GAZE

Let's Break Up

It’s been two years now since Jaxon left me to the USA for pursuing his dream. But we always are in touch through messages, calls, video chatting. Thanks to the technology, that it’s is boon for the couples who are living in long-distance relationships.

Our love was as it is as he left me here. Jaxon was used to come here only in vacations but for a very short time. Everything was going normal between us but since the last three-four months, I was observing that he was not giving me proper time which he used to give me.

“Hey, Jaxon. How arere you? It’s been a while we talked. Where are you? My Exams are about to over and I am planning to come to your place. Love you. BYE.” I sent the voice message as he was not picking up the phone.

I sent many messages to him. Sometimes he replied to me too but they were not like that they were used to send earlier. I always think optimistically that he might be busy in his research or studies.

After a few days later Agatha came to our place. We used to meet frequently.

“Hey, Agatha how are you? It’s been a while you meet me.” I chirped when hugging her. Then I lead her to the living room.

“Mom is at the clinic. So you might be not able to meet her right now.” I informed her.

“Oh, my bad, I should call her first. But it’s fine. You are here. I never get some time to talk to you alone." She smirked at me.

“Fine, sit. I bring something to us.” By saying that I went inside the kitchen and came back with two cups of hot coffee.

“So where are you busy this day?” I asked her again while passing her a cup.

“Yeah, a little bit busy. When Jaxon is around here, I don’t get much time. He is always behind me to fulfil his wishes.” She said with a happy smile.

My mouth gaped. ‘What he is here and didn’t inform me about it? What is going on with him?’ I was becoming angry with him while thinking in my mind. Though I didn’t show my emotions to her. She was thinking that we are in a relationship as we both told to our elders about it and they were looking forward to it as tying a knot between two families.

Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

After coming back from the airport I went straight to my mom in her room.

“Hey, Mom. Want to talk something to you.” I was looking a bit nervous while saying that.

“Oh, yes my sweetie. What happened, are you all OK?” She said worriedly and scanned from top to bottom.

“I am OK Mom. Don’t worry.” I made her sit on the bed. Then I hold her hand in my hands.

“You first promise, you will not get angry on Me.” I made the condition before spitting the truth.

My mom was getting more worried as the time was passing. And I was nervous as hell that how to tell her?

“Honey, you are scaring me. Don’t try to take my life out. Spit it out fast.” She was tensed to her nerves.

“I am in love, Mom.” I spat quickly.

My mom looked at me with wide eyes and a broad smile.

“Finally, you said something which I was yearning to listen.

I became flabbergasted by her statement. ‘I mean what, it was that easy. And she accepted it too.’ I talked with my mind.

“So, who is the lucky boy?” she asked me in reading way.

“Jaxon,” I murmured.

Now, this was the time for my Mom to flabbergast.

Then after 2 minutes of silence, she broke it with a cool hug.

“I knew it, I knew it. Damn, I should be understood it earlier. He is a smart boy and the right choice for you. I am so happy for both of you.” She was said happily while giving me side hugs.

“Thanks, Mom, I hope dad would not have any objections in it.” I was worried about his reaction too. The bit I know my mom; she will find a way to make his mind up for our relationship.

“But he went to the USA for further studies. Then how both of you will manage? Are you sure it will work?” The doubts which were I also had in my heart, came out from her mouth.

“I know it will be difficult for us to continue like that as we would be living far away from each other. But we have to trust each other at any cost. Now social media is also there. We will be connected through it too. I don’t think there would be any problem in future.” I was big-mouthed that time but I was only knowing that I was worried too about it. But I wanted to give it a fair chance.

“But staying connected on social media is different from what you feel when your boyfriend is standing in front of you. Don’t take me wrong Sweetie, but sometimes a person can manipulate the things easily when he is far away from you. I don’t want to get you hurt in the end you are my only daughter. And I want best for you.” She was clearing her doubts about long-distance relationships.

“Jaxon is a good boy, and I am happy for you that you both are looking forward to your life together but still I am worried for you.” She was happy for us but still, this LDR is not fitting in her mind.

“Mom, no need to worry about it. I have full trust on Jaxon and we cleared our all past misunderstandings. He will never let me down. I believe in him.” I said with sparkling eyes.

“OK, as you say so. You have my full support.” She hugged me again and then left me in the room to do some work.

Flashback ends~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

But today I was thinking that what my mom was saying it’s TRUE. After getting informed by Agatha that he is here in London and still didn’t try to meet me or call me, u was clear that something s**t is cooking in his mind.

“Hey, Sweetie. Are you OK?” she snapped me her finger.

