The Weaker Wolves

5.

I lay down on my bed and start trying to process it all. Everytime Zach pops in my head my stomach flips. It’s like being at the top of that rollercoaster, looking down at the track just waiting for it to drop the train. It’s exciting, new and utterly mental. What do I do? I’d love for him to be mine, but the chances are slim. Even if I do have a wolf he shouldn’t be able to sense mine yet, let alone work out that we are mates. Currently there should be nothing. I'm thinking about all this when my phone pings. I had a text from an unknown number. "I know you don't want to talk to me, but I didn't mean it like that. zach"

"How did you get my number?" I was being petty and i knew it.

I went to put my phone ok charge when it pinged again.

"im sorry hannah. can we come tomorrow to talk? please."

I huffed. I wanted to be petty still but he was being completely reasonable.

*eurgh*

"Fine."

"Thanks. goodnight Hannah."

How was he making me so flip floppy with my emotions? One minute he was annoying me and making me angry and the next i was totally fine and all crushed up like i was still in school. I let my mind wonder as I slowly drift off.

The dream is intense. I’m sitting in a big park. I can hear a fountain in the distance. People are around me laughing and playing. Some kids have a football and are having a quick game, jumpers chucked on the grass to make goalposts. I face the sun and let the warmth pour into me. I suddenly hear screams. Turning quickly, I see a massive black wolf. He’s covered head to toe in dirt and his eyes are red like he’s turned feral. I don’t feel scared even though he’s intimidatingly large. He trots over to me, growling. I stand and walk to him ignoring his aura. His large red eyes stare at me, as if I know them. He keeps on growling whilst wagging his tail.

“You’re sending me mixed signals bud,” I say as I reached my hand out.

I can see affection behind his eyes, kind of like he’s sorry and feeling guilty. Just before my hand reaches his snout he cries out in anguish as he snaps at my hand.

I wake up with a start clutching my hand to my chest.

*jesus!*

My hand doesn’t hurt, but I’m still reeling from the pain I had in the dream. I check it out and I see little purple marks where the teeth should have connected.

“What the fuck..”

I mumble under my breathe. I push the marks and they don’t seem to be sore.

*I probably scratched myself in my sleep* i roll over to check the time and see that its just passed 8am. *time to get up and dressed I guess!* I have a quick shower and chuck on some clothes. I head to the front room.

I enter and see mum dad and Henry playing a board game with Damon and Zach. *what the f**k are they doing here?!*

“erm, hi guys?” I question.

My dad jumps to his feet as Zach and Damon rise too.

“Hiya love, we got bored of waiting so thought we would play a game. Did you know American monopoly has all different street names?!”

I smile at my dad and look at Zach. His eyes are at my hips and stomach making me feel naked. I cross my arms at my belly button, slowly turning red, whereas he quickly looks up at my face realising he’s been caught. He turns a bright red as he quickly looks at his own feet.

“Why are you guys here?” I ask.

Damon looked at zachs face, keeping quiet. Zach stepped towards me, putting his hand out to grab mine.

“I thought we could go for a walk and a talk?” He seemed nervous and I couldn’t help but see Damon had a smile on his face.

“Erm, sure?”

I let him take my hand as he walked us out of the house, with Damon following at a distance.

“Damon, you can stay here. We will be back in a while.”

“Sure thing boss…”

We walked down the steps towards the park and canal. I realised he still had my hand in his and snatched it back quickly. He looked at me confused but with a cheeky grin. There was a bench situated by the water so we took a seat there.

“I’m sorry for scaring you earlier…”

“It’s fine.” I managed to mumble out.

“No it’s not, I shouldn’t have made a scene in the bar…”

“It’s a pub, not a bar…”

“What’s the difference?” He asked with a smile.

“A pub is for a quiet night, a bar is for a loud one.”

He laughed. I sat up straight, tingles running down my spine.

*good goddess is he cute*.

“Well either way, I shouldn’t have been screaming mate. I’m hoping not too many people heard it all.” He looked back down to his hand.

“What? Why?!” I couldn’t help but feel hurt by his statement. He looked at me, realising what he had said.

“No! Not like that! I just would prefer to keep it quiet from my mum and dad for now.”

He looks sad. I can see he’s hurt, but my hurt was still at the front of my mind.

“Oh I see. They won’t like me.” I try to hold back tears. I cough and try to swallow the lump in my throat.

“No no it’s just that…” he trails off as I look in his face. It suddenly clicks in my head what the problem is.

“You’re worried they won’t want you to be mates to a girl with no wolf?” He immediately looks to me eyes, confirming my thoughts. “So you don’t want to get to know me now? Just incase?”

“I do want to get to know you! You seem nice, if not a little bit feisty… but I know they won’t give me this pack to watch over if I have a wolfless Luna. I’m trying to think about the well-being of all of you…”

“The well-being of all of us?! You basically are putting terms on our relationship on whether I have a wolf or not! That’s not helping anyone!” I gulp.

