WHEN I GOT REINCARNATED AS A SPIDER WITH MY GODDESS :VOLUME1

CHAPTER - 5 - B - I AM SORRY

CHAPTER - 5 - B - I AM SORRY

SACHI KONDO

It had been a long time since I had such a nice talk with someone. I am glad there are others who still care about me here. Maybe it is not a bad place after all and is better than earth.

Would anyone be missing me on earth now? Probably not. My uncle and aunt must be happy that they got rid of me. It is probably in best of our interest that I died. I am glad that I met people like Lady Athena and Grandpa World God.

I think I should leave now, it must be probably afternoon, though it still looks like morning or night only occurs here in heavens. I will try contacting Lady Athena this time. I might as well make something new for us to eat. So I packed the basket and then opened my dimensional storage area. I tossed back the book and basket into it.

[TELEPORT]

This time I was at the right place in my room and not standing inside the bathtub like the last time. Maybe I am getting better at this.

KNOCK.

KNOCK.

Someone is knocking at my door, could it be a salesman agian. Wait at least not in heaven.

KNOCK.

KNOCK.

I opened the door and one of my classmates was standing in front of me with a pout on her face.

“Jeez... you are as slow as usual. I have been banging all day and now you are opening the door. Anyways, your Goddess is searching for you in Barbara forest. And also …”

Wait! What, for the first time someone came from my class to talk to me and they tell me something suspicious like this. Why would my Goddess search for me in the forest in the first place? She already knows that the decided spot was the tree or she could come to my room.

Lady Athena already knows that my classmates either hate me or do not care about me at all.

It only means one thing, its a trap. What are they planning this time, why a forest? What is the need to bring both of us in the forest? In the first place, it is just near the tree which I visit and also from the books I have read no harmful carnivore animal resides there.

“Tell me, what are you planning Tama? Please don’t hurt Lady Athena. She has nothing to do with what happens between us. If you want to… take revenge then do it to me alone.”

“HAHAAHAAA. What are you talking? You have no right to ask for forgiveness. Both you and your goddess have pissed us of; so its time to pay. You must run there to save her or she may not be able to make back alive.”

I banged the door close on her face and slide down the door in a sitting position and covered my face with both of my hands. Tears came in my eyes and ran all over my face.

‘Why is this happening? I didn’t do anything wrong to them? So why are they trying to hurt her? If anything happens to Lady Athena I will lose all hope of changing myself ever again. I will lose the only person who has cared about me up till now. Will she hate me if something happen to her because we were just friends?’

BANG.

BANG.

“What are you going to stay inside? Will you leave her to die? You are just a coward, a pathetic weakling who can’t save anyone. How are you going to save the world? HAHAAHAHAAA.”

‘Yes, she is right, it doesn’t matter whether I am able to save the world or not. But I must fight to protect what is precious to me……..’

[CRACK.]

[CRACK.]

‘What is happening to me? Did something break? No, I have no time to waste. I must go to search for Lady Athena and warn her before something bad happens.’

I stood up and wiped my tears with my left arm and then I did what I have gotten best at…

[TELEPORT]

There I am back again near the tree. According to the map I saw in the book this is the nearest destination to the Barbara forest where I have previously been. All I have to do now is walk to my right and I will reach the centre. Thank goodness there are no turns otherwise I am sure I would have got lost. Thanks to my curse of poor navigation skills.

I started running with all my strength. It was clearly obvious that I was not good at running. I soon started huffing and puffing and ran out of breath.

‘I can’t rest now. If I wait then, time is wasted and something might happen bad to…’ I kept on running for more than five minutes and saw a bright opening.

I was almost there an open space which was probably the centre of the Barbara forest. I stopped and took a deep breath and started shouting;

“LADY ATHENA. I AM HERE.”  

“LADY ATHENA. I AM HERE.”

“IF YOU CAN HEAR ME PLEASE ANSWER ME.”

