The Female Apha

Chapter 4

    "Oh, Moon Goddess why are you doing this to me?" I sigh while throwing myself on my bed face first into the pillows. I have never understood why the Moon Goddess put me through so much hell. She has to have a reason for it I just hope it is a good one. I started to dose off when I hear someone knock on the door.

-Knock Knock-

    "Come in Parker." I knew it was Parker no one else ever comes to my room. I was always with Parker, Patrick and Peyton, Lynn, or Emily so I never spent time in my room unless I was sleeping or in a bad mood. Everyone knew not to bother me if I was in my room. 

    "Hey Care, do you want to talk about what happened? My dad already filled me in. I figured you were upset." Parker said as he sat on my bed wrapping his arms around me. 

    "I'd rather not but I know you will make me anyways." He smiles as the words come out of my mouth making smile as well. Parker truly was my favorite person in the world he is always there when I need him. "I just dont understand why i need a mate to run the pack. I can do this better than anyone i dont need help from some random guy."

    Parker looks at me losing the smile on his face. "What if i am your mate Care? Would you still feel that way about having a mate?"

    "Well of course not Parker you have been with me through everything, no one knows me better than you." I am confused on why he thinks i wouldn't want him as my mate. "Parker you are my best friend and would make a great mate. Yes, i want to be the Alpha, not a Luna but you understand that better than anyone. You would never ignore my opinions on pack matters. I am nervous that if you aren't my mate whoever it will be wont understand that and will ignore me." 

    All of a sudden Parker's lips crash onto mine as he pulls me closer. This is the first time we have ever kissed. This is the first time i have ever kissed anyone. It was the best feeling i have ever felt, I had butterflies in my stomach. Parker pulled away looking me in the eyes, I stared back into his beautiful gray blue eyes and kissed him again. 

    We kissed a few more times until Parker finally pulled away and whispered in my ear "Caroline King I love you with all my heart." 

    "I love you too Parker Black. Will you please stay with me tonight?"

    "Of course Care, I would do anything to make you happy."

    "I hope you are my mate." I whisper before laying my head on his chest and falling asleep. 

    I wake up the next morning to Parker gone. I get up to see if I can find him but I had no luck and I looked through the whole pack house. I decide to stop looking and take a shower. My shower lasts about 45 minutes, I ended up zoning out like normal thinking about what happened last night, why Parker didn't wait for me, and worrying about who my mate is going to be. I got out of the shower looked at my body while I was drying off. No one had asked about my scars. I don't even think my dad noticed i was wearing clothes that revealed them. The only people that noticed were Gamma Nathan, Harper, Parker, Mr. Green eyes, and Alex. I rolled my eyes at the thought of Alex. She was just a power hungry wolf like her father. Neither one of them had no respect for me. Alex tried to say a few things to me about the scars but anytime she talked to me i gave her a low growl letting her know to keep her mouth shut if she wanted to keep her head.

"Hello Caroline, my name is Skye."  My wolf says to me.

"Hi, Skye! I am so happy I finally get to talk to you."

"Me too, I have been watching you our whole lives. The Moon Goddess wanting me to tell you she has heard your calls and prayers and she has a plan for us. We are special and you will find out why soon." 

     I was about to ask Skye what she meant but she closed our mind link. Why am I so special? First Alpha Daniel now Skye is telling me the Moon Goddess says I am special and she has a plan for us. What is going on? I decided to go find my dad and ask him if he knows anything about this.

     I get to my dad’s office door and freeze. I have no idea what to say to him I have been keeping all my pain to myself for 11 years now. I mean, how do you tell your father that while you were held captive for a year at the age of 6 you were whipped with a silver laced whip. I never wanted to share my pain with him I know he will blame himself for not finding me sooner, but it’s not his fault. He had no idea who took me and where they brought me, he had to start with nothing on top of dealing with my mom’s death. I know it was a hard year for him, probably harder for him than me. I know that sounds crazy but I knew my dad was looking for me and wouldn’t give up until he found me. Also I knew Alpha Daniel needed me so he wasn’t going to kill me no matter how much I pissed him off, my dad didn’t know that he just had to hope I was still alive.

    After 10 minutes of standing at the door contemplating whether or not to knock I heard my dad say, “Come in Dear. I know you are out there, I can hear your heart beating.” I walk into his office sitting down in front if his desk on the couch. “What do you need to talk about Dear? It must be important if you came to my office to talk.”

    I hesitate before saying anything, I am so nervous. “Well, Dad, it is important but I need you to promise not to interrupt or ask any questions until I am done talking. I don’t know if I will be able to finish talking if I can’t say it all at once.”

    “Okay Dear I won’t say anything until you are done speaking.”

