The Carrier

6

   Boom, crash, boom!

     Crash, boom and my eyes flung open. I looked around and there he was sitting in the fare chair in the room with his eyes closed. I must of passed out for how long I'm not sure. Looking toward the window I can see nothing but rain and dark skies. Someone must of came and got me before the storm rolled in I said to myself.

    Laying my head back onto my pillow looking toward the ceiling I move my hands to my stomach. I could feel some bandages on my hands were I broke them open. "I'm sorry babies" I say softly. "I am just scared." I took a deep breath and my stomach started to turn. "Here we go again" I yelled before running to the bathroom slamming the door behind me. 

   It felt like I couldn't catch a break for 20 mins I was so sick, I decided to stay and sit by the tub.

   Knock! knock! Knock! Knock!

   Slowly the bathroom door opens. "Hey are you alright?" Eddy said softly.

  "Yes your highness I am fine"  I hissed back holding my head in my lap.

   "Your highness?  What is this all about" eddy adds

   "Don't you say what's this all about to me eddy or should I say prince" I add as rub my upset stomach hopping it will help.

   "How did you find out I was a prince?"

   "Why don't you ask your other pregnant mistress"

   "Willow is not my mistress and nether are you" he added with an upset tone.

   "O yes that is right" I add as I start to stand. "Willow said that you two are engaged and she is planning on marrying you so congratulations."

   "What?"

  "O yeah why don't you go ask her that what she told me when I was waiting for you in the dinning room." I grab onto the sink for balance.

  "Let's get you back to bed." He says has he grabs onto my waist.

  I nod in agreement as we slowly make it back to my bed. "My stomach hurts so bad from throwing up"

  "I'm sorry. Is there anything I can get you to help? Tea, chicken broth, crackers?"

   "Can I have all three maybe I could try and keep that down" I add as I lay down and eddy covers me with the blanket.

   "I'll be right back." He says as he slowly walks out the door.

I lay staring at the ceiling. I was getting a little warm so I took my blanket off. Slowly I lifted my shirt to my breast bone. Slowly I look down at my belly. It looked like I ate to much at a Chinese restaurant. My tiny bloated belly. I couldn't believe there is two babies in there. I rest my hands around my tiny almost nonexistent bump and close my eyes trying to picture what they will look like.

Slowly I can feel warmth on my bare skin on my tiny bump. I must of feel sleep, slowly opening my eye I realize it's Eddy sitting at the side of my bed.

"O my sorry I didn't mean to wake you" he said pulling his hand away.

"It's ok, come over here." I add patting your the empty space on the bed beside me. Eddy slowly laid  down beside me propping himself up with his elbow. Gently I place his free hand on my bare belly. This actually felt comforting to me knowing he actually cares about the babies and I.

Slowly I shift closer to him moving his hand to my back so he could hold me. I tried nestling myself into his chest but it was uncomfortable with him sitting upward.

My breath started to match his, in out in out in, I couldn't help the way I was feeling. The warm in my body grew stronger with every breath. It wouldn't stop so I had to go for it, just do it I say to myself in my head.

Slowly I pulled myself closer and kissed him on the side of his lips. I didn't want to do a full kiss, I wasn't sure if he felt the same way as I was feeling. But he kisses back, our lips were locked. It felt like fireworks on the Fourth of July. But I wanted more, my body wanted more. So I grabbed his skirt and rolled him on top of me. "Alex," he said has he pulled away from my lips. "Are you sure you want to do this?"

   "Yes" I say while I start pulling his shirt off. But he stops and pulled away from me. "Eddy what's wrong"

"Alex, I can't do this I'm sorry." Grabbing his shirt as he got off the bed to look out the window.

"Eddy, I'm already pregnant, so you don't have to worry about me getting pregnant unexpectedly." I couldn't help but giggle a little at that thought.

"Alex, I actually I'm starting to like you I don't want to throw away what little friendship we have working here. It's hard getting back into the game after so much loss it's always in the back of my mind." I know he was starting to worry by the sound of his voice.

"How about we take it slow by just kissing each other here and there for a few weeks and then go from there" I say as I climb off the bed. I grab his hand and placed it on my bloated belly. "We have two babies to worry about."

We stood for a few mins hand over hand placed on my belly, now it is starting to feel real realer then real. As I look up to meet his eyes Eddy's hands shift to the swell of my back and he pulled me closer into his brace. Slowly meeting our lips together, it felt like I was in a fairytale like the ones you always watch as a kid on tv.

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How many more books can I go through? I swear I am up to at least 27. But I know one thing this big comfy chair in the library is the best for stealing a cat nap during the day. And to escape from having to listen to Willow 24-7 I swear she talks more then a person would want to hear in a day.

"Knock, knock, can I come in?" I hear as the door creeks open, "You catching another snooze"

"No Eddy" I couldn't help but giggles," ok ok you catch me, actually I was reading some baby parenting books. Figured that's all I can do to pass the time. O and Eddy do you know Halloween is 6 days away. We got to find costumes."

  "Costumes? Way do you need costumes for Halloween?"

   "Do you celebrate Halloween Eddy?"

