His Mortal Luna

Chapter 5

Troy

We have been searching for her for four days now, I am losing it for sure. I haven’t slept a wink in the four days. We have set camp in the forest, since it's nighttime already. I am exhausted, but still, I cannot stop myself from searching she is my life, my sanity.

“Alpha Troy, have something to eat.” Levy interrupts my thoughts, handing me a cooked rabbit, I am not in the mood, but I need my strength.

The night is long and unsettling. The morning comes, the search goes on as usual, but to no avail. By evening my mother sends for us, we haven't had a shower in all these days. All we eat is what we manage to hunt. I also feel bad that Levy had to stay away from his mate Mary. I know she must be missing him a great deal.

Days turn into weeks and weeks into months, but we don’t find Elisa. The pain starts to become bearable. I even get my sleep, go on with the Alpha duties as usual, as if nothing ever happened. As my mother said, I can’t stop living just because I lost my mate. She told me to engross myself in my work, that it would hurt less and eventually I will be able to move on with my life. She is right, because it's working.

Everyone thinks that she somehow died, it hurts me so much, but I have nothing to do. I just try as hard as I can to move on. The mate bond, I don’t somehow feel it, and that made me believe that she is truly dead. I mourned her for days, but eventually the pain started fading away.

One day I couldn't feel her anymore, it was all silent, there was a hollow space in my heart. All I could feel was despair and hopelessness. It took me months to become myself again, it was hard but I managed to. I haven't touched a woman ever since, I can't seem to find any woman attractive enough, or sexy enough.

It has been eleven months now since I lost her. Today is supposed to be her birthday, I had so much planned for her before she went missing. I had even reserved a hotel suite just for us in the city, on the human side of the town. So, they called me in the morning to confirm my attendance and my mum advised me to go. She said that it’s what Elisa would have wanted. I thought about it and came to a conclusion that I will go.

At least I will enjoy myself and refresh before coming back to the pack. Since Elisa was human, I had made reservations in a human hotel, I wanted her to feel more at home and free. I knew how she was struggling to fit in my world, she really loved me and I couldn’t even take care of her. I will never forgive myself for not doing enough for her.

The person who was sending the notes stopped, and my hope died there. I guess I am being paid for what I made others go through before I became an alpha. I was such a bad person, I want to apologize to them, but the only problem is that I don’t even remember them. I only remember Mary and my Elisa.

I get to the hotel by noon, it feels awkward being in this romantic place all alone. I would give everything just to see her smiling to me, to hear her weird jokes and her never ending appetite. Everything about her was so precious to me. I will miss her forever, though i believe that she died, my heart hasn't accepted that fact.

The staff shows me to my room, I freshen up and head down for a meal. I decided to have it at the poolside.

The scene is quite refreshing, and the breeze is spectacular. There are several shades made alongside the pool with only two chairs under every shade. It's romantic, I feel so jealous seeing couples happy, the love is evident in their eyes.

I turn away because I cannot stand the heart ache, only for my eyes to land on a model that’s doing a photo shoot in just a bikini. OMG, she is gorgeous from afar, she is seated in a sexy position staring right at the camera. Her long legs are spotless, her blonde hair swaying graciously as the wind blows. She is just a sight to behold.

As if on cue, she turns to look at me, our eyes meet, and she flashes the most charming smile to me before looking away.

Is my heart beating fast? Wow, I have never seen such beauty before. It’s like she doesn’t even strive to be beautiful, it just comes naturally. My d**k flinches for the first time in eleven months, suddenly I can’t stop imagining myself banging her guts out.

'Did you already forget Elisa, our mate.' Torak shouts in my head emphasising the last words.

Oh no! I am sorry Elisa for thinking like this. I have just found myself like this.

'She will not forgive you, because I won't.' He adds angrily. I know he will punish me.

I feel so guilty because I was supposed to come here with her, and the only thoughts that I am supposed to be having are hers, I walk away from the poolside without looking back.

I regret coming here because now my mind can’t stop thinking of that girl. Her smile keeps flashing in my thoughts every second. For the first time in eleven months, my d**k became hard. My body became so hot and all I can imagine now is having her in my arms. Its quite foolish because I don't even know her.

I just wish I get to see her again though, but I know it is not wise because if I do, I will not be able to contain myself.