    Taking a deep breath I begin to tell my dad everything. “As you know 12 years ago today I was taken by rouges.” My dad’s eyes begin to grown in shock as he can already tell where my story is going. I take another deep breath before continuing. “You at the Southern border with most of the pack fight the rouges, while me and mom were here at the pack house. Mom didn’t think anything of the rouge attack so we stayed in the nursery playing with my toys. When all the sudden mom grabbed me and hid me in the closet telling me not to say a word. I just thought we were playing a game, until 2 guys kicked the door down. Mom tried fighting them off and managed to kill one of them but the other guy came behind her and stabbed her in the back. She fell to the ground trying to get up but couldn’t move, she was paralyzed and bleeding really bad. The guy then opened the closet and grabbed me, mom tried to stop him but she couldn’t get up. I tried my hardest to get away but he was too strong, I screamed for help but no one came, I still don’t know where everyone was and why no one came to help us in time.” A tear fell from my dad’s eyes, I could tell he was blaming himself for not being there to protect us. “I ended up passing out on the way the Blood Moon Pack. When I woke up I was in a cell with a man staring at me. He introduced himself as Alpha Daniel of the Blood Moon Pack.”

     The pain in my dad’s eyes was unbearable and I just started. I don’t know how he will be able to handle. “After he introduced himself he left the cell and I didn’t see him again for a few days. I heard him tell the guards to make sure I got 2 meals a days, that he didn’t want me to starve. The next time I saw the Alpha he brought a little boy with him, he said it was his son Kol. Kol asked why I was in a cell and not in a room. The Alpha smacked his son for questioning him and told him that I would get a room as soon as he could trust me not to escape. I remember Kol coming down a few times to see me, he would sneak me water and just talk to me. The last time I seen Kol was about 2 weeks after I arrived, his dad caught him seeing me. That was the first time Alpha Daniel hit me with the silver whip. He made me watch as he hit Kol with the same whip he hit me with, after that I never seen Kol again.” A tear falls from my face and hits my leg. I see my dad start to stand up but I shake my head at him telling him no.

    This was a lot to relive I was barely holding it together. “The next day after the whipping the Alpha came to see me. I wouldn’t look at him, so he grabbed my face and forced me to look him the eyes as he told said; you are special little one, once you turn 18 I am going to use you to take over all the packs in America.” My dad’s eyes locked in on me like he knew what Alpha Daniel was planning. “He told me he wanted to be the strongest wolf in the world but he needed my help to do that. He still had my face in his hands so I bit him and told him to get the f**k off me and let me go home. I wanted nothing to do with his plan I just wanted to come home to you and mom.” My dad looked confused when I mentioned wanting to come home to him and mom he didn’t know the whole time I was gone I thought mom was alive. The last time I saw her she was still alive on the floor yelling for help. “The Alpha left the cell but came back a few minutes later with a silver knife. He took the knife to my chest and cut me once, I screamed in pain but that didn’t stop me from kicking him once he cut me. After I kicked him he cut my chest again in a different spot, and then told me never to touch him again or he would cut me again. I cried in pain for hours praying to the Moon Goddess for you to save me.”

     I held a finger up letting my dad know to give me a moment. This was worse than living the abuse the first time. Thinking about the scars and how I got them made me ache in pain I just wanted it to be over. “I never touched him again after that, I still back talked him every chance I got letting him know I would never help him. Every time I back talked him he would whip me five times usually on my back. One time I told him you was coming for me and was going to kill him, for that he stabbed me in the left leg twice. Another time I told him he was nothing but a sad accuse for an Alpha, so he cut my both my arms 4 times each.” Every time I explain how I got each scar they would start to hurt. My body was in so much pain tears started rolling down my face. As I whipped the tears off I took a deep breath and continued. “The last time he used the knife on me was when I promised to break free and kill his family, he stabbed me 10 times in my legs about 5 times in each.”

     I knew my dad was shocked when I told him I was going to kill his family. That wasn’t the little girl he raised but when you go through what I did you change. My dad raised me on violence as a last resort but I didn’t care I wanted Alpha Daniel to feel pain. “A few days after I threatened his family I heard people yelling. I had no idea what was going on but it seemed like they were under attack. The alpha came running into my cells unchaining me from the wall and tried to escape with me but that’s when I seen you come into the cell. Alpha Daniel threw me down on the floor and you began to fight. I was worried that he was going to kill you and take me away so I prayed to the Moon Goddess to let you when. She must have heard my prayers because you won. You told me to close my eyes so I didn’t see what was next, I didn’t listen though. I watched you rip his head off coved in his blood; you fell to the floor and started to cry. You then came over to me picked me up and told me everything was going to be okay now. You took me home had Lynn give me a bath and then you put me to bed. I asked you where mommy was; you ignored me and tucked me in. The next day Parker came to see me so I asked him where my mom I knew he wouldn’t lie to me he told me what happened. I cried that whole day in his arms for the loss of my mom. All the pain I went through at the Blood Moon Pack was nothing compared to the loss of mom, I wanted to die right then.”

