The Lonely Girl

Chapter 18 - Confessions

Sahara

I woke up to the sound of beeping, opening my eyes I didn’t recognise where I was. I turned my head to the side and noticed Santi asleep beside me. I didn’t remember falling asleep next to him. I started to move, a sharp pain shot through my shoulder, I gasped out loud from the shock of it. Then it all came flooding back, visiting the clinic, then seeing the cottage, to those wolves, those very large threatening wolves. Santi! He’s a wolf too! I remember running, tripping hitting my shoulder, Armani taking me to safe room. I don’t really remember going to a hospital. What do I do about Santi, he hasn’t hurt me but he’s a wolf, I don’t understand. I looked at him again, he was looking back at me, he looked nervous. I liked the feel of him laying next to me, I’m not sure why he is but I’m glad he’s there, wait am I glad? “You’re awake, how do you feel “ he asked. “A bit sore, not my finest moment tripping over a rock” I replied. “Well I guess you didn’t expect to see people transforming into wolves” he joked, maybe he was trying to lighten the mood to see how I’d react. “Yeah what was that about, you need to be honest, have I somehow been transported into an alternate universe”. I feel crazy asking this question, but I did see him change with my own eyes. He looked at me seriously, “this is going to be hard to believe but werewolves have existed for as long as humans have, there’s actually a lot of us hiding in plain sight. We mostly live in secluded spots so we don’t get found out” he explained. “Are you scared of me” he asked hesitantly. I thought about that, I should be scared but for some reason I’m not. I still felt drawn to him. “No” I answered honestly, “I’m confused and I’ve got a lot of questions, but I’m not scared”. My life had never been normal, why start now right. He seemed surprised that I wasn’t scared. Well I needed answers so I might as well start with the biggest question. “Why me, why am I here?” I asked. It didn’t make sense that he’d spent so much time getting to know me and offer me a job in a werewolf community. There has to be a reason that I was brought here. “You’re very important to me” he replied, looking intently at me. “Why am I so important, what am I to you? “ I asked, I needed more of an explanation than that. He treated me like he wanted to be in a relationship, why would a werewolf want this with me? “You’re my mate” he replied. Mate, I thought, like a friend, I’m sure he’s got plenty of friends, why does he need me. “Like you’re friend “ I asked needing clarification. “No like my soulmate, werewolves have one person they are destined to be with, it’s usually another werewolf but sometimes it’s with a human. You are my perfect match “ he explained. I must’ve looked confused, you hear the word soulmate thrown around but I didn’t actually think they existed. “You’re the person I’m meant to spend the rest of my life with, I love everything about you. You’re naturally drawn towards your mate, it might sound weird but your scent is the most amazing thing I have ever smelt. Also I feel sparks when I touch you, I need to be near you” he explained. Sparks, I feel them every time I touch him, I reached to touch his arm. There they were again, this is crazy. Im not even sure I want a relationship, I guess this is why I feel so drawn to him. “This is a lot” I said feeling drained. “I know, we can talk more later if you have anymore questions” Santi said. Just then the door opened and a doctor walked in. “Great, you’re awake, how’s the pain “ he asked. “It’s ok” I replied, not wanting to be a bother. “She’s in pain” Santi countered, “I heard her cry out when she moved”. I was hoping he hadn’t heard me. “Well I’ll give you some more pain relief, that’ll make it easier to move around”. I just nodded, I really wanted to go back to my room and cuddle my cat. “When can I leave” I asked. “I would like you to stay another night to get your pain under control, you’ve broken your arm pretty badly and needed a lot of stitches to close the wound. You’ll unfortunately have a scar” he said. I sighed and felt Santi squeezing my hand, it instantly helped me relax. I’m not sure why another scar bothered me, I had so many. At least this wound will heal quicker since I’ve got stitches this time, I’ve never had them before so the scars were bigger, especially the one on my back. “Ok can I at least have a shower “ I said defeated. I must smell really bad, my clothes had been covered in dirt and blood. I looked down and noticed I was just wearing a hospital gown, my t-shirt was gone. “Where’s my top” I demanded feeling a little violated. This wasn’t the first time I’d woken up missing clothes. “I’m sorry, I had to cut it off to get to your wound, Santi was here and another female nurse” the doctor replied. He left the room, I tried to sit up but it hard with my arm out of action. “How about I carry you to the shower “ Santi offered. “I’ll be fine to walk” I replied, “could you help sit me up though”. Santi gently helped sit me on the edge of the bed. I pushed up to stand immediately feeling dizzy. I reached out to grab the bed but missed and felt myself falling. Suddenly a strong pair of arm’s grabbed me and lifted me up. I stared at Santi in disbelief, how did he get to this side of the bed that quick. It’s like he read my mind, “one of the perks of being a werewolf is super speed! Doesn’t this feel better though, me carrying you!” It did actually, he sat me down on a chair in the shower, now the next dilemma was getting my clothes off, I didn’t know how I’d manage on my own. “I’ll go get a nurse if it’ll make you feel more comfortable “ he offered. God this guy was everything, so thoughtful and sweet. “No can you stay” I asked feeling bold. It wasn’t how I imagined getting n***d in front of a guy for the first time but I guess if he doesn’t run after this maybe he is here to stay. Santi’s eyes lit up, “of course, tell me to turn around if you feel uncomfortable”. He peeled off my gown leaving my blood stained b*a and pants. Leaning forward he unclipped my b*a, the feel of his fingers brushing against my skin instantly made my n*****s hard. I could here Santi breathing a little faster. “Ok” he said in a strained voice, “can you lift up so I can get your pants off”. Awkwardly lifting myself up a bit so he could get access he managed to get both my pants and underwear off in one motion. I raised and eyebrow and said “someone’s had a bit of practice at that hey”. He looked a bit ashamed. “It’s ok, I was joking, I know you’ve been with other girls, that was pretty impressive though”. He looked a bit sheepish, “You are so sexy” he commented, his eyes raking over my n***d body. I was actually feeling a little turned on. So I’m sitting her butt n***d with a hot guy showering blood off of me. How my life has changed. He carefully washed my hair trying to keep my wound dry. I couldn’t help but admire his body. He I must’ve noticed me checking him out. “I can get n***d too if you like” he said with a giant smile. “I’ll pass” I replied, although the thought of seeing him n***d was very appealing. I finally felt clean, Santi wrapped a towel around me and layer me on the hospital bed. I didn’t want to put a hospital gown on but I didn’t have any other clothes. Santi grabbed a bad I didn’t notice. “Armani packed some clothes for you” he stated. I looked through them but nothing seemed suitable to get over my arm. Sensing my dilemma Santi took his shirt off and helped me put it on. It smelt like him. I was really keen to get out of the hospital. “Can we go back, I’ll be more comfortable in my own room, I can take pain relief with more”. I asked. “Ok I’ll sign you out, I just have to speak with Alpha Zahli about a few matters, we’re on her territory and then we’ll go, I’ll be gone about an hour”. After he left the doctor came in to go over a few things for recovery. “So I hear you’re a nurse, I actually used to work as a doctor in New York before I met my mate and moved here”. “You’re human!” I exclaimed. “This is all so unreal”. “You’ll get used to it, you’ll realise that having a mate is like having the perfect relationship, she’s the best thing that ever happened to me” he said with a smile. “I can help you with setting up your clinic, now that you know about werewolves I can prepare you for the type of treatment they’ll need “. “Although Alpha Santi has always been a peaceful person”. “I keep hearing that word’Alpha’ what does that mean?” “It means he runs the pack and as his mate or Luna …”. I cut him off as I just realised the enormity of the situation “that I help run the pack too”.