Cassie

chapter 3

after i took my shower , i went downstairs to make my breakfast , i usually don't eat much but today i felt like i was starving , thank god i got some groceries done before i moved in or i would have been so embaressed by now as i would have went to liam's house asking if he was still up to that tour he spoke of .

After i made my breakfast , i sat down eating , i poured my self an orange juice , and was about to take a sip when i heard the door bell , i wondered what liam wanted now .

I went to the door annoyed to be disturbed while eating , i opened the door rehearsing already on what i will say to him .

" what now liam ? " but it wasn't liam , it was an old woman holding a casarol and a warm smile , i wondered if my mom was alive , would she have had this warm smile too ? , but in my mind didn't have time to think as she spoke .

" good morning dear , i hope i didn't enterupt whatever you were doing , i just thought i should come and say hi to my new neighbour , iam samantha , but you can call me sam if you want " she was so warm that i was immediatly drawn to her kindness , i opened the door wide for her to come in , and closed it after her .

" sorry i shouted at you , i thought were someone else , i was just making breakfast if you would like some ? " i asked not so sure if she would accept , a part of me wanted her to do , and another part , a bigger part of me didn't want to cause it was too risky to know people and get attached to them and lose them in the end , i promised myself all my relationships with people will be shallow , as i don't want to get hurt .

" oh , thank you dear but it's not nececery , i already took breakfast , do you live here on your own , iam sorry i don't mean to interfere but you might be the same age as my eldest "

I smiled at her kindness , as i was not used to it , i had this sudden urge to just tell her everything , crazy isn't it as i just met her .

" it's alright , i do live here on my own , my parents .... um .. they died 9 years ago " i said remembering what happened that day very clearly , oh how i want to get rid of those memories .

" oh the poor girl , iam so sorry i didn't know , if i did i wouldn't have mentioned it , iam sorry " she said , she is just so kind that my mind kept comparing her to my mom .

" it's okay , iam used to it now , it doesn't hurt like before , you don't need to be sorry " i said , i don't want her to feel guilty for mentioning them .

" okay , i will leave you now , it's been a pleasure to meet you , if you needed anything don't hesitate to come and knock on my door , it will always be open for you , have a nice day dear " she said already making her way to the door .

" thank you for the kind gesture , i appreciate it , have a nice day too " i said , we bid our goodbyes and she left , crossed the road and into her house , i closed my door and leaned against it for a while , it is going to be difficult for me to keep these emotions at bay , i don't know if i can keep them under control any longer , it's only been a day and a half and iam already losing the battle , firstly liam then now sam , they are so nice to me that my emotions get the best of me , i hope they don't find out , i have to stay away from them and everyone else till i gain control , full control , or they will get hurt and i can't bear the thought of hurting some more people .

After a very exhausting work outs , i was ready for my meditation , i knew it wasn't safe to meditate in here so I mastered up all my courage and got ready to go out, i knocked out once , twice , three times !, where is he ? .

The door swung open revealing liam in an apron !.

" uh , hi ? " i said , he looked a little bit embaressed .

"Hi , sorry you had to see me like that , i was just washing the dishes " he said rubbing the back of his head .

" it's alright , i just wanted to ask you , if there is any isolated place here where I can meditate " please don't ask questions please don't ask questions pleeeeease !.

" uh , yeah , there is a building behind the lake , but it's quite far, you would want to take your car , just drive straight , as soon as you see the lake you will spot the building, but may I ask why do you meditate ? " .He asked and i cursed mentally for asking him , i knew I shouldn't have been that stupid .

" it's alright, I guess it's something iam used to do , okay I really have to get going if i need to get done with that before sun set " i said already Stebbing back .

" are you sure you still don't want that tour " he shouted after me to which I shouted back " maybe later " i got in my car and followed his directions , and true to his words , the place was about a half an hour drive , so it was a safe place for me to do whatever I want .

After i parked the car I sat in my meditation position and let all my emotions flow to me , like the water of the flowing river , i watched the sky change with every emotion I feel , i tried to stop it but it was hard , i tried with all my strength to separate my emotions to what is happening to the sky above me , but i failed once more , the only thing I managed to do was getting myself wet from the rain, i blocked all my emotions again , and headed to the car, i saw the rainbow in the sky , with it's beautiful colours , and wished for Blake to be here , we loved watching it together or more likely I did he just kept complaining on how girly iam , his words not mine , yet here iam now wishing for his company once more and it has only been two days .

I dried my self up before I got in the car with my destination in mind , when I got there people were piling in the streets looking at the sky as if waiting for it to rain gold ! .

I forgot it's not moody town anymore , i felt homesick and wished i could go back .I felt like i was banished ,that I no longer belong there , it brought sadness to my heart , but i remembered that of i didn't achieve what i came for , then I won't be banished from moody town only . I will be banished from the world or maybe dead , the people could just decide that the lack of my existance was better than being a risk to their lives , i never really thought of how powerful I can be , i mean the sky is pretty wide , for how far does my powers reach , and is it possible that I might have caused fear I other places other than moody town ! , the thought only made my stomach hurt , i felt nauseous .

I gained my control after a few seconds of steady breathing , i looked out again to see people more confused , but i couldn't ignore the set of blue eyes which were looking at me and frowning , but soon his attention was taken by the little girl who ran to him , she was so cute with brown hair , in a pony tail and a very beautiful blue dress that matches her eyes , he threw her in the air and she giggled , they looked so good together , and suddenly it downed on me that this girl is another person to add on my stay away list , an innocent girl who should be safe and away from me , i hope iam strong enough to do it , as she just pulls me to her just by her existance .