Jozie`s P.O.V
It has been thirty days, and I still hate myself. Everyone says that it is still my fault , however I feel like if I had not gone that night I would still have all of my babies. I know it sounds bad but I do not want to go around the boys for fear of something happening to them next. I am finally going to bed beside Kaleb again although it is not the same as before. I know he says he does not hate or that he is not mad at me but I know deep down he is. Hell if i was him i know that i would. I love him very much and the boys I just do not want anything happening to them. I would not be able to live with myself if something did.
"Good morning sweetheart, how are you feeling today? Would you like to eat together and maybe take the boys on a walk?" I just get out of bed ignor
