so fast I could barely breathe I didn’t know what to believe anymore, the man I once loved was all just a fantasy in my world. That was all I was to him; a stupid dare, my chest started to feel so heavy that I just wanted to cry without stopping. How crazy is all of this, moving in with a man that dated me because he was dared to??!, a man that I let touch me, a man that I could swear loved me with everything I had. It was all a lie .

But how did pretending for this long make him feel?

Did he ever feel anything for me?

I asked myself these questions over and over again because I didn’t want to believe the man I once loved completely could do this. I replayed every moment I had in my head, trying to figure out signs I must have missed. I couldn’t stop thinking about him and the situation I am in right now. At this point all I wanted was to move on and become a better version of myself. I was excited for what my future had in store for me.