Edge of darkness

The day I died

I wanted to scream. I wanted to tell them that I am alive. I wanted my aunt to stop crying. I didn't want anyone to cry for me but it was all happening. They were talking about getting a coffin for me. Then someone was asking Thomas if he wanted to bury the boy or incinerate him.

'What the freaking hell?', I screamed with all the strength I had left in me and more and I was sure they heard me. I heard someone shouting that the dead body moved following by a few gasps. I felt something touching my neck and my chest and then my wrist. I tought of grabbing it but could not move at all not even a hair.

Doctor was explaining them about rigor mortis(way of stiffening of body for a few hours after death)and it may have caused the body to move but I knew I wasn't dead so its impossible for my body to get stiffened now.

And what if I was dead.

Even so, rigor mortis doesn't happen if the death is caused by burning. Atleast I know that much about the body. I was losing hope and with that I felt myself losing my consciousness. I held it together as long as I can but I was felt as if the sand clock of my life had a hole on either sides. Even thinking anything was hard as I gave my all to put up with last thread of my sentience.

Soon they decided to incinerate me. I felt a little jolt and I knew that I was being carried on a stretcher. I slowly lost consciousness. After a while I regained my consciousness but was still in the same vegetative state. There was nothing I could see but I could still hear everything clearly. I may be the first living person who was hearing others planning about burning him alive just because they think I had already died. Tho I did not love to get such an amazing achievement at such young age.

I couldn't die now. I had regrets, I had many wishes and many deep desires that I had not been fulfilled yet. It was not the time for me to die yet. I heard them talking about putting me into the incinerator. I heard a metallic sound followed by some clicks. After a while, I heard a whoosh! My whole body turned hot, it felt as if my bones are melting from inside. Such an intense pain that I can never explain not even in a millennia.

Slowly all the sound dissapeared leaving me alone in that cold darkness. Next moment, I felt my mind numb as my body already was. The darkness continued to engulf me. I was afraid. I was thinking' what doctor said earlier was going to be the sole truth of my life now. That...that I was...dying. So, is this how someone dies?

IS THIS HOW I AM GOING TO DIE?

I guess so...

I think, this is the day I died...