This story really began many years ago, when I was just 19. One night, something happened that would ultimately shape my life far more than I could have imagined at the time.
I was sitting in my car with my girlfriend, Bella, listening as she confessed to having been unfaithful. To my surprise and confusion, I found myself becoming sexually aroused by what she was telling me.
She explained that while I had been out of town, she attended a party, got drunk, and ended up sleeping with three men. I can't fully explain why, but as she described the details, I felt a deep, almost trembling arousal.
The combination of finding out that the girl I was in love with had f****d 3 guys and the feelings of arousal from hearing it made me very confused.
I didn't understand it and I never