    Tears just poured out of my eyes. My dad rushed to my side holding me so tight “Oh baby I am so sorry that happened to you.” We sat on the couch for 10 minutes crying and holding each not wanting to let go.

     I finally let go of my dad “What did he mean by I was special? My wolf  said the same thing. Told me the Moon Goddess has a plan for us and that we are special.”

     My dad sighed ad he got up and walked to his desk and pulled out this really old scroll from a drawer I didn’t even know he had.  He walked back over to the couch and sat down next to me opening the scroll. It looked like our family tree, both my mom and dad’s side.  “This is our family tree, both your mom’s side and mine. You come from a very special blood line that most people don’t know about. You see it started at the beginning of our spices; your many great grandparents were the first of our kind. They were blessed with amazing powers and the ability to shift into a wolf. For the longest time it was only them but your grandpa discovered that biting a  human while in wolf form would cause the human to become a werewolf as well. They made their closest friends into wolves and spilt up the world into territories. They gave each of their friends a territory making them Alphas. Each new Alpha was allowed to do as they please in their new territories including turning humans into wolves, as long as they didn’t out themselves to the other humans.”

     My dad sounded crazy, this isn’t in any of the history books, but I let him continue with his story. “Your Grandparents had a son who became the Alpha of their pack. He married the daughter of an Alpha from another pack. Then their son married an Alphas daughter from another pack and so on and so forth. No couple was ever two first born children of the Alphas but they were all of Alpha blood. Your mom and I were the first two to be the first born children of Alphas.”

     I swear my dad has lost his mind, this story was absolutely crazy. “So how does that make me special dad because right now you just sound crazy.”

    He glares at me and I instantly shut up “Well you see, there is an old prophecy saying, there will come a day when a daughter of the first two wolves will be born. Her parents will be the first born children of Alphas, making the daughter a True Alpha. When the daughter turns 18 her wolf Skye will awaken and guide her on a path of greatness. She will be the strongest wolf since the first of her kind; she will have many abilities that no other wolf has.”

    Why is my wolf Skye mentioned in this prophecy there is no way my dad could have know my wolfs name is Skye, I just found out her name not each 3 hours ago. “Dad how did you know my wolf’s name is Skye?” I really am not going to like his answer I can feel it.

    “Sweetheart, I told you there is a prophecy about you and your wolf. I didn’t know that was her name until you just confirmed it.”

    “Why me I didn’t ask for this. I just wanted to be a normal Alpha like everyone else. I didn’t ask to be special.”

    “I know Sweetheart, but it is your destiny. The Moon Goddess knows what she is doing don’t question her. She will guide you through your wolf just trust her.” Not knowing what else to say I give my dad a hug and leave his office.

*Parker where are you it’s an emergency* I text Parker waiting for a response.

*Care, what’s wrong?*

*Meet me in my room in 10 I need to talk to you*

*Okay*

     I go down to my room and sit on my bed waiting for Parker to get here. In exactly 10 minutes Parker rushes through my door. I stare at him for a few seconds realizing he is not my mate. My heart sank deep into my chest, it felt like I was about to break. On top of everything I just learned plus Parker isn’t my mate. The person that has been there for me the past 18 years isn’t my mate. I don’t know how much more I can take.

    “Caroline, what is wrong? Did something happen?”

    “Long story short, me and my wolf are destined for greatness. After my first shift I will start to become the strongest wolf in the world.”

    “What are you talking about Care? I don’t understand.” I explained everything that my dad had just told me about my family tree and the prophecy. “Wait are you serious Caroline? This isn’t a joke you came up with right?”

    “No Parker this isn’t a joke I am serious. I can’t even make something up like this in my dreams.”

    “So what are you going to do?”

    “I guess I am going to listen to my wolf and see where this takes me. I don’t know what else to do. It’s not like I can defy the Moon Goddess.”

    “Care” Parker looks at me with his blue eyes, usually they are gray but right now they are blue. His eyes are filled with sadness, I know what is causing the sadness but I don’t know what to say. I dreamed and prayed that Parker would be my mate but he isn’t. We were going to have to spend the rest of our lives watching our first loves be happy with someone else.

    “Parker don’t say anything, I know we aren’t mates and it sucks but you will always be my best friend. Nothing or no one will stop me for always being there for you. You were my first love and always will be. I love you so much Parker Black.” Tears fell down my face as Parker wraps me in a hug.

    “I love you too Caroline King. You will make the best Alpha of this pack. I will always be here for you.” He lets go of me and whips the tears from my face. “What are you going to do about finding your mate now? You have 2 weeks until your deadline is up.”

    “You’re right! I need to go talk to your mom! I have a plan!” I run out of my room and go search for Lynn.