   "No, I was never allowed to as a kid I guess you could show me what this Halloween is all about."

   "Can I throw a Halloween party?"

   "A party for Halloween, how about a dinner"

   "Ok I will settle for dinner then" I felt a growl and grabbed my stomach.

    "What's wrong Alex"

   "Eddy I think the babies are hungry, my stomach is growling" I couldn't help but giggle first the first time in a while I've been feeling pretty good I still have morning sickness but I can actually eat more.

   As we make our way toward the kitchen we bump into Willow. She couldn't help but bump into our business once again.

   "Whatcha up to guys?"

  " stomach is growling going to grab something to eat would you like to join?"

  "I would love to I was heading to the kitchen for a drink anyway. So Alex we are both what 8/10 weeks into our pregnancy you are starting to show looks like you gains one to many pounds." She busted out laughing.

   "Well maybe the baby is a boy so he is growing big and strong" I had to giggle inside my head. Back when we found out we were having twins we told the doc to not tell anyone. It's are secret to tell when we are ready, so Willow thinks I am carrying one baby. But she is right I am starting to show more them her. I wonder if anyone else wonders to maybe I'll have to start wearing more flowy outfits.

   "Alex yeah right I know I'm the only one carrying the boy, you are just fat." Willow can be so mean sometimes, most of the stuff that comes out of her mouth I ignore anyways.

   "Lunch is served" Eddy says as he opens the door to the dinning room. I couldn't help but stare is he trying to feed an army?

  "I hope you invited guests because we won't be able to eat all this!" Willow blurted out!

On the table was 3 edible arrangements, 3 trays of finger sandwiches, 2 trays with veggies, and a tower of macaroons. I couldn't believe how much was on the table.

   "It's amazing Eddy! everything looks so good I cant wait to dig in" I rub my belly like I'm starving. Eddy smiles but willow gave me a annoyed look. I try so hard to like her but I still cant figure out why Eddy would choose her in the first place. Anyways, I sit down as Eddy pulls the chair out for both of us. Willow and I sit across the table from one another and Eddy sits at the head of the table as our lunch is served to us by the butler. I'm not sure of her name but I will soon try and find out. I'm not the type of person that doesn't know anyone's name it feels odd sometimes just calling them by their service names.

  I don't talk much while lunch is served, I just wanted to eat and get out. Willow is flirting up a storm with Eddy and I hate it! A touch of a hand, a rub of his arm. It makes me want to throw my lunch up. I can see Eddy glace in my direction every time she does it but he doesn't stop her. Why?? Who knows maybe he likes it, maybe we are just a toy, like a game a bad mitten getting bumped back and forth back and forth. This is one game I don't want to play.

   That's it I cant take it " Ill leave you to alone" I say and I get up from my place and head toward the door.

"Alex wait." I heard as the door slam behind me. I walk, no more like a run to my bedroom. I wanted to get as fare away from the lunch room as possible. 

   One, two, three..............thirty, thirty one......... forty, forty one. Forty two days I am just living with myself day in and day out. Eddy tries and talk with me but I just shut him out its like I'm on a never ending Farris wheel, round and round we go nobody knows when we are ever gonna stop.

  "ugh" I say looking into the mirror in my room, "I look like I swallowed a f*****g watermelon"

   " you look beautiful" I look up to see eddy standing in the refection of the mirror.

   " Eddy want do you want?"

   "Alex, its been over a month can you just sit a talk with me? I hate that we aren't talking"

   "Eddy I'm going to go sit in the library maybe read some more books maybe I might talk to you after you had that afternoon meeting scheduled, I over heard you talking with the butler about it, something about making sure you have wine and cheese? "

   " Alex, I will come to the library after that and we will sit down and talk." he sound serious this time. But I cant help but wave him away with my hand like a royal pain in the ass. Sometimes I think is this to much. Me being here growing this huge belly. I cant help but just stare at myself in the mirror, I am actually doing this. Two growing watermelons, some days I think that its all a dream and ill just wake up whenever I want to get out of it but nope this is real and real can get!

   O, I grab my belly as I felt a different sensation. Is that the babies moving? This was an exciting thing to feel I wanted Eddy to feel. Ah, no that is no baby moving stomach cramps, maybe its just something I have ate at lunch. O, my breathing is starting to get heavier this isn't supposed to happen not now! No, please not now. I pull myself together to get out the door and into the hallway.

"Eddy" I yell, but me yelling makes the pain even worse. I try yelling again "Eddy." this time holding onto the wall for balance. 

"Alex" he yelled running toward me slumped over on the floor in front of him. 

I heard one of the men say "whos Alex?" 

"My girlfriend" eddy yelled back before me got to me, "Alex you alright what's wrong tell me now" his eyes where nothing like I seen before the worry flashed before him and I could remember him and his wife. 

"Take me to the doctor bay now, hurry." I say as he picked me up and ran as fast as he could with me in his arms. The two guys who were with us run ahead to hold the doors open for Eddy to make it quicker to get to the emergency bay. 

"I need a doctor stat" he yelled busting through the door and getting me into a wheelchair. 

"Eddy, Eddy, what's wrong." a doctor said as we came into the room. 

