Authentic Love

Chapter 11

Vahji

"I need more time V." One of my users told me. None of them knew me as Vahji. It was V to them and everybody else in the drug business.

"I gave you two weeks to give me my money. You was lucky that I gave you the drugs and let you pay me later."

"I know and I'm very thankful, but I dont have the money just yet." He said still begging me to spare his life.

"Yeah? And I have no more patience." I pulled out my gun and shot him right there in his forehead. I didn't have time for his antics. He knew the consequences of not having my money. This is what I do for a living. I don't regret anything. This is my life.

I leave the trap house making sure I locked it up and got into my car. I think I should pay my friend A'Nae a visit. I haven’t spoken to her since that day at school in the hallway. I think she been trying to ignore a real nigga.

I was now at A'Nae's door knocking. I been knocking for a minute now. I know she's here. Her new car that she had bought is in the driveway. I was about to knock again when some nigga opened the door and walked out. I seen A'Nae come up to the door looking pissed. I look at A'Nae and she lets me in the house. We head up to her room and I sit at her computer chair while she sits on her bed. See I can be the perfect gentlemen.

"Why are you here Vahji?" She asked me with a harsh tone. If she was a nigga I would've been done f****d her up.

"Calm yo f*****g voice A'Nae s**t, tired of yo damn attitude all the time." She rolled her eyes.

"Whatever, ain't nobody ask you to come over here in the first place." She asked hotly. See what I be talking about? Females be thinking they can talk to you any kind of way they want.

"Who was that nigga that was walking out the house?" I asked her. Dude looked just as pissed off as A'Nae did.

"My babydaddy." Say what?

"You have a child?" I never seen her with no baby. Her f*******: pictures : no baby, her i********: pictures : no baby, her twitter pictures : no baby. Trust me, I would’ve known if she had a child.

A'Nae

"No I don't have a child. It's a long story." I came to the conclusion that I do trust Vahji enough to tell him about something so personal. I just don't think he would care enough to hear it.

"I have time." He declared. I was surprised he said that, but went and started telling him my story.

"Well that dude was my babydaddy, his name is Eric. We don't have a child together, but we could've. We would've had a couple, but I aborted the first one. I was scared, I was only 13 knowing that I had no business to be having s*x and doing what I was doing with Eric. When I turned 15 I got pregnant again. I was contemplating on having another abortion, but decided against it. I ended up having a miscarriage. I never told him. Didn't tell him about the first one either. I didn't tell him about them until last year when I got pregnant by him again. He got so mad at me and he broke up with me. I didn't know what to do. I didnt eat, sleep, talk to anybody not even Tisha. I ended up having another miscarriage that I didn't tell Eric about. My dad, mom and Tisha are the only people I have told well now with the exception of  you and Corahn. I just told Eric today cause I guess he thought I had the baby. I told him that I had another miscarriage and we got into a heated argument. Which I'm glad you came knocking on the door to stop it. I'm not happy about the things that I have done in my past, but I don't regret them. They made me into the person that I am today."

I told him everything, it felt good. It always feels good getting that off my chest. Like a breath of fresh air.

"Damn, you ain't have it easy and I'm not gonna judge you on your past. We all have one, good or not. I'm glad you not letting your past hold you back."

I smiled at him and he came on the bed with me. He put me in his lap and laid down with my head on his chest.

"What are you doing Vahji?" I asked him lifting my head up.

"Just let me hold you A'Nae damn." He told me, maybe this is a new beginning for us. I now know that Vahji has a soft side and not always as mean as he makes people think he is. I still wonder will there ever be a me and him.