Chapter 17
Shaun was usually much better at hiding his emotions, swallowing down every bit of them, but somehow Ellie kicked her way through his walls like some trained assassin. Everything he had told her he’d never spoken about before. Not to his chief, not to the shrink they forced him to see, not to Declan, not even out loud to himself. He kept those thoughts hidden far in the dark recesses of his mind, so far away he sometimes forgot how he truly felt. He hid those thoughts behind the bullshit lines of we knew the risks or it’s part of the job. Those words were f*****g bandages to cover the truth. To cover over the reality that he hated to admit.
Frustration prickled the back of his neck, and sadness so dark and deep tried to pull him under. He couldn’t go there, though. If he did,