"Get her fixed doc, its not happening to me again." Eddy yelled to the doctor as pointed to me. 

"Eddy sit down" he yelled to Eddy before taking me back into the room. This was a new doctor, I don't think I ever seen him before. 

"Alex, what seems to be the matter" he was so calm to me almost to calm.

"Well" I say still taking nice breaths," I went to the library, I started feeling sick, tried to run across the hall, didn't make it, feel to my knees, and then I started to cramp and ." I had to take a moment to breath. These weren't just any regular period cramps they were stronger.      

"I am only 19 weeks" I thought to myself. I remember the doctor who did our first ultrasound said that at 20 weeks Eddy's wife miscarried. Tears started to run down my face " Please god don't do this to my babies please" I didn't realize I said this outload. 

"Alex we are going to give you a shot to stop these contractions, we are also going to be hooking you up to monitors after we do an ultrasound." the docs said as the ultrasound tech came though the door. Pulling up my shirt the tech squeezed some jelly and begin working. 

Sliding the probe around she said" baby a is at the bottom, hmmmm" my heart sank I thought this isn't happening to me." baby a heartbeat is 120 beats per min" I look over at the screen baby a's heartbeat was blown up you can see the flicker of the heart I was so joyed to hear and see the rhythm of the beating. "baby b is the top," she says as she moves to see better with the probe," baby b heartbeat is 150 beats per min, both have heartbeats." I was so happy to see the second heartbeat. 

"Would you like to know the s*x of the babies while I am doing this ultrasound, everything looks good so fare we will give you a shot to stop contractions you will need to be on bed rest for a few weeks. everything should be fine" she said sliding the probe back to baby a.

"Yes please I would love to know, can we not tell Eddy, the prince, the s*x of the babies I would like to tell him myself as a surprise."  I say biting my lower lip nerves of what she was going to say. 

"Yes Alex I bet he would be surprised to find out from you, I will also add it to the ultrasound pictures so you can show him. Now baby a," she paused for a moment moving to probe to see better." baby a is a boy, Congratulations!" 

"A boy! are you sure" I said in shock that she said its a boy.

"Yes, I am very sure" the tech said as she pointed to the screen, "now are you ready for baby b" sliding the probe to the top of my round belly, I started to feel butterflies crawl into my stomach, "bay b is a girl! Congratulations you have one of each!" she said as she wiped the jelly off my belly. I couldn't believe we have a boy and a girl. I couldn't of been more happy that an carrying these babies. 

After the tech was finished cleaning up the doc came back in to give me the shot in my arm and hook me up to the fetal monitor to make sure that the shot is working to stop the contractions. "Alex we will have to monitor you for at least 2-3 hours is there anything you would like? Some water, crackers, blanket to keep warm?"

"Can I say yes to all 3" I giggle and the monitor made a big noise as I placed a hand on my stomach where baby b would be, both the doctor and I looked at the machine. Doc looked at the paper that was printing in real time it was recording the contractions and the heartbeats of the babies. 

"Well Alex did you feel that?" 

"A little" I say still holding my stomach.

"Alex, the little boy just gave you a nice kick in there, he must love hearing your voice." he said as a smile began to grow on my face, I couldn't believe at this moment I could start to feel the babies kick and move in my belly. This moment is making it real, I always thought that this was a dream that one day I would wake up from. But Feeling the babies just woke me up to the reality of becoming a mom and their dad is a prince. These 3 hours are going to be long so I managed to get comfortable and my eyes slowly began to close.

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Knock, Knock, Knock, "Come in" I say rubbing my eyes, I must have slept the whole time I was hooked up to the monitor.

"Alex how are you feeling, I came in about an hour ago but you were fast asleep so I didn't want to wake you." Eddy says and he walked through the door with a try of crackers and a cup of tea. 

"I feel better then I did a few hours ago. You will never believe it but I felt baby a kick me and it sounded on the monitor, it was so loud to it startled both myself and the doc." I held out my hand to grab Eddy's hand and place it toward to bottom of my belly hoping the little boy would kick again. I cant wait to surprise him with the genders of the babies, Eddy sat on the bed beside me waiting but nothing 

"Maybe its still a little early to feel them Alex, we still have a little while for them to cook, I asked the tech if she seen what the s*x of the babies were but she said she didn't have time to check so I am hoping at your next checkup we can see." I was shocked he asked about the s*x, I know that having a boy is important to him but will he love his daughter just the same? The thought of him putting his daughter aside like a displace piece of fruit made me sad, a tear started to form and run down my cheek. 

"What's wrong Alex" Eddy says as he whipped away the tear that was running," way do you seen like you are upset." 

I took a beep breath," Eddy what if both of the babies are girls? Would you love them just as much as would would of they were both boys?" 

Eddy was shocked, I could tell, his wrinkles on his forehead started to form like it does when he is upset at something, then he relaxed a little as he took a deep breath," Alex no matter what just having a child is more then enough rather its a boy or not I am going to love them both the same." eddy wrapped his arms around me for reassurance. But still in the back of my mind will lay the thought of him loving our son more then our daughter since he is hoping on being king in the future, having a son is his legacy.