I then stopped to check my surroundings. There were all kind of wild vegetation, dark green curled up thick grass grew everywhere and thorny bushes surrounded the whole place. The whole area was a bit dark and the only thing that lit up the whole place was the canopies of the huge evergreen eden green trees that grew all around.

SHRR.

SHRR.

There were some noises in the bushes around. I took a defensive stance and put a hand near my face and the other in front. I know I am a total amateur at this! But this was all I could do at that time. Could it be a wild animal? What should I do?

 Should I run away? But if it proves to be faster than me then I am screwed. Should I pick up one of the sharp wooden branches to defend myself? Maybe seeing that I am armed it would run away. But what if it has a hard body and decides to fight. Then even swinging this twig will be of no use.

A figure much taller than my expectation emerged out of the bushes and ran towards me at full speed. All I could do was stand still and was unable to move.

“I knew, I would find you here.” Lady Athena hugged me tightly and for some reason I could feel water dripping over my shoulder. But the same could be said for me.

“Lady Athena, you are alright. I am so glad.”

She was still tightly hugging me, but I need to remember what I was here for.

“Lady Athena it’s a trap, we must leave quickly.”

“I already know that.”

“But you still came even though you would have been in danger.”

“What are you trying to speak, didn’t you do the same thing.”

My hands stopped shaking, before I realized that how much we cared about each other, even though it has only been a day since we met. We understood each other, our problems, our insecurities, our passions were same we were always looked down upon and hated by others because of our weakness.

 “Let’s go back. We don’t need to be here.”

[TELEPORT]

“What’s the matter is something wrong Lady Athena.”

“It’s the spell, teleportation is not working, and someone has put up a barrier to keep us inside.”

“So that means we have to walk all the way out of the forest.”

What was the real reason they sent us here? What are they planning?

“HHHOOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOH”

“What’s that noise?”

“No, this can’t be. Did they really went this far. Sachi we need to run. There is no time for explanation.”

Lady Athena grabbed my left hand and started running in the opposite direction from which the sound came. Just by looking I could tell that she was afraid to the extent as if she had heard her own death bell. She was death pale.

Just what was that noise?

Even though we were running at our full speed with all our strength we could muster, but the breaking of trees, the trembling ground, the far cries of the flying flocks of birds and the racing heart beat of Lady Athena all led to the same conclusion that a catastrophe was about to hit both of us hard. Something gigantic and huge was following us at a much greater speed than we could run. With all the howling we could tell that this deadly disaster is soon going to catch up with us.

I turned my head and there it was. As if my heartbeat stopped, and my legs gave away when I froze out of fear in the same place. Lady Athena too looked back and she had the same reaction.

A super sized wolf covered in all with long snow white fur to the extent that no one could determine how deep the flesh must have been. Two long incisors jutting out from its mouth and the drool which spilled from its mouth was so large to form huge puddles.

“WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”

A chill shot down my spine. While both of us stood petrified by the fear and my stomach started hurting, were the sandwiches too much for me. Wait this is not the time to think about that……

“That’s FENRIR, the guardian wolf of the peak of Mount Olympus. What’s it doing down here in Barbara forest? Did they really plan all this. Are we going to die?”

Broken thick silver chains could be seen surrounding its neck which made it look more mad and ferocious. An animal that had lost its control and has gone wild. Just the thought of it made the floor slip below my feet.

Its eyes were bloodshot and it had already spotted both of us by our scent. Its only a matter of seconds before it catches both of us.

Is this really the end?

“Sachi we need to run. HURRY.”

But both of us knew by now that this was end for both of us.

No, wait I can’t give up like this, not after I found true happiness and people I can rely on for the first time. Is there a way for both of us to survive? What if only one of us has to die?

Yes that’s it.

 If only I die then Lady Athena can survive. I am already dead so it won’t make a difference, but Lady Athena is working everyday hard to grow stronger, while I was just having fun.

“Sachi, what are you waiting for run?”

“Lady Athena, I have an idea.”

“Don’t be foolish? If we stay any longer we will both die.”