“Hannah, you have it all wrong. I do want you. My wolf is going crazy that I’m messing this up. I just think we should keep it private, until after I’m made alpha at least. Maybe then we can announce you as my mate. Or if you’re wolfless, I can chose a different Luna for having pups with and you can have a room close to us.”

I look up at him, shocked.

“I’m sorry Zach, but can you run that by me again?!”

“I just mean, an Alpha needs his mate. We’re stronger for it. So we can stick together and I’ll take a chosen Luna for the sake of the pack. It’s the best option really…”

I am incredulous.

“Are you actually being f*****g serious?!”

He looks at me shocked. Nobody could guess that he had just asked me to be his mistress if i have no wolf.

“You want me to be the side piece to your perfect little family?” I stare at him. “A future with no babies or pups, just your ‘c*m bucket’ to keep you strong…”

“Hannah you’re taking it out of context, I…”

“I’m not finished!” My anger was peaking. “And you think this is a great option, almost like I’d be a fool to not accept this fate?”

I get to my feet, shaking with anger.

“Good goddess, for the first time in my life, I wish I don’t have a wolf. Being mated to you sounds like a nightmare…”

“You’re taking this the wrong way! You’re my mate regardle…”

“Maybe I am, but without a wolf, I can easily walk away. Which I’m doing right now..”

I begin to walk off, but I hear his footsteps close behind. I call out to him. “Don’t f*****g bother Zach, I don’t want to see you right now! I’ll send Damon home to you.”

I hear him sigh and his footsteps go in another direction. How did he honestly think I would react to that?! He’s basically just told me that, even though I am his mate, I might not be good enough to even bare his pups. I couldn’t help the tears that were freely flowing down my cheeks. The nerve of that man.

I get home about half an hour later. I grabbed myself a cookie dough ice cream on the way, knowing it would have been empty by the time I got home if I had brought a spoon with me. My chest felt like a void with my heart physically aching. When I got to the house I could hear everyone talking inside. I opened the door to see Damon and my dad sharing a beer .

“This is the problem with america! You put ice in everything. Beer shouldn’t be ice cold…”

I leave them to carry on arguing whilst going to get a spoon from the kitchen. I know I need to sneak passed them if I want to get to my room without 21 questions.

“How’d it go love, where have you left him?” My dad asks.

*Eurgh*

“dreadfully dad. He’s gone home. You can go to him Damon.”

“No ma’am, I’ve been told to stay close to you.”

*please stop calling me ma’am*

“Fine whatever.”

“What happened? Do I need a word with him? Your mate should treat you like a queen, so I’m happy to go and knock some sense into him…”

I giggled out loud.

“Nah dad, it’s fine. He’s probably not even my mate..” my dad rolls his eyes. “So it doesn’t matter.”

“Ok, but what did he say?” Damon asks.

“Surely you know exactly what he came here to say? You came with him.” I bitterly reply.

“Actually I was already here on watch duty…”

“Oh…” I was a bit surprised. “Well, he basically wanted to tell me to not worry about if I’m wolfless. He will still keep me as his mate…”

“Well that’s good then!” My dad replies as he jumps to his feet.

“I’m not finished.” I continue. “He said he will keep me as a mate, but if I have no wolf he can chose someone else to be his Luna, and keep me in a room ‘close by’ so he can still remain strong. His chosen Luna will also bare his pups…”

I look over to my dad who I can hear is breathing heavily. His shoulders seemed to be raising and falling at a very fast rate. His eyes are completely black, not there usual bright blue. I look down to his hands which have his claws extended.

“Where is he?!” He growls.

“Woah dad, calm down…”

“No, where is he staying?!”

I call for mum as Damon steps back from my dad and places a hand in front of me in a protective stance.

My mum enters the room, quickly taking in everything that’s occurring. She walks to my dad and pulls him into her embrace. As he takes a long sniff of her hair, his claws start retracting while his eyes flicker from blue to black. Damon and I step back a bit further to give them the space to sort out whatever the f**k that was. Damon glances at me and nods towards the kitchen. I nod back and walk to it quickly. When we enter Damon steps in front of me.

“Are you ok?”

“Yeah I’m fine, he’s just angry. I’m more upset that my ice cream is melting.”

Damon laughs.

“Open it up, we can share it in here…”

“Fine, grab a spoon.”

He opens up random drawers until he finds one.

“By the way Hannah,” I look up to his face. “I’m really sorry he did that to you.”

“Nah it’s fine, mum will have him calm in no time..”

“No, I meant Zach.” I pause with ice cream about to drip off my spoon. “He shouldn’t have said that. Totally unnecessary and just cruel. I’m sorry.”

“It’s cool. At least I know now instead of further down the line,” I reply trying to hide the hurt in my voice.”besides, it’s helped to make you stop calling me ma’am!”