Gone Forever

Been A While

I woke up running to the bathroom ,I feel my stomach clenching while I was on verge to vomit whatever it is bothering my stomach.

"Hey Kate,you okay?

I heard Ellen ,my good friend calling out to me while I was closing the bathroom door.

I stayed few minutes inside the washroom beforecI feel better.I washed my face then gargle my mouth then I brushed my teeth before going out of the bathroom.I am living in a bedspace with 7 other people ,wherein 2 are a couple.I found suspicious eyes looking at me as I go to my bed to lay down again ,lost in thoughts.

"Wanna share with me whatever is bothering you?" Ellen asked.

"Nothing's bothering me." I answered her,with my eyes closed.

"Okay let me get this straight.We are friends anyway."Ellen smiled at me with worried eyes."Are you pregnant? " Ellen asked.

I cannot really explain how that words seem to build chaos inside my head because I already have that idea but hearing the words from my friend my eyes got teary.I am not ready to have a baby again ,specially since it was a one night stand only.I am not ready for additional baggage or responsibility.And fear filled my thoughts.Its been a while,but I am not ready to have a baby again.