“Either way, even if we run, we won’t make it.”

I held Lady Athena, and looked directly in her eyes.

‘What’s this feeling something is different about Sachi, she is brimming with confidence. Was she always like this? Does she really have a way to save ourselves.’ Lady Athena thought to herself.

Before Athena could respond to Sachi, she ran towards the blood-thirstywolf which was up till now gazing at their prey as if trying to figure out the best way to eat us. But I ain’t gonna let that happen.

“Lady Athena, run. Get help from outside.”

I turned back at her and tried my best to muster up a smile.

“Don’t worry, everything will be fine. I will come back alive.”

 ‘I could only listen to her voice, and saw her running away from me, directly into the face of danger. Am I really going to be separated from her, after I found such a good friend and an ally!

What is she trying to accomplish. She bent down while running and picked up a stone and threw it at the face of the wolf which hit its soft region – the nose. The growling of the wolf only became louder and more blood driven than ever as if it would tear anyone down with its sharp fangs in a flash. She only made it angrier and started running towards the left direction deeper into the woods. The wolf growled once and after taking a glance after me it started chasing after Sachi at full pace taking large leaps and crushing any trees obstructing its way.’ Lady Athena fell on the ground and was dumbfounded.

‘Why Sachi? Why? Why are you going to sacrifice yourself for someone like me? Why do people have to endanger their life to protect me again and again? No, I cannot sit still here. I must seek someone for help as quickly as possible’ Lady Athena ran towards the exit of the forest till the point where the reach of barrier is over. It will take up a few minutes so just till then hang in there Sachi.

Stay alive for me!

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SACHI KONDO’S

This is the only way. If I have to protect someone I will have to sacrifice myself first. I am weak now and my life is the only thing I can offer to protect the ones I cherish. So, I will be the decoy, while Lady Athena runs away.

Good after a hit at nose it seems to be following me. But I won’t go down without a fight that easily. I have been learning magic by myself so I will put it to good use now.

It seems that its nose and inside-mouth are only the soft and delicate parts which I can hurt with my fire power. It lives on top of Olympus and so is suited to cold environment, therefore it will be weak towards fire. First I need to slow it down or it will just hunt me down in mere seconds.

Magic has been blocked to leave this place, but I could still use magic inside. I hope this idea doesn’t fail otherwise my heroic sacrifice debut will be for nothing, so make it count.

[DIMENSIONAL STORAGE]

4 red and 4 white cubicles fell in each of my hands, while two each I took out from my pocket.

[TELEPORT]

1 RED CUBICLE AND 1 WHITE CUBICLE VANISHED FROM MY HANDS.

BOOM.

BOOM.

A pale blue flame and reddish yellow flame soar up high in the sky. Two trees fell down and crashed on the huge body of this wolf monster.

“YES, it worked.” I shouted out of utter joy. The experiment was successful. At first I transported the 5 dot cubicles in the hollow of the trees and raised their temperature drastically to the ignition point and there it was my brilliant idea passing with beautiful colours.

‘But there is still more to worry about. So maybe I will celebrate ‘later’. RUN.’

 At first it seemed it took damage but it only howled again and after getting rid of the trees.

Well that did buy me some time but it only made it angrier. I need to run faster.

[TELEPORT]

This time 2 one dot and 2 two dots of coloured cubicle vanished from my hands.

BOOM.

BOOM.

Trees again fell on the back of the wolf. Even though it didn’t took any physical damage, but it was slowing it down and by the howls I could tell that it was hurting it like hell.

‘Yes cry in pain, under the splendor of my creation. HAHAHAAH’

Now, I had 3 dots, 4 dots and 6 dots, two cubicles each. I don’t think it will fall for the same trap again. I am also running out of breath.

So its PLAN B – MAYBE A BTTLE TO DEATH. What I am even talking about, I cannot die here until I play all my hands.

I found a tree with huge, fat and sturdy looking roots jutting out of the ground and forming a small protective dome. This is it – the final showdown is here.

