Here is something nobody tells you about second chances:
The problem is not starting over. Starting over is actually the easy part. You know the terrain. You know where the traps are. You arrive with a map drawn in your own blood from the first time through, which is a terrible way to acquire cartography but extremely effective.
The problem — the actual, structural problem — is that the other people in your second life don't have maps.
They have been living their first life the whole time.
They have been making decisions, accumulating consequences, building walls and digging trenches and setting up surveillance on east piers for reasons that have nothing to do with your plan and everything to do with their own story, which has been running parallel to yours in ways you are only now beg
