Mom Untold

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I was 15 when i met my oldest child's father. we were together until right after i graduated from high school on and off until i got pregnant. i was sitting in my dads porch on the phone with Conner and i asked him what he would do if i ever got pregnant. His reply was that he would get a better job, we would get married, he would buy us a house, and he would try to be a better partner. Well, without thinking i said good because i am. his first response was it wasnt his and he wasnt going to claim it.

This hurt. But what most people including my family dont know was that part of the reason mine and his relationship was so strained was because when i was 17 i had an accidental miscarriage. i didnt even know i was pregnant. i had gone to the doctor to update my birth control and they didnt run a pregnancy test like they normally did before giving me it and it caused my body to reject the fetus.

At the time i didnt know this. He and I had been talking about the future and all the possibilities all the awhile... He was cheating on me. He wasnt cheating on me with just anyone though. He was cheating on me with my best friend. Not even a week goes by when the doctor calls me and tells me that they had made a mistake and that i needed to come in. 

So, i went into the doctor only to be told that they didnt wait for the test results and they feared that something was amiss because of this and started asking me a few questions. The doctor did and untrasound only to be told that i would have to have and emergency DNC and that my life depended on it. The fetus was still in the early stages so when i had gotten my birth control it terminated the pregnancy. That was only the beginning of the down fall.

I didnt even make it out of the parking lot before i called Conner crying about what had gone on and he started telling me how we needed to be more careful so something like this didnt happen again in the future.

I was to scared to say anything to my parents because i was afraid of being judged. I was afraid that my parents wouldnt be as understanding because they expected so much from me, hell i was still in high school.

Well, as time passed everything between me and Connor seemed to get worse. He made me feel as if i should be ashamed of myself that i had let something like this happen to his child. All i could think was that i was still technically a child myself.

He started keeping secrets and i knew things were fixing to come to an end when he started blaming more and more for things that i had no control over and he started hanging out with people he knew that i wouldnt have anything to do with.

Well at this point my best friend had moved out of my parents house and decided to live with her boyfriend. I dont talk about her much because i dont like talking about her and what all went on. i would even prefer to not even say her name.

They were sleeping together. 

Conner came to my house one day unexpectedly and told my mom that he needed to talk to me, so i went outside to talk to him and he started telling me that he didnt want to be in a relationship any more and that he thought it was best to break up because he decided that he wanted more out of life and all i did was stay angry. 

He never seemed to realize that he was the reason why i had started becoming depressed and angry.

Apart of me couldnt believe it but the other part could.

A few months later before i was supposed to graduate i found out that him and my bestfriend were dating. I couldnt believe it but then again i did. i remember sitting in class one day waiting to go home, when i get a text from my mom saying she really needed to talk to me and that if i got into trouble she would come up to the school and get my phone. so i texted back.

Me: yes?

Mom: She is telling everyone she is pregnant....

Me: Who?

Mom: K is...

Me: By Conner?

Mom: Yes...

Me: THAT NO GOOD BITCH

Mom: Just breath she isnt worth it. we will talk about it when you get home.

Me:ok

I put my phone away in disbelief. I couldnt believe that after everything and all the name callings and all the trash that he said to me. Only for him to get her pregnant.

I found out not long after that when she told him that she was pregnant he left her because she had been cheating on him. I could only think he was getting what he deserved.