I stopped my feet and I felt burning rubber smell coming down from the soles of my shoes as I turned around and skid on the harsh ground.

The wolf too stopped at this sudden change of events. There was a gap of 10 meter between us. We both stared at each other, but I lost, I dropped my gaze out of fear of dying.

“WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”

The wolf was looking at me and taking deep breaths while the air it respired out made even the trees shudder around and difficult for me to stand still. For some reason I thought it was smiling at me and as if it wanted to say ‘So you have given up! Good for you. Now quietly let me tear you apart and eat your soft meat.’

 Something along those lines. I guess.

You are wrong, so don’t drop your guard you stupid beast.

I took a step back and prepared my body for what was going to happen only the Heavens will be thy witness.

I shifted my weight to the left foot, allowing myself to lift my right foot and raising my right arm, facing directly towards the ugly vicious face of the wolf, without any hesitation, maybe a little to be honest and my hands shaking to be more precise, with all my might I threw the 3 dots and 4 dots cubicles at its nose.

BOOM.

           BOOM.

                         BOOM.

                                      BOOM.

Three out of four cubicles blew up near its nose while the other was a bit off the mark but it still exploded near its eyes and blinded him. Blood spurted out from the left side of his nose, while its left eyelid was bleeding very badly.

Also the smoke and the sudden burst of light had blinded him, while the hydrogen flames had burned its face. He was in utter confusion and pain because all his hopes had been smashed by tiny boxes of a kid’s play collection. All it could do was howl in a lame way as pain surged through his sensitive organs and messed up with his senses.

“AOOOOOOOOHHHH……Grrrrrrrrrrr”

What are you howling for; things are not over between us.

I took the pitching stance again and send the last two cubicles flying into the air. Will it hit the right spot, if not then I am screwed. Will my years of training in shooting RPG game come in handy or not?

“WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO…WHOOOOOO”

The cubicle entered his mouth and I timed my magic and till it closed its mouth I started raising the temperature inside the cubicles in one full go.

SHOOM.

SHOOM.

Huge bursts of two explosions could be heard as the 6 dotted cubicles detonated inside this vicious monster’s mouth. Smoke started coming outside his nose as it threw itself on the ground and started rolling and continued howling in pain and anguish.

Shit, he did not swallow the cubicles. It only blew up inside his mouth. Maybe that would stop him. But just out of precaution, I slide through my left as I stole myself from the eyes of the wolf that was still throbbing in pain. I went straight inside the dome of sturdy roots till I could no longer press my back with the wooden wall.

Thing are not just over yet. Not by a long shot. So just come at me with all you got.

I started preparing my next magic spell. This time I started spinning water in my right hand clockwise and produced tremendous amount of fire in my left hand and started spinning it in clockwise direction at full speed. I cannot lose focus now. If I cower now, I will die. Even if my hands get burned by the fire I conjured, there is no point in crying now. I must not fear. I must not run away. I cannot stay quite anymore. Because if I don’t act now I will die before I could do anything in return for the people who have helped me up till now.

By now Fenrir had come back to its senses. He was angrier than before and more disgusting to look at with the injuries on its face. His howls were louder than ever which resonated inside the jungle. Just by hearing it anyone could have frozen in their legs and would not dare tread in its territory.

It started walking to the little dome while it opened its mouth to eat its meal.

 Which was obviously, me! Lucky me, getting eaten by a heavenly beast on a fine Sunday morning. Then I will do the honour and grill it to its optimal temperature. Just come at me.

It brought its two long incisors, the fangs as sharp as blade jutting out of its big mouth near the entrance of the door as if to take a last look at its prey.

But my spell was almost ready and before it could lift up its head, I merged both of the spells and efficiently created a much larger Plasma Ball ( well that’s what I decided to call it) and shot it back at the wolf that fell for my every trap by now including this one.

The spell hit the wolf right at the spot where he was burnt the most. Steams rising from its face played the role of smoke screen which would later unveil the results of my efforts.

