He shut his eyes closed and struggled on what to say for minutes.
"Like... how do I put this...I don't get to enjoy this everyday okay? so like I'm going to miss this...I don't want to have all this luxury because I know I'm going to crave it eventually after now, and I'm not going to have it, I'm going to think about it, over and over again and I'm going to miss the happy memories, I don't want to have happy memories because it's only going to make me sad and more....I don't know how to put this but like.
Other people, sad memories of their pasts hunts them and all now, because they're happy now and all, but me, I never got a happy ever after, and I know I'm not going to get one, so while I'm sad and I'm wallowing in my sadness, I'm going to remember those few happy moments I had, and I
