Chapter 12I took a breath, kissed Finn again, in case it was my last chance to ever do it, then inhaled and exhaled twice more.
“I dabbled in recreational drugs first, lots of alcohol, pot since puberty, eventually molly and whatever. The lure of a good high started out as a way to heighten the s****l thrills and arousal. By my early twenties, I was using and abusing prescription drugs to quiet the feelings of disappointment and self-loathing when s*x did nothing but get me off, or worse yet, when all I could do was get someone else off. The nose got some comments. ‘Too bad your c**k isn’t as big as that thing in the middle of your face.’ ‘Who knew big nose little d**k was a thing?’ That guy bolted. We never even did it.”
“Jesus. Jerks. I already told you what I think of your face, but I
