High School troubles

Noah

Hi, I'm Noah and I want to tell you about my high school experience.

I attend JS charter school. The school looks good from the outside but truly no one really knows what is truly going on inside of this hell-house

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My friends think they know what is going on but they don't either, they are blinded by their cool activities like Football and Clubs and what not.

Two years ago, my mom and dad split and I was forced to choose who I wanted to stay with. I thought staying with my mom would be a good idea because she always seemed so kind and caring unlike my father. After a few months, my dad made the announcement he was getting married and this drove my mom to the deep end. Not because he got married but because he got married before her and that how he could get over her so quickly. She started spiraling and making up stories like he was cheating on her before. After a while, she started drinking and staying out late. She forgot she had a kid. She would bring home random dudes and smoke in the house. She was a absolute mess.

I thought she would get better but she didn't, she just got worse and worse. When she didn't feel god about herself and the things she were doing she would yell at m and slap me and beat me up. She even said that she regretted having me and that he wished i would just die.

After taking this t*****e for almost a whole year, i started getting into bad things like her. I started drinking and using fake ids to get booze and i started smoking and doing drugs. Did my mom care? Not at all.

No on knew about any of the stuff that was happening to me. My friend Joshua, who I have known forever, didn't even know. To make my crappy life even worst, I realized that I was gay and I had started to catch feelings for my best friend Josh.

I couldn't tell him because I knew he didn't like me like that and even if he did what would he say when he found out about my life and everything. I would lose my one true friend. I would just want to keep my life and my friends separate.

Months had passed, and I got got sucked in even more, and I thought it couldn't get worse.

There I was, standing in front of my locker, when Joshua came up to m and told me he was gay. It shocked me at first but he was just like me. He then told me how he felt and asked me how I felt and it was too much for me to handle. I knew what I wanted to say but what could I say.  I couldn't deal with this right now, so without saying anything I just walked away.

The next day, Joshua didn't talk to me at all. I thought he was mad with me. When I tried to approach him, he would just walk away. Did I do something wrong?

(Part 2 coming soon. Read for more off Joshua and Noah's story)