I Love My Boyfriend's Dad

Chapter 8

I sat still in the hospital for an hour maybe, thinking about everything I had done, the pain I caused and the accident. Myself, Duane and Austin's mother were all worried about him. We were eventually told by the doctor that they put him into a coma because of the damage to his body, they were confident that he should wake up and when he does he should be fine. We felt pleased at the news and we were happy that he would live but the question was when was he going to wake up?

" so what are we going to tell people about tonight?" I asked while sitting next to Austin."We will just say he walked out into the road without looking. We don't need to go into the whole story" he explained. "Why.. Why shouldn't everyone know the real story and know that you two are scum! Why shouldn't everyone know?" Austin's mum said loudly. "it's never going to happen again so let's not tell people," I told her. "Your both the reason Austin is in this mess, it's both your faults" Austin's mum yelled and walked away. 

" I hate this... Seeing Austin in this way" I said stroking my head. "well I'm not exactly loving the situation myself" Duane told me sitting on the bed. " I wish I could just go back in time so none of this would have happened".  "I wish he wasn't in this way".  "Look Duane, about what happened before... Some of the things I said were a bit mean, but I don't think I could ever sleep with you again. Not after tonight" I explained. "you can, he isn't going to want you especially like this. He got hit by a car that just makes things ten times worst than what they already were. He will blame you or us for this, he won't want you". "maybe that's true but I will still try anyway" I explained.

Three weeks later I came back to the hospital for yet another visit to see Austin's mother sitting with Austin. We sat together watching him until after a long silence she started talking to me, "why are you here?" she asked. " because I love him" I told her. "if you loved him you wouldn't have cheated, let alone with his father" she explained. "I told you, it won't ever happen again". "until you find someone else you like... Look do him a favor and walk away now, he doesn't need you... You have hurt him both physically and mentally, stop hurting him and let him find someone that he can spend his life with. Someone who's going to be faithful and make him happy".

I walked out of the room and had a long think about what she said to me. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that what she said was right, I love Austin too much to hurt him again. Although I knew I would never do that again, Austin didn't and he might not ever be able to forgive or trust me again. I walked back into the room about an hour later. "Your right... When he wakes up would you at least give him this letter?" I asked handing her an envelope. "you're doing the right thing" she told as, taking the letter from my hand. I leaned forward to give him a kiss on the forehead before walking out of the hospital.

The letter I wrote was as follows.

Dear Austin

I don't know when or if you will wake up that you will remember me or the situation before the accident. If you do then this letter will make sense. Your mum explained something to me when you were asleep, I knew she was right deep down. Austin I loved and still do love you so much and I did a horrible horrible thing by cheating on you. I hurt you mentally and whilst trying to fix that you got hit by a car because of me and I feel to blame for that too, I hurt you physically. I can't hurt you anymore, it pains me to see you like this and the guilt I feel overwhelms me every time I walk into your hospital room. So I have decided to walk away from us, to let you be happy and be with someone you really love, someone that can be faithful and make you happier than I did. I'm sure I will always have feelings for you but I know I will never forget you.

All my love Jake