CHAPTER 14
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"Goodmorning ma," I tried to hold my tears from falling. And Tristan was glaring at us, s**t. I shouldn't make myself obvious.
"Okay ka lang ba?" kinalas ni mama ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakayakap ko.
Ngumiti lang ako saka tumungo sa ref saka kumuha ng baso.
"Oo naman po ma." Nginitian ko si mama saka iniinom ang tubig.
" Kumain ka na ba? Sumabay ka na kay Tristan." Sabi ni mama habang nag hahain.
"Kumain na ako ma. Pagod lang po ako. Magpapahinga po muna ako." Paalam ko kay mama saka umakyat.
Hindi ko pinansin si Tristan. Pakiramdam ko ay pinagtaksilan ko siya. Alam ko namang walang kami pero hindi ko malaman bakit ganito nararamdaman ko.
Umakyat ako sa kwarto saka nilock ang pinto. Buti na lang at sabado ngayon. Huminga ako ng malalim at saka bumalik lahat ng nangyari kahapon. Paulit ulit kong inaalala lahat ng nangyari.
Hindi ko maalala kung sino iyong lalaking umawat sa bar. Siya rin ba yung grab driver/ yung nag serenade? Inuumpog ko yung ulo ko mga palad ko para piliting alalahanin ang lahat.
At muli ko na naming naalala yung pag gising ko na wala na akong damit.
"Fck!" pinikit ko ang mata ko.
"I was being rape?" tanong ko sa sarili ko.
Sinampal sampal ko ang sarili ko para maalala.
"s**t!" I remembered it!
He was going to bring me here but I refused to. I remembered him asking where to take me but I was teasing him! FCK!
Sinampal ko ulit yung sarili ko. Hindi pwedee! I never been out of myself. Did I just..
Fuck! Did I just think that he was Tristan?!
I rolled myself in the bed. Back and forth.
Inumpog ko yung sarili ko sa kama.
Naalala kong binuhat niya ako papunta sa elevator pero pinipisil ko ang muka niya.
Nilapag niya ako sa kama saka tinawag yung babaeng nakasalubong naming sa elevator.
Kinumutan niya ako pero hinawakan ko ang kamay niya saka ngumiti! f**k! Ano ba tong ginagawa ko!???
"Trishaaaan" I whispered
Tumalikod na siya pero mas lalo kong hinigpitan ang pagkakahawak ko sa kamay niya.
He doesn't tell any single word. He took his phone and he was talking to someone.
"forget it. Don't come here" He said hanging up the phone.
"Niloloko ka lang ni Abby" bulong ko.
Kinalas niya ang pagkakahawak sa kamay ko saka nagumpisang maglakad.
"IIwan mo na naman ako" Nagsimula na akong humikbi
Hindi siya nagsalita at muling naglakad.
Nahihilo ako pero tandang tanda ko na bumangon ako para habulin siya.
"Hahabulin pa rin kita kahit may mahal ka na" Nagsimula na akong maglakad papalapit sa kanya. Humihikbi at pagewang gewang ang lakad ko papunta sa kanya.
Huminto siya sa paglalakad at muli akong nagsalita.
"Trishtan " Humagulgol na ako sa pag iyak dahil hindi ko na kayang pigilan ang nararamdaman kong sakit.
Niyakap ko siya mula sa likod.
"Please piliin mo naman ako kahit ngayon lang," Wala akong pakialam kung nagmumukha akong kawawa at naglilimos ng atensyon.
Kinalas niya ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakayakap sa kanya dahilan para ma-out balance ako.
Pero agad niyang nahawakan ang baywang ko at tinulak palapit sa kanya. Nagtagpo ang mukha namin. I couldn't see him clearly kasi lasing ako at nahihilo.
Pinulupot ko ang kamay ko sa leeg niya.
It happened so fast that I found myself kissing him.
He didn't respond so I called him.
"Tris.."He cut me off and started kissing back.
His lips felt so good. With the gentlest kisses, ramdam ko yung pananabik at uhaw sa pagmamahal ko kay Tristan.
I pulled him on top of me and started to unbutton his clothes. He stopped kissing me and took my hands and took a deep breath.
"Look, I didn't want to take an advantage. I am not Tristan and you keep insisting that I was. " He told me and started to fix back his clothes.
"Tristan, Please ibibigay ko lahat mahalin mo lang ako. " hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at nagmamakaawang mahalin niya rin ako.
Umupo lang siya sa gilid ng kama habang nilubog ang mukha sa kaniyang palad.
"Hindi na kita pipiliting ikaw si Tristan 'wag ka lang magalit sa akin," umiling ako at umiiyak pero wala akong pakialam.
"This is all wrong," he said looking at nowhere having an empty look.
Humarap siya sa akin.
"I will take you to Trist...tan" I didn't let him speak and I was trying to help myself out of the bed. I took the wine beside the table and started to sip it.
"Stop drinking!. " I heard him smirk and took away the bottle.
I could feel that he's already annoyed but I just can't help it anymore.
Kinuha niya iyon at umalis.
"Iinom inom hindi naman pala kaya"- I heard him murmured
"Such a Naive"
"I'll be back.Matulog kana" He said.
I was so drunk and crazy that I felt the wind touching my skin.
It was from the open huge window glass. I started walking. Pagewang gewang ako pero nakarating ako doon. I opened it widely. Tinaas ko yung kamay ko para damahin ang hangin. Suddenly I started to feel my tears. Mas lalo pa akong lumapit sa bintana at sinisigaw ang pangalan ni Tristan. I was so desperate.
I took another step when he pulled me away from the window. Pinunasanan niya ang mga luhang tumutulo sa muka ko.
"Don't throw yourself just for a guy. You are worth it more than anyone else. He doesn't deserve your love." He said and hugged me.
"Pero mahal kita Tristan. I murmured. " My tears began to fall again.
I was so hurt. Halo halong emotion nararamdaman ko but I keep pushing myself to him.
I tried to kiss him and he kissed me back. Nag init ang paligid at ibinuhos ko lahat ng pagmamahal ko sa kaniya. I attempted unbutton his clothes for the second time but then again that makes him stop.
"Do you really want to do this? " He whispered.
"You might regret it."He added.
I didn't answer him and continued to unbutton his clothes. His other hand roamed around my body. He lifted his head and kisses me. He helped me out in my remaining clothes and once again, it feels like raining lust and needs as our lips and body touch.
"You shouldn't allow me as a stranger doing this, unless I'm your husband,"
I smirk and he continued.
"I will marry you if you asked me to" I said and started kissing him back.
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