“Grrrrrrrrr.”

“Noooooooo.”

“But why?” I looked at my burnt hands which were hurting and the sensation of burning was killing me.

“The spell was obviously more powerful than the 6 dot cubicle”

The spell had hit the right place. But the surprising thing was that it did not even flinch a bit due to the impact.

“So was it toying with me up till now? Has all my work and bravery gone to waste. So this is true strength, where any and every attempt of the one lesser than him fails.”

Tears rolled out through my eyes. The dirt of the ground, the black soot of the flames which covered my face and dress was all I could look at.

‘Back then and in the end I was a nobody and I still am. Even if I tried to be a hero. Even if I held my own ground. Even though I gave my best. I failed yet again because I was powerless and weak. Even if Lady Athena was able to successfully escape. I will die here and will no longer be able to protect her or play with her.’

The wolf was slowly tearing through the roots which was the only barrier between its sharp fangs and my body. Just then I remembered the time I spent with Lady Athena near the tree and the promise I made to myself that day.

‘No I cannot die here until I try to the very end. I will not miss this opportunity to get a new life and spend my time with Lady Athena. The faith she had put in me. The day she chose me when everyone turned their back towards me. The person who needed me was still waiting for my safe arrival, so I won’t give up.’ I am not going to break my promise so easily.

Even though in few seconds the dome was about to be broken into smithereens. I did not run. I did not look anywhere, but closed my eyes and focused again to create a second and much stronger Plasma Ball.

“MORE. MORE. MORE. THIS WON’T DO. I NEED MORE POWER. EVERY BIT I HAVE, TO THE VERY LAST DROP. EVEN IF I DIE HERE, I WILL TAKE THIS THING DOWN WITH ME. I WILL PROTECT WHAT IS PRECIOUS TO ME TILL THE VERY END SO I WON’T GIVE UP. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.”

Magic power was reaching to their full capacity in both of my hands, but something was changing, the fire was vanishing and was being replaced by a non-sticky fluid as black as soot. In a similar manner the water too just disappeared and a bright light orb grew in its place.

CRACK.

CRACK.

“MORE, JUST A BIT MORE, IT’S NOT ENOUGH, MORE POWER. I NEED MORE STRENGTH.”

The huge paws of the wolf had already broken through my protection wooden roof and was about to land the final hit.

‘WILL I BE ABLE TO MAKE IT IN TIME? THE SPELL IS WORKING ABNORMALLY. WHY HASN’T IT HIT ME UNTIL NOW? THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE. IT SEEMS THAT TIME IS MOVING VERY SLOWLY. IS THIS HOW PEOPLE FEEL WHEN THEY DIE. DAMN IT. I JUST WANTED TO LIVE ONCE AGAIN HAPPILY AND NOT ALONE. WAS IT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR, WILL I AGAIN DIE ALONE HERE. ALL HELPLESS AND NOTHING ABLE TO DO. JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE, IF ONLY I HAD MORE STRENGTH……...’

This time instead of closing my eyes like my previous death, I will look straight into its eyes and will make sure to tell it that I did my best.

But there was darkness all around me. As far as I tried to look there was nothing but dark. Wait am I already dead, no that can’t be, that can’t be true.

How, why? Anyone is anyone here?

“LADY ATHENA I AM SORRY, I COULDN’T KEEP MY PROMISE. I FAILED AGAIN TO PROTECT WHAT WAS PRECIOUS TO ME. IF ONLY I HAD MORE POWER.” “AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.”

CRACK.

CRACK.

CRACK.

THE WHOLE PLACE HAD STARTED BREAKING UP LIKE GLASS BEING SMASHED AGAIN AND AGAIN. A BRIGHT LIGHT PIERCED THROUGH ME AND SHOT UP HIGH AND HIGHER INTO THE ENDLESS DARK HOLLOW. I LOOKED UP AND I COULD TELL THAT IT WAS THE BRIGHTEST LIGHT I HAVE EVER SEEN…

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