“Yeah, I am OK. I was just spaced out.” I came back to the earth and took a deep breath.

“Till when he is here, Agatha?” I asked her. I hid my sad emotions from her.

“Oh, he will be going back this weekend. Come to our place to meet him. Since he left for the USA, you didn’t come to our place much until unless we had a family dinner.” She adored me so much but yes I went to their home a few times as it used to bring me old memories and I felt uncomfortable.

“That’s good then, I will come for sure,” I said with pursed lips. I was fuming in anger from inside and determining my self to confront him at any cost this time.

After finishing the coffee, she left for her home.

*****

I close the gate and ran inside my room. I plopped on my bed and started crying while hugging my pillow. I don’t know since long I was shedding my tears but slowly went in deep slumber.

“Sweetie, wake up. It’s almost dinner time. Since how long you will sleep. Come down, hurry up.” Mom shook my shoulder slowly and after switching on lights in my room she went downstairs.

I woke up and went into the washroom. I saw myself in the mirror. I was looking like a total mess. I cleaned my face and comb my hairs neatly. Then after freshen up myself I went down.

We had our dinner. My mom and dad were discussing their entire day's work. But I was eating silently. I was so into my thoughts that I didn’t know when they both were staring at me for my unusual behaviour.

“Honey, honey.” Mom shook my hand.

“Oh! Yes! What? Why?” I came back to life after spacing out.

“What happened to you, baby? You are looking so lost.” Dad asked me.

“Oh, it’s nothing. Just little overexertion, I guess. I am fine. Don’t worry.” I lied to them trying not to look into their eyes.

Next day.

“Hey, Agatha how are you?” I hugged her and kissed on her cheeks.

“I am fine. Thank you.” She did the same for me.

“Come inside.” She widened the door enough to make me able to enter the house.

“Is Jaxon at home? I wanted to meet him first.” I sought his permission and walked towards his room.

I was standing in front of his room and about to knock on the door, though it was ajar I thought it would be wrong to brag into the room without permission. I heard he was talking to someone on his phone.

“I am coming soon, sweetheart. Don’t worry. Ok, tell me what do I bring for you from here.” He was continuously talking. It was loud enough to hear me.

“Hey, don’t cry like a baby. You know I can’t tolerate tears in your eyes. I miss you too my girl.” He was consoling the other person on phone.

I anger rose to a peak and I knocked on the door with banging sound.

“Someone is there. I talk to you later.”  Then he cut the call and opened the door for me.

“Hey, Scarlett.” He was looking flushed by my sudden appearance. His face was pale while looking at me like caught him red-handed.

“it’s been a while, that you give me reply to my calls and messages so I thought I should meet you personally to know the reason.” I taunted him with sugar-coated voice. I pushed inside before he allowed me to come in. I sat on the sofa with crossed legs. I was pretending very cool as nothing happened.

“Yeah, I was a little busy in my work. Just not getting time properly. I am sorry I didn’t reply.” He was standing in front of me and scrunching his bridge of the nose. He was huffing little after finding me here. The colours were disappeared from his face and he was hiding the truth it was for sure.

“Who was she?” I asked straight forward. I didn’t want to waste my time in hiding and seek or waiting for him to ooze out the truth.

“Who" he frowned little.

“Whom with you talking before I came in here," I asked while staring at his face who was changing his expression continuously.

“No one was there. It was just a normal talk to my friend.” He lied to me and it was clearly showing on his face. He was looking everywhere but not at me.

“But it was not looking like a casual talk, Jaxon.” I was not believing him. What he was saying was different from what I heard with my ears.

He glared at me but kept mum.

I was feeling the heaviness in the environment and how unwelcomed I was there.

The eyes which I loved the most on his face, for which I was ready to die, today looking at them I was feeling disgusting for myself.  How clearly he was saying lie to me? I was blinking my eyes at him as I was not able to digest it. I stared at him and the room was a bit silent.

“Look I did not come here to waste my time or listen to your unreasonable excuse. I will ask you a simple question say either ‘yes’ or ‘no’. I swear I will not ask anything else after that.” I stood up from my place and came in front of him. I was determined in my action.

He was looking at me with freezing emotions on his face. It was looking like words left his mouth forever and he is not able to speak anymore.

“Are you still love me?” I spat out the most hated words. My heart was beating fast and I was praying to God, ‘please he should say yes.’ I know it was painful for me to ask but I have to ask. I can’t tolerate this building up rift any more.

“NO" after saying this he turned his back to me to look outside the window.

I got my answer and picked up my handbag from the sofa. Before emerging out of his room I turned to glance at him for last time.

“Hey, Jaxon. Let’s BREAK UP.”